Different Sides of the Fence

Different Sides of the Fence

By Lorraine B.
© 2006 All Rights Reserved

Chapter 1:

The day was overcast, gloomy and raining off and on, this was not a good day for me as I walked into the off campus apartment I shared with Daniel Carson. I was caught in a cloudburst and drenched to the skin, the only good thing was that today was Friday and the next two days were mine. My mind was reeling from past events during and after my last class. I was not a happy camper to say the least as I slammed the door to our apartment shut and threw my knapsack full of books down near the couch.

Dan was sitting at the living room computer desk looking at me in amazement saying, "Uh oh, bad day Kat?"

"Nah, my entire world went to shit, that's all." I said as I went for a towel to dry my hair.

"You too Huh? Mary Ann and I just broke up, this time for good." Dan said.

"Good riddance! I told you she was a gold digger, how are you doing otherwise?" I said as I stripped off my clothes where I stood and taking them to my room.

"I'll survive but Mom blew her cork saying the same thing you did. Damn what is it with you both that you can see people for what they truly are? Anyway Mom said the same thing without even knowing you."

"It's a gift, Dan; Tanya and Lee will be here soon to get me ready for the character immersion part of the play we're doing next. Damn it sucks!"

"So what's the play this semester? Pearson and Ball kept it a deep dark secret. Are you doing the casting and directing like you did for La Mancha? People are still speaking about La Mancha that you did last term it was fabulous; those actors fit their roles. Tanya and Lee are makeup and costumes aren't they?"

"The Unsinkable Molly Brown, this time around but set for whenever. Do me a favor and look up Mary Frances Reynolds on the Net, find her vital stats and a picture of her in that role please, while I shower. Please let the girls in when they come."

"Better than that I have the DVD in the library. Sure but who the hell…wait a minute…isn't that Debbie Reynolds?"

"Yeah, so? Hey pretty good for a Sancho Panza, look I really have to shower, I'm freezing." I said leaving the room and thinking about what crap I was going to go through very shortly with Tanya and Lee. What I didn't say was that I was going to be playing Mrs. Johnny Brown and I was not a happy camper about it.”

Okay, so there have been times I have dressed as a young girl or young woman in the past, both for costume parties and plays for supporting roles. When they couldn't find a shrimp to play the girl parts, guess who was that girl? As the thespians say, The Show Must Go On!

While I climbed into my shower my thoughts shifted as I adjusted my water and closed the door.  What pissed me off was that I was short, slight statured, longish, dark reddish/blond hair; alright my voice was high both speaking and singing. Okay so I wasn't the most spectacular male specimen on the planet but I also wasn't the most effeminate either or so I thought. In either case I was still a virgin and shaped like a bowling pin, which was always a sense of grief for me and amusement for others.

I checked my body over and shaved what body hair I had, as I was told to do by the diabolic duo that was coming over when I heard our buzzer, which I ignored when my shower door was abruptly pulled open several minutes later with Tanya saying, "What in the world are you using on that body of yours?"

"Soap…" I said as she threw a body wash, conditioner and shampoo at me saying, "Use them and don't give me any crap. Lee is getting ready to do your hair in the kitchen. From what I can see we'll not need much padding or a gaff, yet I do have some ideas in prosthetics."

"Thanks Tanya you really know how to boast the male ego."

"Sorry but I don't see any males in this powder room just two girls; just you and me. Especially with that young girlish shape you have. Look Kat you're not quite five foot two at one hundred pounds, small frame, almost a petite size four or five with a thirty-two chest, maybe a twenty-one or twenty-two inch waist but those hips are about thirty-two or three. I'd kill to have a figure like yours, with my breasts of course. My clitoris is bigger than your thingy!" Tanya said giggling and pointing toward the nether regions of my body.

"Thanks Tanya, just what I needed to hear from you, any more humiliation?" I said as I scrubbed my body. It was true I was humiliated to be told by this girl but I had no words to combat what she had said was true. Here I was a eighteen, almost nineteen year old virgin, the lowest of the low being a freshman going into my Sophomore year being compared by a beautiful creature that was a Junior and would graduate next year. Tanya is indeed gorgeous, as is Lee, yet they're spending this time with me.

"Tanya, why me and why the leading female role?" I asked somehow know what the answer was.

"Because, Pearson and Ball asked us to immerse you into the part. Look the leading lady character was very young and petite when she was married. We all watched the movie and saw the stage performances on film. Okay Damnit, I was in the back row near Pearson when I said facetiously said that Debbie Reynolds and you looked and sounded very close to each other at your audition. " Tanya said shutting down the water and stepping back from me as I gave my dubious look and then realized she hadn't lied with me saying, "So it was you that started this crap, gee thanks, with friends like you I don't need any enemies." While I dried off angrily ready to tell her and everyone to stick the role but with my luck she'd probably stick it in my ass with something large and long that wasn't lubricated.

"Kid you did great with that last production but this will give you further respect in what all actors go through to perfect their roles. Once we have finished with you there are no more boy clothes until the end of the play run. Phyllis Pearson said she already notified all your instructors and administration of what is being done to and for you."

"But classes as a girl? I can't, I just can't do that, the Jocks and the Frat Rats already give me a hard time, now you what to get me killed." I said as Tanya powdered my body.

"Pipe down squirt, no one is going to kill you, Lee is speaking to Dan about that, by the way he doesn't know it yet but he's playing the role of Johnny Brown, Now put these on girl, but of course you may lose these to those jocks and frat rats." Tanya said handing me a pair of golden yellow satin and lace panties, a matching bra and a short gold satin robe with matching satin mules.   

I knew better than to say much of anything to this fireball. In my short time in the drama department I learned that Tanya and Lee where both as high up on the evolutionary scale as the two professors that had picked me for this role. I found out also that it wasn't only my wholesomeness or my resemblance to the actress that had played the part but it was also my facial expressions and my singing voice that landed it. When the hell did I sing for them? Oh shit, was it during Man from La Mancha? But that was only during rehearsals. Was it during my audition for the drama department?

I shivered as I drew the panties up my legs and up to my waist with them being a perfect fit. The bra was heavily padded in a A cup and was also a perfect fit as I clasped the hook at my back. The robe was heavenly as I placed it on my hairless body with Tanya smiling and saying, "Feels good Huh? Get used to it girl." I nodded my head in agreement as I slipped on the wedged heeled mules. Tanya wrapped a towel around my hair and led me by the hand toward the kitchen, when I put the brakes on saying, "I can't, Dan is out there."

"Oh yes you can, he's not here, you wuss. We sent him out on some errands and for food. We also called the restaurant to take their time making the food." Tanya said as she dragged me closer to the kitchen.

"Damn Tanya she does look like her in the face, but we'll have to help the body, hair and nails a bit." Lee said smiling.

In six very long hours and three bottles of wine later to anesthetize and release the depression from me, I now had the makeover that most females would sell their souls for; the only problem was that I was a sort of male. I was nearly in shock when I was shown myself in the mirror. My hair was a thick mass of honey blond curls that reached below my shoulders from the perm; my hair shone from the highlights that were added to enhance the color of my dark blond hair. The eyebrows were now thinly arched. My pierced ears were studded with sparkling zirconia. The fingernails were extended by a half inch and painted a deep, dark, rich red, as were my toenails. My eyes were accented in fuchsia and gray shadows, my makeup was flawless and the lashes lengthened. My lips matched the polish and were very full and kissable. When a photo of the grand lady was held next to me to see I had to admit I did in every respect look like her with longer hair. I sincerely hope that this was flattery to her image and I was determined not to do a drag queen impersonation of her.

"I guess she likes our work." Lee said just as the buzzer announced another visitor. I was ready to flee into my room when Lee took my hand into hers holding me still, as Tanya went to the door allowing Phyllis Pearson and Ernie Ball entering the apartment with Phyllis saying, "How's our star doing?" They and I were amazed as they took in the picture of the woman that received an Oscar Nomination for that movie with me reprising her role of Molly Brown.

"Ernie, would you please bring our star her new wardrobe from the step van and take her old clothes out in the hall down to it." Phyllis said and Ernie complying.

"I think this was the best makeover job I ever did, wasn't it Kat?" Lee said hugging me.

"I think that Kat is very inappropriate now considering her status." Phyllis said smiling while I was still trying to comprehend the female pronoun of her and the saying, "Mom always said I was going to be named Kathy spelled K A T H L E E N, Kristen Piet if I was born a girl so I guess we'll grant her, her wish."

Ernie had returned with a trunk saying, "Lee, you said the clothes were out in the hallway?"

"Yes, that's where I placed ten bags of boy stuff, why?"

"Well I think we'll have to replace it all. The bags weren't out there." Ernie said as he went out the door again. Great! Now someone ripped me off of all my clothes and shoes. The whole shebang got lifted and I was pissed off.

"Kathy, I know you were drinking before and you are underage but now I suggest you have a drink." Phyllis said as she escorted me to a chair and Lee poured a glass of Rose' Wine for me.

"Well Sweets, at least you'll have clothes to wear." Lee said as she handed me the wine glass.

"Yeah all girl’s clothes and I'm not even a girl."

"I beg to differ dear, until the end of the run you are and will be all girl everyday for the next several months, for this term, the entire summer and next term. In the fall you will be Molly Brown. Ladies, will you unpack Kathy's new wardrobe for her?" Phyllis said as Ernie brought in another trunk and left again.

"Sure, but will she have enough room for everything?" Tanya asked with Phyllis saying, "Make room for her wardrobe and I expect the both of you to train her well in our womanly arts, your grade depends upon it to be accepted into graduate school. And you young lady, better be amenable and an apt student by my TAs instructions. As far as anyone knows she has always been a girl, got it?"

Young lady? Girl? Parties and plays are one thing but living as a young woman is a different story altogether. Oh crap, then there's Dan to think about and every male there is of the same species. If I look like this but with clothes on leaving the apartment, I'll be in for the roughest six months of my life. I'll have the mark on me, if anyone finds out the truth.

"But professor, I can't…Classes…chores…"

"Sorry Kathy but you must, look sweetie we do it every day of our lives. You must learn to be the epitome of that grand, elegant lady you will be portraying as she portrayed Molly Brown. You will become her, the original actress, and her character that is why you are learning the immersion technique of acting." Phyllis said as Ernie came inside several more times with yet more trunks and saying, "That's all twenty-five trunks, now ladies please get this young lady dressed so that I may get the full effect. Besides it's not proper for a young woman to sit around dressed as she is with men present."

Again I was dragged from my chair and into the larger of the two bedrooms seeing added furniture that was once Dan's room with me saying, "Ah…This is Dan's room…"

"Was Dan's room is the keyword, now it's Kathy's room. Now off with the Bra and robe please." Tanya said as she started to bring out more clothes than I had ever seen before in my life.

Lee first wrapped and hooked me into a strapless gold satin corset that went just barely below the waist with Tanya pulling the cords taunt and tying it off. It was so tight I had to take short breaths while they both pulled up some loose flesh up and placed it into the bra cups. It gave the illusion of my own breasts and looking a bit bigger and with more cleavage. I was seated at a vanity table as sheer black stockings were rolled up my legs and fastened to the garters of the corset that were drawn through my panties so I could use the toilette without stripping. Next was a gold colored half slip and straight crepe skirt that zippered and buttoned in the back resting the hem about one inch above the knee. The jacket that was added was the same crepe material with a contrasting collar of gold and white embroidered flowers with a tapered waist and seven pearl buttons. The shoes added to my feet were gold, sling back sandals with a transparent vamp, gold strappy overlay with almost a three-inch, clear Lucite heel that fit just as well as all the clothes did. A thin gold necklace, bracelet and anklet were added and I was made to walk toward the full-length mirror in the room while the three women smiled at me into my reflection.

"See dear we told you, you could do it. Tanya you were correct we do have our younger Debbie Reynolds for the next show." Phyllis said as I stared mesmerized at the reflection in the mirror. After looking at the previous picture that the girls held I could be her twin but just an inch or so taller after I read her statistics.

"C'mon Kathy let's show Ernie and then I get to take him home and have my way with my husband." Phyllis said smiling taking me by the arm and leading me after spraying some perfume on me.

"Husband, we all thought…"

"Yes dear Kathy, he is my husband, Pearson is my stage name and I will say this, I bet Daniel and his pants will tent when they both sees you." Phyllis said giggling just as I entered the living room with Ernie and Dan sitting on the couch watching television.

When they heard us their heads turned with Dan giving a long wolf whistle and then saying, "Wow, is that you Kat?"

"No longer is there a Kat, this young lady is Kathleen from now on and I smell food." Phyllis said with us girls going into the kitchen and preparing plates. Okay so I called myself a girl, the way I looked, I sure as hell wasn't a corned beef sandwich on rye bread with a pickle. I felt at ease and at peace in the constraining garments I wore, besides being taller with the heels. I felt and acted graceful; being femininely demure with the attention I received. To be honest although this was not the first time I was dressed like this, it was blissfully natural to me, but the next months would be my trial by fire.

In some respects I’ve denied the real me and she has returned with a vengeance.

After preparing a plate, a glass of beer and utensils for Dan with all his favorite Chinese foods, I went back into the living room with it and handed it to him. He seemed a little taken aback that I was serving him until I smiled at him with Ernie saying, "Shit, she even has her smile, oh yes she will work out fine."

"Phyllis, you won the bet. Ah…Daniel please don't look at me like I have four heads…they both have them!" I said being cut off by Dan and hearing Phyllis giggle.

"I'm sorry but you're so damned gorgeous."

"Well in that case dear sir, I thank you for the complement, now eat, If you want anything else please call your personal waitresses and we'll get what you would like, of food that is."

"Ah, Kathy, I see what I would like to have right now and even later on." Dan said as I giggled and walked back to the kitchen with my hips swaying seductively. After preparing my plate I sat down after I smoothed my skirt to the delight of the women as they watched my every move. When I crossed my legs after I had finished, Tanya said, "I really think you really are a girl."

It was then I told them about the hell I received from other kids until I became active in drama, clothes design, dance, chorus and art. I won many awards for the schools I attended, from grade school to high school. I was what some commonly referred as creative and faggot by others. I won't say I was a brain, as I had to study probably longer and harder than any kid to get myself here into this college. I forgot what a social life was, preferring the solitude or the company of adults at the Little Theatres and Dinner Playhouses that never ridiculed what they saw before them.

"I was there when Kathy auditioned; she did Memories from Cats, Damn she was good." Tanya said.

"At first I was leery when I read the synopsis of her audition but now I agree her costume and makeup were the exact duplicate of Elaine Page's character. I was so lost into her performance I thought I was watching Cats from the audience again and Elaine Page singing the song in London." Ernie said coming into the kitchen to attack the Egg Rolls and the Dim Sum.

"Yeah, that's true but she almost killed me and Roger in that Singin' In The Rain number Good Mornin'. Did you know she made the costumes also for that number? She drove us all crazy for three weeks getting the number right since I…"

"You have two left feet and not a bit of patience, when I was making those costumes for us all." I said smiling.

"We found out about the costumes later, yet I was amazed to see a boy dancing that number in heels and a dress. You were doing it so naturally but that was also what brought on the idea for this next project, with I might add along with the blessings of the Board of Regents, after they saw your audition tapes and read my proposal for the next show. That's also why you and Daniel were cast into the leading roles, that was their stipulation to the play and I believe they think it will be a guaranteed success. Kathy, the only problem was they don't know your true birth status, but they insisted. Who are we to argue with them? You both have a certain chemistry, a finesse that you hardly every see anymore when you both work together." Phyllis said smiling just as the buzzer went off at our security door and Daniel having a stupid look on his face hearing he was the lead male.

I was in a panic when I heard my mother's voice on the intercom saying, "Okay Daniel let me in please, it's raining again." The fear etched on my face was evident to everyone in the apartment. My mother was here, why? She never comes here because she hates to drive the two hours to get here so I always have to go see her. On many of the trips, I dragged Dan with me not only for the company, but to make sure that peace was maintained in the house being that I come from a somewhat nutty family.

Mom was five foot eight and built like a female immortal human dynamo that relished any form of activity to keep her fit and her mind occupied. Dad was, from what I remember, over six foot and a couch potato that loved his televised sports and beer. I know they're exact opposites but hey, at night they used to make those bedsprings dance and sing. By occupation dad was an extreme high voltage electrician that maintained those generators that feed electricity to the homes from the Hydro generating plant. That was until before his death in an electrical storm repairing those generators for the grid. While Mom is an Assistant Administrator for a large five hundred-bed hospital in the major city near us.

Daniel met Mom at the door and introduced her to everyone while I hid in the background until that Fayeful moment Mom said, “Sorry about the surprise visit kids, but my schedule gave me the weekend off and I wanted to spend some time with the both of you.Where's Kat?"

It was then that the waters parted and Mom got a good look at me with her eyes widening in surprise and sitting down very slowly to a vacated chair saying, "Oh my, please turn for me dear and then come over here." I did as she said and came to stand away from her at arms length.

"I told you Mrs. Piet, Kathy will be a hit in the show." Phyllis said as tears formed in my mother's eyes.

"Kathy? You remembered what we were going to name you if you were born a girl; I am so very pleased that great grandma's name fits you dear. Now I would like a kiss from my daughter for the next several months." Mom said as I went to kiss her cheek and she held me to her as she stood with her saying softly, "She looks so very much like my mother and grandma. I can't believe, I mean I've seen her in character before and for the parties but I had no idea."

"Dan please bring my cases up from the car, I mean if it's okay with you, I'd like to stay here with you for the weekend?" Mom asked.

Dan and I both agreed with him to bring up her cases seeing my mother smile and me saying, "Mom I have household chores and a paper to do…"

"So, we could all help you and tomorrow we'll all go out to eat dinner as my guests." Dan said as Lee and Tanya begged off as they both had dates but Phyllis and Ernie said they would be honored to come.

Okay, I failed to say that Dan's family was loaded or was that Dan? Whatever, he was the one to rent this apartment. It was quieter, cheaper and had more privacy living off campus than on campus for the both of us. I was fortunate to have seen his advertisement on the Drama School bulletin board; okay so it was a three by five card. I refused to sponge off of Mom, we meaning Dan and I shared mostly all the expenses of living together but still living costs rose that I had to work for the college part time in the drama department, do fashion design and seamstress work for the students at a reasonable price. Dan was happy, though our interests weren't similar. It was just so he didn't have to cook; but he did help do many of the other things around our home that we shared.

While Dan and Ernie had brought in mother's cases, we meaning, Tanya, Lee, Phyllis, Mom and myself sat around the kitchen table discussing what was going to happen in my immersion process of my craft. From what I gathered Phyllis had spoken first to Mom several weeks ago and proposed this transformation I went through to her. Although how I had turned out was far beyond what anyone had or could have imagined possible.

It was getting on past One AM when everyone pulled the plug for the evening, leaving Dan and I in the very capable hands of my mother. I kissed them all and thanked them for what they had managed to accomplish in such a short amount of time. Sure I was pleased but deep down inside of me I missed the old male self and had regrets about what was done to me. Was I concerned that the old male me would return? I didn't know. What I did know is I felt correct in my role. But was it a role or my new life?

Just as the door was closed and locked for the night Mom spoke saying, "Now let's sit down and talk for a while, just the three of us, okay. Just family?" with the three of us going back into the living room with Dan and I sitting on the couch and Mom sitting in one of the living room chairs.

"Daniel, are you okay with this situation? I mean with Kathy being here now instead of…"

"Sure Mrs. P., besides Kathy is a hell of lot prettier than my former roommate was. I also think Kathy has always been around." Dan said as the alarm bells sounded in my brain when he said the words prettier and has always been around.

"Kathy do you really know or sense what journey you are about to embark on? Being a young woman is entirely different from being a young man, as you will soon find out. Kathy dear, live this time to the fullest as a young woman with no regrets in anything that you do. But do be careful in what you do. Daniel I expect you be the perfect gentleman, as you always are. I ask that you be around and for Kathy's protection. If there is a problem call Phyllis or me immediately. Also if you call me anything other than Corrine, Mother or Mom I will take…"

"I get the message Mom, jeez before this immersion stuff…"

"Oh Daniel, I'm sorry to put you through this, I don't want anyone to think the worst of me, especially you." I said as I reached over and touched his hand with mine that he took into his and held it. I felt an electrical charge flow through my body. I saw the smile that formed on my mother's lips as he held my hand with the charge flowing through me. Why in the world was I allowing this show of affection toward me by Daniel? I knew I wasn't Gay but then I think I might be attracted to him in so many ways that I couldn't begin to describe. Did I want to be his lover or friend? Well that was obvious that I wanted and valued his friendship, a lover, not hardly, well maybe. Oh I don't know! I was still a male just as he is.

"Okay so I guess we all agree, Kathy is coming with me to her room and you Daniel, make sure we're safe for the night." Mom said as she got up and walked to Daniel giving him a kiss on the cheek and pulling me along with her to my new room.

"My goodness all of these still have to be unpacked?" Mom said as we went into the bedroom indicating the stacked clothing trunks. I nodded yes looking at the mess of trunks stacked all over the room. It would take me forever to unpack all of them and get the trunks into the storage area. However Mom just smiled and said it would be done before she left. She wasn't too pleased with the overly male bedroom set and said it would have to go and more closet space was needed. Ah, Mom, this is an apartment not a house were my thoughts as she spoke to me.

In a manner of speaking I was happy she was talking to me and then I realized she was talking to her child, her daughter and not her son. I recalled that this is the way it was each time I prepared for a role or party. She had something to say and to share with only just her daughter. I felt privileged to hear her words of wisdom. I felt closer to her with a stronger bond to this woman that bore me. I paid attention to every word she said, as I carefully undressed with her watching my every movement. She seemed pleased and proceeded to undress herself with me in the room saying, "You do know Daniel likes you?"

"Sorry Mom, I don't have the right equipment." I said as I rummaged through the dresser for nightwear finding a pair of hot pink satin pajamas.

 

"Love will find a way dear. Just remember he sees you as a woman and a potential mate, though I doubt a conquest. Haven't you ever noticed he always treated you as a female?" She said as she unloosened the ties of my corset for sleeping.

"That's madness! Mom I haven't changed…"

"Oh but you have changed dear, you now fit his visual senses of the girl he has always seen you as, in his mind. Oh I brought you your allergy pills and Grandma can't wait to see her new granddaughter, she sent cookies for you both and several blueberry pies." Mom said as I thought, great I have a roommate in sexual lust, pills that put me asleep and a grandparent that wants to stuff my face and fatten me up. She pulled out a pair of the pink satin pajamas that could have matched mine from her case and immediately put them on.

"Mom, did you supply my wardrobe?" I asked, as she smiled not saying a word. She could be devious and I had to assume she had. Let's face it I was a student, didn't have a pot to piss in, I wore small sizes that wardrobe normally didn't have, I was too stubborn to ask for anything unless I earned it so I would say yes.

Once we were attired somewhat properly I was dragged into the bathroom and instructed in makeup removal from her standpoint and not the theater profession. While stripping off the makeup all I saw was that girl still in the mirror. It was as if the old me was gone I think for good. If he was gone would I miss him, I don't think so, however I would miss seeing this girl in the mirror that I now saw. I gazed at her face to study it, not seeing anything resembling my former male self and left for the bedroom climbing into bed.

In minutes Mom joined me, sharing my bed with me and hugging me to her breast. This was something she had not done in years with me. I closed my eyes and fell asleep, feeling the security she offered me that I had not really felt since I was a child.

Chapter 2:

My dreams that night were not remembered as I awoke the following early morning. Mom was still asleep as I left the bed to answer the call of nature. I silently grabbed the robe and slippers I wore the day before and headed off to the powder room, did my business, washed up and brushed my hair to where it was the evening before. Once again that girl was staring back at me from the mirror but this time she was smiling, as I headed off to the kitchen.

I made a hot breakfast for everyone when Daniel came into the kitchen, placed his arm around my waist turning me around facing him, when he kissed me tenderly and with an ardor I had never experienced in all my life. I attempted to struggle at first and then gave into his desires and mine. Oh yes I liked it and I wanted more, ever so much more.

"Am I interrupting something? I smelled the food and I'm starved." Mom said forcing us to break our embrace. Mom had that look on her face of I told you so when she looked at me.

"Ah, no Mom we were just…" I said as we both turned red from embarrassment.

"Kathy dear, I am not blind nor am I stupid, however I am hungry." Mom said as Dan helped me to bring the food to the table with him sitting very close to me with his leg touching and rubbing mine which I might add he had never done previously. Was this some sort of mating ritual that men were supposed to do? I guess I will have to discuss this with him and send him to the showers or quite possibly me too, I thought as I took my pills that Mom had brought. Damn with my luck he'd join me. Hey, maybe that might work!

We had finished eating when Daniel went out for the morning paper with just Mom and I in the apartment alone for a few minutes when I told her what Dan was doing to me at breakfast. She giggled and said he was very interested in me. Just wonderful and what was I supposed to do when she wasn't here to save my sorry ass? I had no experience in handling men or my emotions. What do I do? I know, just don't bend over at the waist!

By the time Daniel came back, Mom was already into the shower and I called Daniel to help me wash and cleanup the kitchen. In minutes we were finished when I made him sit down in the living room with me saying, "Daniel what in the hell is wrong with you? I put on a skirt and what you want I can't give you. It's to the point I'm afraid to bend over and you trying to put a smile on my face."

"Kathy, we've lived together for almost a year, I've always liked you and thought you were something special. I'm sorry but I fell in love with the female you when we were working together for your audition. I was the one that broke up all those relationships, because I really wanted you and me to be together, only I didn't know how to bring that girl inside you back to me. I would never harm you for any reason."

"Daniel do you know what you're saying? I don't have the right equipment to properly make love, I can't give you kids and right now I'm so damned confused…"

"Kathy darling, listen to the man, he's being totally honest with you." Mom said loudly from the powder room.

"Daniel, listen to me please, your parents will have to be told and what happens if I decide to revert to my former self after the run of the play?"

"For some reason you and I both know you won't, I've never seen you so comfortable, so self assured and so positive. To be honest with you, Kathy is not only hot but spontaneous, sweet and outgoing. That’s why I love her so damn much."

"How in the hell can you love me? Don't you understand I can't…"I said as I got up and ran from the room to my bedroom crying. I threw myself on the bed and cried heavily until I felt someone sit next to me, placing their arm around me and lifted me to them. On opening my eyes I saw it was Daniel that drew me up into his arms and held me to him as if I was a porcelain doll. I started to calm down as he held me to him with him saying, "Kathy, please don't cry. I see your point in everything you said, but there are also rebuttals to every objection. First, my parents will love you as much as I do, but they don't need to know everything at once. Secondly, we can adopt children. Thirdly, you could get the right equipment, until then we could still…"

"Daniel, please don't even say it. I'm so sorry for running away from you and I promise I won't do it ever again, but now is not the time to talk with Mom being here."

"I agree, yet this conversation is not over between us." Dan said as I nodded agreement and shooed him from the bedroom so I could dress and start on the housework.

I made the bed and went into the closet I found a pair of khaki slacks, a dark blue sweatshirt and brown loafers just as Mom came into the room shutting the door and saying softly, "Darling believe me when I say he does love you. You both have excellent arguments but they can and will be worked out. Do you remember when you were little when I used to dress you as a little girl and we would go out together? Never in your life did you act like a boy when you were young. One of the reasons I stopped that was your dad asked me to because he was afraid that you'd be imprinted with being a girl. I loved him so much I did do as he asked, but when you asked for the dancing lessons and everything else that goes with being a girl I had to break my promise to him. I let you dress as you wished. When you were growing up I saw things that made you different from all the other boys. I saw myself. I saw your grandma and great grandma in you and saw none of the male side of the families. When I saw pictures of you and then the girls of our family I saw you."

"Like sexual predisposition? Mom when I was made over yesterday it felt right, when I saw myself in the mirror it was as if I always saw this person when I saw the old side of me it was a stranger. It was just like all the plays and all those Halloweens of the past, or when I grew my little breasts for no apparent medical reason."

"Darling all I want is for you to be you, we wanted you to be happy, and that was what your father and I decided so many years ago. When you played all those girl parts and studied En Pointe in Ballet that was when he, no we decided to let you choose your own path, by the way Mrs. Kraven thought you were one of her best students. I was the one that gave you sewing lessons after you begged me to do so. We also knew from the teachers you had asked for those roles and they called me for permission. A few teachers thought it was strange, but others cared less as long as you participated." Mom said as I went to her and hugged her that she returned ten fold to me. For the first time I felt relieved that I wasn't doing anything wrong in dressing and acting as a female, strike that, acting as myself yet I was still scared.

Mom went with me to the powder room after Daniel took his shower and I chastised him for being a slob. I made him go back into the bathroom and clean up the mess he made, while Mom smiled saying I was acting as if I was his wife. With the Bath cleaned up, we went inside and I took off my pajamas and lingerie with Mom's help. I was never so overjoyed to be freed from that corset and dreaded that I had to put another one on after my bath that Mom talked me into.

While I relaxed in the hot fragrant waters of the bath Daniel snuck into the bathroom excitedly saying, "Sorry but I just got off the telephone with my Mom and I really need your help or I'm dead."

"Daniel, calm down and speak to me, what's wrong?"

"I'm screwed that's all! I forgot about my older sister, Lisa's wedding in three weeks, Gracie was going with me to protect me from those moronic, man hungry, penniless, society bitches looking for Daddy Warbucks, now I'm screwed without a date."

"Oh no, you want me to take her place and protect your big, hairy ass." I said making him go get Mom and letting her hear what he wanted from me with Mom saying, "I think you'll have fun together. Dear you're an accomplished dancer and actress, pretend that this role is for the Oscar. Tonight I'll speak to Phyllis and I'll speak to your mother, we'll work something out, now Daniel get out of here and let your girlfriend and my daughter finish her bath in peace."

Mom forcibly pulled Daniel out of the bath but not before he kissed us both, me on the lips and Mom on the cheek. I felt an exciting tingle as his lips brushed mine that I told Mom about when she came back saying it was the magic spark to start the fire in a relationship. Great, now please keep the flammables away!

Leaving the bath I dried, powdered and was helped into pink colored fresh lingerie being trussed tightly into another satin corset without garters. I drew suntanned colored knee-highs up and was helped into my jeans.  Mom watched carefully as I did my makeup and then putting on my sweatshirt and brushing my hair. I placed a pair of dark blue leather pumps with a two-inch high heel onto my feet with my Mom saying, "I think you're more girl than you're willing to admit Kathy, but of course I've always known it."

"I don't know about that, but I did watch you an awful lot and to learn the makeup application for the stage. No Mom, I never used your stuff without your permission. I don't know it just feels so natural for me doing all of this." I said as we both walked from the bathroom and started the chores. With the three of us working we were finished in no time even with me doing the laundry and unpacking all of the trunks. Mom had called Phyllis and spoke with her confirming where we would eat which was the Pisa Palazzo Ristorante at Seven PM. The Pisa Palazzo wasn't the swankiest place in town but it has inexpensive good food, excellent service and very private. Phyllis and Ernie had also arranged an escort for Mom that just so happened to be my English Literature Professor, Edward Tavis and he was coming to pick up Mom. Talking about a stacked deck against you, well there it was.

We all managed to relax even as I worked on my paper at the computer enjoying each other's company. Just as I finished the last word of the paper Mom announced it was time to get ready. I told Daniel that if I was going dressed up, so was he going to be especially if I was going to be his girlfriend for the wedding. He was so pleased that if I had asked him to wear an electric lime green tuxedo and a purple paisley silk shirt he would have done it.

In my room I choose a red one-piece dress that was sleeveless with scalloped edged lacing and a gored chiffon skirt that went exactly to two inches above my knees. My shoes were red leather sling back pumps with an open toe and three inch heel.

With Mom's help I was into new red panties, red strapless corset with garters and a half-slip. I was about to put on sheer stockings when Mom gave me a pair of red stockings she had found in my dresser. I redid my makeup for evening and stepped into my dress and shoes. A quick brush to my hair, jewelry, perfume, red purse, and red sweater and voila, I was ready.

Going out to the living room I was greeted by the most handsome sight I had ever seen, Daniel in a three piece light blue/gray pinstripe suit, a white shirt with French cuffs, and blue tie. My Lord, he even had his hair combed! We both smiled at each other and approved of what we saw and lightly kissed each other. He took my hand into his saying, "Kathy, for my sake please don't ever revert and you're so damn beautiful." I leaned over and kissed Daniel when the buzzer rang with me going to the door and then downstairs allowing Mom's date Edward Tavis in saying, "Hi professor, Mom's still getting dressed."

"Young lady please stop and turn around for me. Are you in one of my classes? Oh no you're in…. my but you do have a striking resemblance to an actress, Oh dear Lord, you're…"

"Yes professor, I'm Kathy Piet and my Mother, Corrine is expecting you in our apartment." I said as we walked up the stairs, entering the apartment with Edward Tavis saying, "If I hadn't of seen you before your transformation I would have said impossible, now I stand corrected. Have you finished the paper I assigned you?"

"Yes sir, but I haven't cleaned it up yet."

"For the next assignment I would like for you to create two journals and enter all your experiences. I would like one daily entry and one synopsis of your week, be as graphic as you wish and start from your transformation date. I'll be right back." The professor said as he left the apartment and return in minutes with a camera bag saying, "In addition to the journal I would like photo documentation both film and digital to accompany it and since Daniel there is also in our class he will be the photographer.

I will speak and show these photos to all the professors on your behalf, speaking to them personally. Mr. Carson since you are also in my classes you will become this lady's shadow, photographer and whatever, just as Phyllis and Ernest stated to you. In order to prepare your instructors properly I insist you not attend classes until mid week so that we are all fully prepared for your emergence."

What emergence Darling?" Mom said as she entered making her entrance wearing a striking off the shoulder silk black dress that showed vast amount of cleavage, showed her womanly curves and that rested several inches above her knees with black hose and black, three inch, high heeled pumps. Professor Edward Tavis's eyes almost popped out along with Daniel, but Edward was really ready for action. I had to agree that Mom could be elegant in anything she wore but now she screamed sexuality. We made the introductions and Mom immediately was taken with him and his suave gentlemanly ways and panache.

Seeing that we needed to leave I went to my bedroom and slipped on a red pleated sweater coat over my shoulders and grabbed a black silk shawl that was moms from the bed, our purses and went back to the living room. I heard laughter and saw that Tavis and Mom had hit it off. It was funny because he seemed to be such a stuffed shirt but so could Mom. Oh well, two peas in a pod?

We locked up the apartment and went down to the car deciding that Mom and Tavis would go in the Professor's Cadillac and we would take Daniel's Jeep Cherokee. In seconds it seemed that I had sat and swung my legs into the Jeep with Daniel closing the door behind me. It was funny how much attention I was getting from him.

After pulling away from the curb we made small talk when he reached over and took my hand into his that I gave willingly saying, "Daniel, I'm a bit confused, I mean you could have any woman but yet I'm not a woman and you want me, why?"

"Kathy, maybe you're the answer to my prayers. When I dated other girls they wanted to be wined, dined and heavily gifted; even on the first date. You on the other hand live with me, we never argue, we get along admirably, you listen to me and are concerned. I see you working hard to make a few extra bucks and never have I heard you ask your mother or me to help you. I prayed for a woman like you every night and now as strange as it seems my prayers were answered."

"Daniel Carson, what did I tell you before?" I said forcefully.

"I know but please let's just enjoy each other; I don't mean sexually, but as a man and a woman having fun being with each other.” He said just as we pulled up to the restaurant and parked.

"Okay Daniel, it's a day at a time." I said as I gently squeezed his hand as he went out his door, around the car and opened my door. I swung my legs out and stood on my tiptoes, kissing his cheek saying, "Thank you dear, now will you kindly take me inside, I'm famished."  Dan smiled then closed the door and offered me his arm as we walked into the restaurant.

In the foyer, Ernie was waiting for us and took Daniel off to the side and spoke to him briefly. Daniel nodded his head in agreement and came back to me escorting me to our table.

Mom, the professor, Phyllis, Ernie and another couple were seated. Ernie made the introductions as Daniel pulled out my chair, seated me and then sat himself as he held my hand underneath the table. The new couple were friends of Ernie and Phyllis named Glen and Jessie from out of state that had come to visit them, also college professors. They seemed to be friendly but all through the meal it seemed as if everyone at our table except Daniel was watching me. Him, he just held my hand and had a stupid look on his face.

Daniel paid for the meal as promised and suggested we go dancing at a new club called La Cantina. I was game for anything at this point feeling as if I'd been under a microscope during the meal. At least if I felt those same feelings of being stared at the club Daniel and I could disappear on the dance floor or go back to the apartment if the place was crowded enough.

On arriving at the club La Cantina you could hear the strains of a Latin beat out in the street. Inside the club people were mingling but it wasn't overly crowded. We ordered from a waitress and then I took Daniel out onto the large dance floor when a Tango began to play. By the third Latin and Salsa rhythms that were played, we had a crowd watching, Daniel and I, as we suggestively traversed the dance floor when there were several flashes from a camera.

With the song finished I needed to sit down, cool off and drink something like the fruit punch I ordered, you heard me, fruit punch since I was under twenty-one. Before I sat I brushed Daniel's lips with a kiss much to everyone's delight with an older handsome Latino man and beautiful Latina woman coming over saying, "You kids were great out there on the floor. I'm Carlos and this is my wife Lupe we're the owners of the club. You both burned up that floor doing that Tango and showed the kids that the dance steps aren't that hard to do."

"Carlos just ask the kids, oh never mind tupido, you can be such a meathead at times. Kids could you come in twice a week for two hours and give dance lessons, we'll make it worth your while let's say a hundred dollars a day each, plus whatever you charge for the lessons, free food and anything you want to drink for each of you." We decided not to charge for any of the lessons just to bring the people in and taste the food, enjoy the music and the atmosphere of our Cantina; we want people to enjoy themselves."

"Kathy, since you have to keep limber for the show it might be a good idea." Phyllis said.

I looked at Daniel and Mom as they both smiled at me with me saying, "Since our manager over there has spoken, it would have to be on your slow nights wouldn't it?"

"Sure, Monday and Wednesday are the worst from six until eight PM. We have good food that gets wasted." Carlos offered with Daniel smiling and saying, "I think it would be fun for us to do Kathy, besides you'll need to dance with me in the play and at Lisa's wedding."

Why is it that the holes keep getting deeper and deeper for me? It took several minutes when I made a decision saying, “Please sit with us, Okay but tell everyone it's casual clothing but they must use the shoes they will be dancing in and they have to be functional for the ladies to move around in."

As Carlo and Lupe sat down Carlos said, "Caro, they will help us, now we have a chance to make this dream of ours work. You will not regret this decision, nuestro bonito chica y nuestro pequeño Salvador."

"Poppa, speak English! I am sorry but my dear husband does get emotional and reverts to Spanish, he called you our beautiful girl and our little savior. Please enjoy your evening but when can we expect you to start?"

"Next week Monday, so you can publicize the event we'll be giving dancing lessons at all levels from beginner to advanced from Ballroom to Latin American to Disco." I said with Mom smiling to show me her approval.

"We'll all help at the college, besides Ernie says I'm getting too rounded of a butt." Phyllis said.

"You are teachers there?" Carlos asked.

"Not all of us, that's my mother, this is Daniel my boyfriend and I'm Kathy, Glen and Jessie are friends of Phyllis and Ernie over there." I said not believing I called Daniel my boyfriend to everyone at our table. I just knew I was going to suffer for that faux pas once I was alone with the ladies. Anyway the gist of the conversation was we would make some extra money two hundred a week for each of us just for helping others to learn to dance. Hey it was money and I didn't care if I had to be Carmen Miranda and wear a fruit bowl hat on my head. Mmmm…Bananas!

We all had a grand time dancing, talking and just having fun for the next several hours. I saw that even professor Tavis and Mom were having fun, as was everyone else until about One AM when the day and evening was finally catching up with me. I asked Daniel to take me home and told everyone I was exhausted. We said our goodbyes to Carlos and Lupe and assured them we would be there to start on the following Monday and gave them our telephone number, address and slipped quietly out the door with Daniel's arm drawing me close to him with him saying, "Dear, did you know that those friends of Phyllis and Ernie are psychiatrists? They were both observing us."

I stopped walking suddenly and looked at Daniel saying, "No and how do you know?"

"When you went to the Powder room, I heard them discussing us and Ernie slipped and called them Doctors." Daniel said as we went to the car and he opened my door for me.

"Great, so now I'm psychotic! So where are the men in the white coats?" I said as I swung my legs into the car and he shut the door.

"That's not funny Kathy! Phyllis said sometimes it's hard for an actor to lose the character after the run has been completed when they immerse themselves. She never told those shrinks fully about you until your Mom told them; they thought you were born a girl. They said the female side of you was too natural, too deep for you to be anything else. With the immersion into Debbie Reynolds and her character of Molly Brown they said you'd be perfect and would always be yourself afterward."  Daniel said getting into the driver's seat and starting the engine.

I was silent as we drove back to our home after thinking about the situation I couldn't blame Phyllis or Ernie for what they did. I was distracted by my thoughts when I felt Daniel's hand take my hand and him saying, "Are you okay?"

"I guess so, I'm just tired from all the activity. It's funny that normally my Mom is the one that's a ball of fire and tonight I was glowing brighter than she ever did. Now what are we going to do with the extra money?"

"Oh I don't know how about we buy a house together and live as man and wife?"

"Daniel Carson, your parents and family would go crazy, especially if they found out about me."

"Naw, they all want me to be happy and I am when I'm with you. Mom even said I sounded happy after I called her back telling her I have a date and her name was Kathleen Kristen Piet and she will also be my fiancée."

"Are you totally insane or just blatantly daft, as the Brits say. What am I going to do with you? Daniel, please don't say things like that! You know…"

"Yes you can and you aren't a male as anyone can plainly see, even the shrinks said that." Daniel said as we pulled over to the curb. He drew me firmly to him and kissed me ever so passionately making my toenails curlicue as I closed my eyes. I felt my heart rate and respiration rise, my tiny breast nipples engorged and hardened as my body tingled in response to his kiss. Never in my life had I ever felt as I did now, my lord I wanted him, all of him in me to quench the fire that consumed me. We broke the kiss and stared into each other's eyes, I saw the sparks that my father had for my mother when I was younger and I saw not only sexual passion but also his love for me.

I had to think as things were happening too swiftly as I sat back into the seat of the Jeep as he resumed driving to our home. I remained quiet until we were at last through our apartment doorway and shut the door. I turned to him pulling him down to me by his arms and kissed him fully and ever so deeply reviving the few embers that had not died out from the ride home.

Daniel picked me up into his strong arms and carried me to my bedroom allowing me to stand, pulling him toward me. I felt everything of his as we undressed each other and explored our bodies as we kissed. We broke our kiss and I managed to remove the corset and stockings, putting on a black transparent negligee and panties as he went to the bathroom. I checked and repaired most of the damage to my makeup just as he returned to my arms. We positioned ourselves upon the bed and kissed, once again we explored each other with him beginning to probe with his dancing fingers lubricating me.

Oh Lord I was in heaven as he penetrated me making me squeal with the pain allowing a joyous, warm feeling within me. With each thrust he went deeply into me with me crying out my joy. My arousal grew as he sucked at my nipples and kissed me with that tingle that grew. It had grown in me was growing larger, and faster just as I felt he was increasing in size within me. Suddenly I was rocked internally by an orgasm just as he was releasing his seed into me as I cried out louder that I really did love him. Oh it was heavenly bliss!

I felt somewhat different after our act, not that it was dirty but it was fulfilling. Yes that's the word fulfilled, I want to use; I was fulfilled. Was I going to miss being a boy? Not in the least I thought as we held each other into our arms and kissed again. I saw that Daniel was happy just as I was fulfilled as I closed my eyes and drifting to sleep in my lover's arms.

Chapter 3:

I awoke at Six AM my normal time with someone's arms wrapped around me. Turning my body I saw it was Daniel and I kissed him saying, "Daniel dear, wakey, wakey, c'mon we have to get up now, so go take a shower, because your girlfriend wants you to get up."

"I’ll get up only if my girlfriend makes me breakfast this morning?" Daniel said just as I hit him with a pillow saying, "First you take my virginity and now you want breakfast, oh I guess so!" Then I kissed him, ran to the bathroom and locked the door. I used the commode and went into the shower. After a quick shower I felt clean, dried off and put on my shorty robe that was on the door and went out where Daniel was waiting and saying, "That wasn't funny Kathy and you know what?  I know for sure that I love you." I kissed him just as the buzzer sounded for the door.

"Now who could that be so early…Oh my, where's Mom? She didn't come home last night?" I said as I went to the intercom finding out it was indeed Mom and let her up. Just as I opened the door she and the Professor where there, on seeing me all she did was smile and headed off to change clothes with me right in back of her, letting the professor find his own seat in the living room.

"So my little girl is a woman now, so let me hear it all Kathy." Mom said sitting on the bed and I near her, telling her everything, as I saw her eyes tear up and bring me to her breast as she cried holding me.

"Mom, please don't cry; I won't do it again." I said with her responding,

"Oh no Darling, these are tears of joy for you. You don't remember how often I cried for you when you were beat up, both physically and verbally. I recall how sad you always were and how I feared the worst was yet to come.

Daniel loves you, you do know that and I think you love him also."

"But Mom I can't, I'm still…"

"Think about what you were about to say dear, now just enjoy your life with him." Mom said as she kissed me on the forehead. We both quickly threw some clothes on wearing basically what we wore the previous morning just to make breakfast. Mom and I walked from the bedroom holding each other with the professor and Daniel just shaking their heads mumbling something to each other about not understanding women and their moods.

In preparing the breakfast meal Mom and I shared secrets about our men just as any mother and daughter did. For the first time in the years since dad died she found a man that she really liked and was compatible with. I had to admit that Edward Tavis might be a taskmaster but he was well like by many. Several times as we were cooking I looked out into the living room seeing that Edward and Daniel were conversing civilly and even laughing at times making Mom and I giggle.

Once we finished the cooking I called everyone into the kitchen to sit down, as we brought the platters of food to the table with the men pulling out our chairs when we were ready to sit with Mom saying, "See I told you they were gentlemen, but it's a question of will you respect me in the morning after a certain point in time in any relationship."

"Oh I see we have a cynic amongst us, as we ingest this superb meal Kathy and you have made, Corrine."

"Mom isn't a cynic, though I am, especially going to classes dressed as I am."

"My dear young lady, you have been confusing the hell out of the students and staff for months. The only difference now is that your clothing matches the brain, the body and mannerisms now. I have also seen you come out of that shell you had and I like the new you. Daniel was telling me that you know about those guests last night, is that correct?"

"Yes sir…"

"No my dear, to you and Daniel it is Edward. Oh, one further thing, I expect your mother and I will be seeing more of each other."

"Ah sorry, okay Edward, yes and I heard what they said and what you did for Mom, Daniel did for me." I said smiling.

"Corrine, do I want to hear this?" Edward said smiling and taking my hand.

"Not unless you want to dear, now you'll see what I've gone through for eighteen years. Daniel after we eat I need your help to move my things into your room and for you to move into Kathy's room with her."  Mom said smiling to my Daniel's delight.

"You're not angry, Mom?" Daniel said.

"Why should I be, but I warn you she will be more than a handful." Mom said as I was banished to do the dishes and clean up the kitchen. While doing the dishes Edward came back into the kitchen to help me saying, "Kathy, I've come to help you and to prove once and for all to everyone that I am not a pompous, capricious ass as some have said." I had to admit that he was fun and was quite a wit as we cleaned the kitchen and dirty dishes. He showed a side of himself I never saw in his classes, that he was human. 

We had finished and sat down at the table allowing me to pour coffee for him and I, when Mom and Daniel returned and joined us. Daniel laid down an envelope and slid it toward me saying, "Carlos and Lupe gave those to me last night when we were leaving." On opening the envelope I saw they were copies of all the photos they took that night of us. It was the first time that I managed to see Daniel and myself from another's eyes and perspective. I looked at each picture and passed them around for everyone to see when Mom said, "Kathy I would like a set of these photos and show everyone my daughter and future son in law. Darling these are remarkable."

"They certainly are, the camera tells no lies; these will be part of your photo journal. I can truly see why she was chosen for the part of Molly Brown she does resemble Miss. Reynolds but she is still Kathleen. They both are excellent dancers after seeing them last night and that is a fact." Edward said as I was getting a swelled head with all the flattery when Daniel said, "Mom there's a photo shop on the next block that's open…"

"Why yes I'd love a set."

"So would I, to show Kathy's other professors and to explain her situation." Edward said as Daniel gathered all the photos and took them with him after giving me a kiss and running out the door.

"You're a lucky girl Kathy, he's so in love with you." Edward said as Mom agreed, but why do I feel like it's a comedy of errors. I took a sip of the now cold coffee just as Daniel came back saying, "They'll be ready by noon, Mom. I'll go get them, when they're ready."

The day was going by slightly fast with Mom deciding to stay a few days longer with us, which I enjoyed the idea. Basically we all stayed around the apartment, lounged around and were more than civil to each other.

Mom and Edward had gone out for dinner although they invited us to accompany them that we declined on the offer. Daniel and I ate a light dinner that I prepared and relaxed in the company of one another until bedtime and then the old motor roared into life as soon as the lights went out. It kind of went Va-va-va-voom and my engine was racing.

Chapter 4:   

The next day was not too remarkable, I forgot to eat breakfast, and I received my new I.D., I went to and then passed out in the library, was taken to the hospital by ambulance and was admitted. The doctor said I was run down, just a bit anemic and was wearing the corset too tight. I explained it was to prepare myself for a play but it went in one ear and out the other ear. Damn, I caught the riot act from Mom for that blunder and for not telling Daniel it was too tight. The University Hospital wasn't too bad and I was treated well but I missed being at our apartment home.

They had just brought me into my room when a nurse came in told me to roll over, stuck a needle into my butt and added something to the IV bag. When she left ignoring my questions, I became so drowsy I could barely keep my eyes open. I closed my eyes until a female voice that spoke softly into my ear saying, "Hi Ms. Kathilena we're going to take you upstairs now, so just relax and be a good girl for us." I was placed onto a gurney and covered up when I realized what she said. Upstairs? What the hell was upstairs? Who the hell is Ms. Kathi? I wanted to speak but somehow I just fell asleep, a very profound sleep.

I heard a voice calling me from a tunnel and listened to it saying, "Hi Ms. Kathilena, you now have your dream of having larger breasts like you wanted. In a few minutes you'll be back in you own bed and ready to go home later or tomorrow. Now just go back to sleep and rest dear."  Breasts, what breasts? Larger! how large?  What the hell was done to me? Dream, what damn dream?  I thought and tried to say with nothing coming out.

Awaking in my room in the hospital bed, Mom, Phyllis and Daniel were sitting by the window when they saw my eyes open and came to me with Phyllis saying, "Are you okay Kathy dear?" I tried to speak but nodded yes when I was given a straw and sipped some water saying, "Mom, what the hell did they do to me? Who the hell is Ms. Kathilena?"

"Oh shit, she knows Corrine!" Phyllis said as Daniel held my hand Mom spoke telling me there was another patient in this room and our names were mixed up. She was in for plastic surgery, breast implants to a B+ Cup and hormonal implants. After the augmentation procedure was complete they realized they had the wrong patient and found Mom at our apartment. They were all looking at a major malpractice lawsuit and contacted my attending physicians and told them what had happened.

My physicians' contacted Mom, Mom contacted Daniel and Phyllis then they had a brief meeting with the Admin types. Since Mom was an administrator she laid down the law to them and their screw up. Phyllis had contacted the two shrinks and told them what had happened when they told them I was diagnosed as being Transgendered, so the augmentation would help me be more comfortable in my new sexual status until the point my own breasts grew. They both went into clinical detail of what they had observed when they had met me that eventful Friday night. They also recommended the removal of the testes, hormonal implants and injections. Well guess what I have now and never had? Yep, breasts, hormone implants and no balls! It seems that I never had any testicles or they were invisible, yet in every physical the Docs said I did. Hey the Case of the Phantom Testes! I guess that would explain why I never had an ejaculation or erection. I was perplexed that this mistake had occurred yet I was also relieved that it did. I was now on the road to where I expect I wanted to be and that was to be a woman.

I looked at Mom, Phyllis and Daniel with tears in my eyes saying, "What the hell did I ever do wrong to…"

"Just a minute young lady, you did nothing wrong, it wasn't your fault. Maybe it was you father’s and my fault, I just don't know. What I do know is I have a daughter that I love dearly." Mom said tearfully.

"Kathy, all I want to say is for the past several days I've never been so happy and now I'm lonely. I brought this for you and I hope it cheers you up, please come home to me." Daniel said as he handed me a round poster tube that I opened with his help. Inside was a poster of us dancing together at the La Cantina. I had a smile on my face and so did Daniel with our cheeks and bodies together dancing a Tango. He placed the poster in a frame and hung it in front of me on the TV bracket on the wall, when a young nurse came into the room and saw the poster saying, "Isn't that Debbie Reynolds? I've seen all her movies I think."

"Nope, that's the young lady in the bed, one of my Drama students. She and her boyfriend there are going to be teaching Latin dancing." Phyllis said.

"I'm Patsy your nurse for this shift, boyfriend huh, I guess the docs maybe won't try to make a pass at you. Wow she sure does look like her, where at? How are you feeling Kathy? Any pain?" Patsy said smiling.

"At La Cantina next week, Monday and Wednesday, they're free too, as for the pain, some."

"Okay dear, I'll get you something for the pain and don't be surprised to see the Cantina full next week." Patsy said winking at me and leaving for the pain medication. I raised the head of the bed somewhat and smiled feeling some of the tension leaving the room when Ernie entered the room with Edward. Both men came and kissed me with Edward saying, "We came as soon as we could, how in the hell could they make a mistake like that?"

"They forgot to tell the Prep Techs and the surgical floor that the other patient was moved to another room. I'm just thankful it wasn't for neurosurgery or a limb amputation. “Mom said just as an older doctor walked into my room saying, "I'm Doctor Connor Bradshaw, Chief of Staff which of you ladies is Mrs. Piet?"

"Okay Mom, what else did you do to piss them off?" I said looking at my mother.

"Mrs. Piet I'm so pleased to meet you and you're Kathy. I came to apologize for our staff in what happened to Kathy. I'm just pleased it wasn't an irreversible amputation procedure that was done."

"I was also, but Kathy was the one that the mistake happened to."

"We know and I also know Jacob Rawlings your Chief Administrator. He raved about you when I spoke to him."

"Doctor cut the BS and spit it out. There must be a reason you called my boss?"

"I'm on the Board of Directors and our Chief Administrator is leaving to retire. I was asked to inquire if you might be interested in the position. Tyree liked your style when you came to the defense of Kathy and he dislikes the politicians that are lining up for his job. We would like to speak to you later at the Board Meeting, would you be interested?"

"Gladly, but I do stress to you, heads will roll because of this screw up with Kathy. No matter if I am considered for the position or not. I am her mother first and she is all I have, what occurred should not have happened anywhere." Mom said with the chief of Staff saying, "We all agree with you on the Board that's why we need a person of your strength and stature to lead this institution. We are here not only to educate but also to serve those we heal. We decided it would be run according to your rules. Somewhere along the way we lost sight of what our purpose is and we need you to show us. We meet in an hour in the Boardroom near the cafeteria."

 

"Chief, you can't be serious I'm not prepared for this meeting…. I'm not dressed for it."

"It's a casual meeting Mrs. Piet, so please be prompt and the name is Connor." Doctor Bradshaw said smiling and left us all with our mouths open to catch insects.

Whatever the pain meds were had ran out of my system seeing my mother at a loss for words. I had to giggle that she was talked to that way and she just glared at me and then smiled saying, "Do you think it's funny? I just might take the job so I can keep an eye on you and Daniel."

"Hey Corrine they can come live with you." Phyllis said laughing and Mom saying, "Oh no, but they can live next door to me. Kathy is an adult and so is Daniel, they have their own methods of doing things."

"I think Phyllis is correct in her reasoning of this situation Corrine." Edward said laughing with Mom slyly smiling, softly and seductively saying, "Dear, do you like having it your way in bed? If you do, just think about it every night and weekend in privacy. You'll be walking bow legged, that I will guarantee you."

Patsy, my nurse had just come back with a filled syringe and added it to the IV bag saying, “Wasn’t that the Chief of Staff that just left? I can't believe he's actually slumming with the peons."

"Are you saying he's disconnected or distanced from the staff?" Mom asked.

"I think he is. He needs to be seen by his staff, he needs to see and remember how hard it was working out on the floors, clinics and labs." Patsy said while Mom listened. That was the thing that Mom did best was to listen to others. She’d try to find a viable solution to any problem.

"Look I have to go to that meeting, make sure Kathy doesn't get up and start dancing or Daniel doesn't climb into her bed, yes Dan I love you too." Mom said to everyone and winked at Daniel. She gave me, Daniel and Edward a kiss and ran out of the room.

"Phyllis, in my drug induced haze was Mom just offered a job?" I asked with her nodding yes and Patsy saying, "Where? Here? As what a Doc? A nurse?"

"No she's a hospital administrator from the big city. She has a meeting with the Board of Directors." Daniel said with Patsy saying, "Oh crap, me and my big mouth. Please don't tell anyone what I said, especially anyone on the floors. I just said what everyone says privately." We assured Patsy we'd be quiet if I could have some ice cream, so I was hungry and it was a good bargaining tool. At least it made everyone laugh.

While Patsy went for the ice cream, the men went to the cafeteria for coffee and Phyllis stayed with me saying, "Kathy, I'm so sorry for getting you into this mess. It's just we needed this to prove we justify the money we get in our budget and the donations we receive."

"I promised I'd do this play, but I had no idea I'd get a set of boobs of my own or a boyfriend. You heard Mom, she said I refused to admit what I was and that was a girl. I love the theatre; to dance and sing but as a male I wasn't and would never be a leading man or be playing male parts. Fate is fickle but my fickle finger is also fate." I said as I raised my middle finger of my hand into the air making us both giggle just as Patsy returned with a bowl of ice cream and left when Tanya and Lee coming into the room with Tanya saying, "Damn we miss dinner and she's stuffing her face with ice cream, how're you feeling Kathy?"

"Sore as hell, and very full on top!" I said as I ate with the girls not understanding what had happened until Phyllis explained with Tanya rapidly saying, "A free boob job? What size? Isn't this taking immersion a step too far?" Making us all giggle. They were called by Phyllis and told I was admitted to the hospital after I passed out but that was all they knew until Phyllis told them. We also told them about the dancing lesson with them promising to drag in their boyfriends to the lessons after they saw the poster. With Lee saying, "Damn you do look good, but before we start the rehearsals we have to cut the hair a little shorter. Hey at least you don't have to wear falsies but we do have a surprise for you when you get out of here." I tried my damnedest to find out what they had but they refused to tell me, all they said is it had hair. They both said they had to go but they would see me when I got home and they both gave me a kiss before leaving.

Phyllis and I were talking when the men came back from the cafeteria. It appeared that they found out where the Boardroom was and walked to it hearing Mom's voice giving them all hell for what had happened to me, when they decided to leave the area very quickly not wanting to get caught eavesdropping.

While we spoke two very large sprays of red and pink roses and two large pink teddy bears were brought into the room by a Candy Striper saying, "Ms. Piet, these are for you." Placing the vases near the window and the bears on my bed with two cards. One card was from Daniel and the other was from his entire family and signed Mom, dad, your sister in laws, Lisa, Vicki and Brother in law Ted. I called Daniel over and kissed him for the gifts but asked him about the card from his family. He said he would explain it all later, yeah I just bet.

Mom had finally come back and she was actually smiling with Daniel saying, "Wow Mom, did you rip them out new assholes? We heard the loud talking when we were leaving the cafeteria." Mom looked at him saying, "You heard me Huh, I guess we'll have to soundproof that room."

"Well? You took the job!" I said loudly as she tried to quiet me saying, "Yes, I start next month and I need you all to start looking for a house for me. I have to go back, sell the house and get it packed up No one knows yet except all of you and the others can't know until it's announced by the current administration. “We were happy for Mom to say the least, but I was happier because I felt deep within me we needed to become closer as we had in the past few days. I was totally shocked when Mom asked me to choose a house for her that she trusted my judgment. Edward, Phyllis and Ernie had even asked to help her move but Mom declined as the hospital was going to be paying for the moving expenses.

While my guests spoke to each other I became very tired and closed my eyes. It was strange that I saw Mom and Edward playing with four adorable children that looked like Mom, two boys and two girls having fun laughing and running I heard the children say grandma and grandpa several times. I awoke suddenly with a big intake of air, Grandma and Grandpa; hold on there a minute, I'm the only child and I'm not married and I have no children. I looked around the room seeing that I was still in the hospital and it was empty. I looked at my watch and saw it was Six AM when the nurse walked into the room seeing me awake saying, "Hi Kathy, did you sleep well?"

"I think so, but I am sore. Could I go home today? I really need a bath." I said noticing my IV was gone, I guess it was removed during the night.

"I would imagine but the doctor has to see you first. Now a bath and breakfast we can do, plus your Mom, our new administrator brought you clean clothes this morning before going back home with Professor Tavis."

"Mom the new administrator, I don't know anything about it." I said thinking Hmm…, intriguing, Edward went back with Mom? And the nurse knows about Mom? Oh well she's a big girl that knows what she's doing.

"We, the staff received the emails from the Board, tell your Mom to watch her back as the people she beat out for the job are really angry and it's all politics in every hospital." The nurse said helping me up from the bed to the bathroom.

"The Board works fast, still I just want to go home. I have so much studying to do, plus my apartment is probably a wreck from my roommate."

"Roommate, that's not what we hear, we heard that hunk is your fiancé from your Mom. Oh your Mom said the hunk will be here about One PM, he has some chores to do."

"Sorry to disappoint you, but look there's no rock on my finger, so there's no fiancé just a good friend." I said smiling as I thought about telling the world about Mom and Edward, but then I didn't want to hurt Mom or Edward in any way, I just couldn't be that spiteful, it wasn't in my nature.

The nurse slowly helped to disrobe me as the water ran into the tub. When she removed the wrappings and sports bra from my new boobs I became enthralled as they moved when I did, they danced and jiggled. Damn I like them even if they were on me by a medical mistake. I just hope that when the hormones kicked in they wouldn't get too big. These looked to be about just right. Then I saw my face and saw a girl that looked like a truck had run over her.

"It looks like the swelling is a bit down and they look real; Doctor Varney did a good job as usual. He's one of the best surgeons we have. Now let's get you into that bath." She said helping me ease into the hot water and left me to my thoughts. I was even more comfortable with myself now as my body was beginning to look, as my mind saw myself. There was only one more thing to be done but I had to be sure that this being a woman was what I truly wanted even though I knew in my heart, it was right for me.

When the nurse returned she helped me wash up, wash my hair, get up from the bath and dry off. I felt clean but still had some of the throbbing pain associated with the surgery as I walked back to the locker near my bed wrapped in my towel, I had decided to eat breakfast after I dressed.

One opening it I smiled to myself, Mom had thought of everything for me except for pants or jeans. I did my hair placing it into a ponytail and did my makeup. Taking out a clean bra, garter belt and panty set in red satin I slid the panties up my legs and adjusted myself with the bra next, thanking the gods that be that it was a front hook. Once my breasts were into the cups some of the pain I noticed earlier was gone. The nurse helped me hook the garter belt and drew up the suntanned colored stockings up my legs that made me shiver which she saw saying, "I know what you're feeling, they feel really great and men love your legs in them." Oh yeah and I was slightly mad I never wore these garments more often then I had. I took out a simple short sleeved, red denim, shirt dress and was helped into it and stepped into a pair of red leather double strapped slides with gold embroidered designs on the straps that kept the shoes onto my feet with a two and one half inch heel red leather covered heel. One look in the mirror I unbuttoned several top buttons to allow my real cleavage to show. I was smiling as I turned toward the nurse and she smiled her approval back at me saying, "Those really do make a difference, don't they?"

I had to agree with her just as several doctors walked into my room. The nurse left just as the older doctor said, "So how's our patient doing?"

I told them better than the day before and what Mom had told me as he examined his work. That was when I found out that three of the other doctors were psychiatrists with me saying, "Originally I was to be immersed to become a female for a theatrical production and then the mistake yesterday. However what you see is me and I like me and so does my fiancé." Crap, I meant to say boyfriend if I said anything else or corrected myself with this Freudian slip they could misinterpret anything I say. I also explained that up until the other night I had never had sex with anyone or erections or ejaculations. I told them it felt natural for me to be the receiver of Daniel's attentions and seed with intending to continue having sexual relations with him. Not one of the physicians blinked an eye or said a condemning word especially when Daniel walked into the room and kissed me with me saying, "I thought you were coming by later to take me home?"

"Well doc can my future wife come home with me now?" Daniel said with me saying, "Future wife, my butt, where's the ring on my finger?" It was then he pulled a box from his pocket and opened it to reveal a four-carat pear shaped diamond engagement ring and two gold engraved wedding rings that appeared to be antiques. He took my left hand and placed the engagement ring on my ring finger saying, "Kathy I love you and need you. Mom sent this set Sunday by FedEx that I received this morning; it was my great, great grandmothers and grandpa's set." What could I say except that I kissed him and said yes but I placed a provision of us being married after I graduate. He agreed but somehow I felt a small marriage ceremony for us would be sooner and then the big one.

"Kathy and Daniel congratulations, but Kathy if you need to talk, call one of us at anytime." The older of the shrinks said handing his card to me with me thinking, if I was crazy sure but I'm not; I'm just Transgendered.

I was told I could leave since I didn't have any stitches and the incisions were glued, though I did have to see the Doctor in two weeks. I had Daniel go with the doctor to tell the nurses I wanted the hell out of this hospital. Quickly I packed everything and had it on the bed just as he came back with a nurse right behind him with a wheelchair. In seconds I was in that chair, holding my purse and teddy bears while Daniel took my bag and the roses. I took one of each colored rose and gave the rest of them to the nurses.

In minutes I was taken to the lobby and waited for Daniel to come with the Jeep. While sitting I saw several older people stare and begin to point at me when one older man came to me saying, "Excuse me but are you related to Debbie Reynolds? We apologize for all the staring and pointing but it just…"

"No sir, please don't feel too badly, I've heard the same thing from many people these past days. I will be reprising her role of Molly Brown in a few months so please come and see us and please let me know when all of you are there in the audience."

"We will and I thank you." He said and walked toward the older people smiling with the nurse saying, "Girl, that was class! I do believe you will be sold out for every performance. Damn the daughter of our chief administrator will be in the lead role; I just have to tell everyone. Hold on, I see your meds to take home are at the front desk." The nurse said just as Daniel drove up with the Jeep and ran to open my door.

 

Chapter 5:

I seemed to have sprouted wings when he stopped the Jeep. Ignoring the nurse I walked through the doors, to the outside and inside the Jeep. Daniel closed the door helping me inside, taking my meds from the nurse and kissed me in the Jeep much to the delight of those in the lobby that saw us. Once on the road he said, "Do you feel strong enough to look at a few houses for Mom?"

"Sure, besides I'd rather be with you than at home on the couch or in bed." I said smiling at Daniel with him saying, "Good, I contacted a few realtors and one would meet us. There are two homes next to each other, one has six bedrooms and the other two bedrooms and a housekeepers room but they both have the same square footage and are nearly identical outside. Both have been extensively modernized to meet the building codes, also they're close to the shopping areas, churches and schools and in the city."

"Sounds interesting, But why does one have six bedrooms and the other two?"

"One is for a family and housekeeper with the other for a single person or a couple and a housekeeper." Daniel said smiling. That smile was a devious smile that a man gives woman just before they drop their drawers and he packs the sausage to them. Why did I feel as if I was going to lose my drawers?     

Several minutes later we turned onto a tree lined street coming to an iron gated and fenced in property that he turned into. Following the tree and shrub lined drive a short distance. We went past a waterfall and pond to an older retro styled box house similar to what Frank Lloyd Wright loved to design. From what I saw so far outside, I fell in love with the home and grounds.

We met the realtor and were shown around quickly, making me further love the house. The houses we saw were designed and built by a Wright student and follower of his design school. The houses had fallen into disrepair and then modernized not long ago by the owner of both homes. Yes, one owner owned both homes I assumed it was used as a rental property but later I found out it was used as a sanctuary of sorts.

I loved the kitchen and dining room not only being spacious but also how they overlooked the pond, waterfall and gardens as a backdrop. The master bedroom on the second floor could take in three or four of the apartments we lived in. In all there was about four thousand plus square feet of combined living space from the basement to the family floor on five acres of wooded gardened land.

Like a little kid I went exploring each of the homes we went into, not going into the basements or storage areas along with not noticing Daniel and the realtor were both deep into discussion. Mom would go crazy when she saw the upstairs of the other home it had no walls not even for the bathroom and was the perfect open loft area with tremendous amounts of light and a porch/ deck around the entire second floor just as the first house had. The basement rumpus room could be used as additional bedrooms for guests, giving the owners the much needed and wanted the privacy they deserved that was explained to me later. I wanted to explore further but became distracted in the dining room just imagining what it would be to entertain in the houses. On my way from the kitchen I saw Daniel and the realtor shaking hands and coming to me with him saying, "Do you think Mom would be happy here?"

"Oh yes, I even love it."

"Okay, well now you really will have to marry me, I just made an offer for buying both homes, they just went up for sale. The County is the seller they were given to the county in an estate and we're getting everything for pennies on the dollar."

"But…Mom will go crazy that you did this without consulting her. Besides what the hell do we do with a house? How are we going to pay for it?  “I said stunned.

"We live in it and I'm paying for it because I love you. Mom knows and I told her how you were acting, that's why she said to take it. Sweetheart she trusts our judgment and I knew you loved the house." Daniel said with the realtor coming to us smiling and saying, "The County accepts the offer you made on both properties Mr. Carson. They wish to close as soon as possible, two weeks or sooner, congratulations on your marriage Mrs. Carson I hope you both have many happy children for your new home."

"Ah, thank you but…"

"I'll have my attorney take care of the financial details now don't forget what else I want and along with photos and descriptions of the homes." Daniel said as we all left the house and were at our car with the realtor saying, "Sure sir and thank you both for looking and purchasing the homes. They really belong together."

Daniel opened my door as I sat and swung my body into the Jeep as he went around to the driver's side. What in the hell possessed him to by a house? What in the hell made him tell the Realtor we were married? Sure I liked both homes along with the wooded and pond areas, but damn he must be out of his mind, four thousand square feet that's an awful lot of cleaning to do.

When he was inside the Jeep I slapped him on the arm saying, "Are you out of your mind? And you lied to the realtor about us being married. Daniel these last few days have been hell for me, maybe I should see that shrink?"

"I thought you liked the house? So we'll get married sooner."

"I did, I do, but it was for my mother not for us. Damnit what about the furnishings? I mean that's Art Deco Modern; it'll cost a small fortune to furnish it. Sooner! I don't even have valid ID or a birth certificate."

"Okay, and those homes come with the furnishings and other things that the previous owner had in storage. Mom said she's sending your amended birth certificate tonight by UPS along with your legal name change papers that were approved by a judge she knows. Now as for marrying me how about sooner, like before Lisa's wedding?" I was so angry I wanted to cry and I did when Daniel stopped the Jeep and took me into his arms saying, "Kathleen, please don't cry, I did this for you. For us, for our children."

"Damnit I can't marry you! I'm still a boy with the boobs and body of a girl. Children, how in the hell do you expect me to conceive when I don't have the plumbing for it. If you want children than you'd better find a fertile woman and marry her or knock her up."

"Sorry but I love you, now if you don't mind let's go home and discuss this." Daniel said pulling the Jeep into traffic. I knew he was angry and so was I; we are the perfect match I guess. I just didn't want him to ruin his life and then have him hate me in the future. Okay Damnit, I love Daniel! While he drove, I went through my objections and then told him the truth that I loved him. The big goof hit the brakes so hard the Jeep skidded to a stop with another car almost hitting the Jeep in the rear and then going around us giving us the horn and the one finger salute. Yet it all was worth it all when he kissed me. Damn, it was worth it!

He smiled all the way to our pitiful student hovel and so did I to be truthful. Once we were home I called Mom at her job and told her I was fine and home also, about the homes that Daniel just bought and told her to store or sell her furniture as her house was furnished. Mom was pleased especially with the negotiated price that Daniel constructed for us and I was proud of what he did to help Mom. I had to admit he has a fine mind for business.

I told Mom also about the argument that we had and the realtor calling me Mrs. Carson, she laughed saying not to feel offended but honored to be called Mrs., as that's what most girls' dream of being someday. I knew better than to say anything that was contrary to what Mom thought as we just started to get closer again. I gave Daniel the telephone and I went to the bedroom and slipped out of all my clothes and looked at my perky B cup boobs; then I put on a nightgown nestling my boobs into the laced bodice, covering myself with a robe and slippers onto my feet.

Looking into the mirror I admired the swell my new breasts made in the clothing I wore. I was pleased with the accident that happened in the hospital. I was pleased with how I looked, but somewhat angry as this is how I should have looked years ago just after puberty if I was born a female. Oh well it's too late now. Bullshit, it's never too late! Damnit I used to dream of being a girl and doing girl things, now I'll be all that girl and more. I want Mom to be proud of her daughter. If Daniel wants a wife, he has her, me. If he wants children so do I we’ll adopt.

I walked from the bedroom going to the kitchen and poured two sodas for Daniel and me, noticing the dirty dishes in the sink. I took his glass out to him and returned to do the dishes and cleaned the kitchen up. Okay so I could have made Daniel do it, but it really wasn't that bad so I guess I could forgive him.

When I finished I poured another soda and went into the living room and stretched out on the couch putting my head on Daniel's lap and closed my eyes when I felt his hands softly manipulating my nipples and breasts that went from painful to erotic. Damn they were sensitive, as they grew harder to his touch, when I felt that tingling. My breathing began to increase when I took my hand and lowered his zipper fishing out his manhood. I caressed it, I rubbed it and I loved it, as I squeezed it gently. His concentration in talking with my mother was getting harder for him until he had to hang up. It was then I went to my knees before him taking him fully into my mouth and down my throat. This was an action I was doing that I had read about and fantasized about doing fellatio as a teenager. I dreamt about doing this for my husband for many years and now I was really doing it. I remembered each loving step of how to gently please him after practicing as a teenager with a frozen banana. When I sucked on his testicles he went wild with joy, when I licked his penis from the scrotum up the shaft to the tip, he almost ejaculated and then he did ejaculate after I took him down my throat and sucked him as he released. When he orgasmed I sucked him dry, putting a smile on my husband's face with him saying, "That was unexpected and nice darling."  

"Well wives do things that are unexpected for their husbands. That was an apology from before and payback for driving me crazy for you when you were playing with my breasts." I said kissing Daniel and began walking toward the bathroom to cleanup.

"Damn, they look great but I forgot how much they still hurt you. I won't do it again."

"You better do it again, but just let me get over the pain dear." I said as I cleaned up. I had no regrets in what I did now or when I, no we made love together earlier. I would not miss my old boy life; as a matter of fact I was enjoying this new aspect of my life. I embraced this side of me I had always dreamed about but yet dismissed it.

Walking back to my bedroom I reapplied my makeup thinking I had always dreamt of wearing the clothes I wear now, I have always dreamt of having the correct anatomy, a woman's anatomy. I have always dreamt of having a husband, having normal sexual relations with him and raising our children together. I wished silently I could have our children to feel them grow within me to give them life and to birth them, was this possible?  It was funny that my mind had repressed these things that I now felt was natural to do.

I had finished reapplying my makeup and walked back to the couch and was assisted by Daniel to lie down upon it while he sat on the floor next to me taking my hand into his when our telephone rang. I answered it finding out it was Melissa, Daniel's mother needing to speak to him. I gave the phone to Daniel and went to the kitchen taking my medications and brewed coffee after speaking to her for several minutes. I had never met her personally but we have spoken and she seems sweet, but you could tell her family comes first, as it should with any woman. While brewing the coffee my thoughts shifted if I could ever be half the woman my mother or his mother is. Could I be happy being a wife and mother as they were? I shook my head thinking that it was a selfish thought I had just had. Sure my happiness was important but so were my husbands and our children's happiness. There's that word again Children; sorry two words husband and children. Was I prepared to assume those two new roles in my life? Did women feel this way also? Where they ever confused by these thoughts?

I went back to the couch and lay back down and covered myself with the throw covering. I had just got comfortable when I was handed the telephone back with Daniel telling me that his Mom wanted to speak to me.

"How are you feeling dear?" Melissa asked as I told her I was fine now. I thanked her for sending the rings to Daniel, for the flowers and the teddy bear. We spoke about the new house and how enthralled I was with it but was leery with never having seen the furnishings. I remembered as we spoke seeing one bedroom that was or could have been a nursery at one time and told her about it getting very excited with Melissa saying, "So my future daughter in law, you will call me mother, are you both sure you want to do this? Do you both want to make us grandparents? I'm so pleased you both are getting married; it was a surprise for us. We thought his roommate was another boy but now I'm sure that's not the case. Wade your father in law is ever so happy. Welcome to our family dear."

The questions were fired rapidly with me answering them as fast as I could. I said we were both sure we wanted to spend our lives together, I asked her if we could invite the family to a small civil ceremony after Lisa's wedding which she agreed to. I told her I did want children but not right away and I'm the only roommate Daniel had ever had. I had that feeling that she knew the truth but was too polite to say anything or I was reading too much concern in her voice; no matter I was committed to be a bride. I said goodbye to my almost mother in law giving the telephone back to Daniel as I was falling asleep. All I remembered as I drifted off, was Daniel was still talking to Melissa when I went out for the count.

My main dream was maddening that started with Daniel making love to me in our bedroom in our new house. I watched intently as we made fantastic love and I already had my completing surgery. I looked a bit older in the dream but it was no doubt it was us. On completion of our act I watched as the bedroom door opened and a little girl in her pink-laced nightgown that looked like me came into the bedroom, she yelled mommy, jumping onto the bed with us. I took the baby into my arms and hugged, kissed, tickled and played with her. That wasn't too bad until the little girl flipped the covers to reveal my extended belly; I was pregnant that I didn't see before.

My dream fast-forwarded to what looked like a hospital room and Daniel and my mother were there and I was on the bed. The perspiration was flowing as I huffed, puffed and screamed seeing that I was in very heavy advanced labor. I saw the birthing team come into the room adjusting my legs showing that the baby was crowning. In minutes the baby was in my arms and suckling at my breast.

It was then I woke up with a start and screamed for Daniel, drenched in my own perspiration. He was suddenly at my side as I cried holding him and telling him what I saw, what I didn't tell him was that my dreams sometimes came true; the keyword here is sometimes. Still I knew that people that had the surgery to complete their sex could not conceive children not having all the baby making equipment or could they?

"Dear if you could conceive would you?" Daniel asked as I answered by saying, "Yes, no, damnit I don't know! It scares me that I'd be carrying around a new life that the baby would be dependant upon me, my body."

"Darling I'll be there to support you and help all I could." Daniel said and kissed me just as our buzzer rang, with Phyllis, Tanya and Lee waiting to come up. Daniel buzzed them up and let them in with Phyllis saying, "Why the tears girl? Corrine called me, congratulations on the house kids."

"Damn I am jealous, she has a hunk of a man, getting married and now a house to start a family, all she needs is to get knocked up or adopt. Let's see the rock, doll." Tanya said smiling as I showed off the engagement ring and had tears flowing. They had concerned looks on their faces when Daniel said, "She had a bad dream that she was giving birth to our child."

"Thanks Daniel…How…never mind, you and my mother have big mouths." I said as I held my hand out to them and Lee saying, "What's so bad about that? It's normal for a woman to dream about her children. That ring is gorgeous! Do we get to be bridesmaids? Can I be your midwife and an aunty?"

"But I'm a b…"

"Not in the least little girl and I, we said before we never thought you were a male nor does anyone else." Phyllis said coming toward me and hugging me while Daniel began to hang my poster that he had framed up in the living room. I looked at our images on that poster and thought of that night, damn it was a grand night in every possible way from the dinner to making love.    

I guess your right, but there are so many times that I'm…confused." I said.

"Lee, go get that item you both made and those movies that are in the car. Kathy, Edward, Ernie and I spoke also about this journey you are about to embark upon earlier. We would like you to watch several of the great female stars along with Debbie and their films to see their fluidity in their roles. I would like you to pay close attention to Debbie and her comedic nature and her facial expressions. We want you to watch even the comedic stars such as Goldie Hawn, Lucille Ball and Carol Burnett and others, over the past years. Watch how they all retain their femininity, yet give a comedic performance. Edward has asked how the journals are coming? He still wants both written and photographic journals." Phyllis said as Lee ran out to the car.

"The movies sound like fun, as far as those journals I haven't done anything since Sunday." I said as Lee returned with several large boxes. In the boxes were movies and there was a smaller box that was handed to Tanya with her saying, "Hey wait a minute, how come it was handed to me?” She said as she opened the box exposing with what looked like two bottles with a liquid in them and a dead animal or something with curly hair with Phyllis saying, "Because you're the expert Tanya. Daniel, please leave us, this has to be a girl moment. Okay now Kathy off with the nightgown and drop your lacey drawers please."

"I want to watch!" Daniel said as Phyllis threw my slipper at him barely missing him as he ran to our bedroom.

"Damn and you sleep with that Neanderthal? At least he's cute."  Tanya said laughing.

I slowly took off my nightgown and panties as I was told to do. I knew better than to get these three angry besides I was happy to take them off with them being still damp with Tanya saying, "Damn they did a good job on your breasts the swelling is almost gone. Now you're going to have to spread those gorgeous gams of yours sweetie and you'll feel wet and cold down there and some pulling." Tanya said as she was pulling on latex gloves and wiping the area down. I watched as she picked up that furry critter and turned it over and applied a liquid to it and let it set. Next she applied something that was left on for about fifteen minutes and wiped off in that most private of areas. She next took some alcohol preps and betadine solution and cleaned off my crotch area that burned the hell out of that area, making me scream. Next she applied hydrogen peroxide to clean off the other stuff while Phyllis had brought some ice and gave the bowl to Tanya. Lee and Phyllis each took a leg and spread me wide. Do I appear to be a wishbone? Okay girls, it not let's make a wish time!

Tanya was right that I did feel wet and cold down there, her playing with the ice gave me a chill, then I felt pulling of what pubic hair I had and then she said, "Girl, you can look now. Oh I forgot to tell you it's fully functional and will stay glued for six months."

"What in the hell did you do now? Holy shit!" I said in surprise as I looked down with Lee's help seeing that furry critter attached to me between my legs. By all appearances it looked like a vagina, I kept from touching it silently I hoping it wasn't a snapper because the damn thing looked hungry to eat anything placed near it. Hmm…, Oh Daniel honey!

"Damn girls it looks real, great job. Kathy, Tanya and Lee made that prosthetic for you and were making your boobs when you received your own from that accident. I want you to have and receive the full effect of what every woman goes through on a daily basis, now dear girl we can truly call you sister." Phyllis said as I thought, what the hell have I experienced if not the full effect. I probably have done things in the past few days that most females had not even done or experienced and surly not males. My lord I have a set of breasts and hormones that were surgically implanted that I didn't even order. Hell I'm even engaged to a man that wants to marry me and that man even bought us a house to raise our children. Our children? Oh hell yes, I want as many as we can handle. I turned toward Phyllis, Tanya and Lee saying, "I beg your pardon, full effect, kiss my fat, round ass." Looking at them I went into everything I just thought about venting my pent up anger when Daniel heard my voice as I ripped the women apart loudly.

As he came closer I covered myself, once I saw him with him saying, "I wasn't going to get involved, but Kathy is in pain and upset; I don't want her upset. She's gone through hell and what I heard her say was the truth. She's more woman than many that were born that way and I love her." I saw the amazement in all three women's eyes that we had the audacity to tell them where to place their full effect at, when Tanya spoke saying, "They are both right and I think professor, you were wrong. I see Kathy not only being an actress, but also a proud woman, wife and mother. I saw that the day she auditioned for us. Phyllis, think of what you'd do in her situation? I think she's handled herself admirably."

"Tanya I would say you're right, because after speaking to her mother and the shrinks I see Kathy as always being one of us. I also need you both to help me with her; she needs to be taught social skills of what we learned since birth." Phyllis said, as I needed to leave to use the bathroom. I lifted the blanket and sat up seeing that Daniel's eyes went wide seeing my anatomically correct body. Gathering up my robe, I saw the major tenting of his pants and his lecherous smile of lust, as I ran to the bathroom with my breasts bouncing and showing my new sex.

Chapter 6:

I had to smile as I relieved and cleaned myself. Daniel was correct I had become outspoken and self-assured. If I was like this years ago, I regret to say I probably would not have gone through the hell I went through. It's too late to lament the past now; I had to forge on and proceed with whatever the future held for me.

While washing my hands I looked at the symbol of love and promise I had on my left hand. That ring I wore professed the love and promise we had both made together to share our lives together. In my mindset I was no longer a male as what I had thought of myself. Besides how in the world could I ever consider myself male not ever having an erection or an ejaculation?

Going into the shower I had to get rid of the sickly perspiration odor I had on my body. While adjusting the water I went back to my thoughts of what I had promised to Daniel by accepting his ring. I ignored the slight pain I had as the water cascaded onto my breasts. Was I prepared sufficiently to become his wife? Was I prepared to become a mother when it was time? Hell, was I ready to become a woman in the deepest sense of the word? Did I love Daniel? I think yes, at least my mind says yes. Was making love and the emotions that followed only a small part of being a woman? In the entire global picture were the male-female interactions, the sparring shall we say that the sexes do on various levels, was I ready for them? That I can unequivocally say is a definite yes as to my other questions I had I didn't have an answer but I think the answers are all yes.

Getting out of the shower I dried off, turbaned my hair and padded to our bedroom to get clean garments. I decided to get dressed putting on a white laced bra and panty set with flared, hip hugger jeans, a red oversized sweatshirt and white sneaks. I felt tremendously better as I dried my hair and picked my hair and even smiled to myself. I knew that even though I had basically come to terms with everything; I knew there would always be room for doubt. Ah… the horns of a dilemma, don't you just love them as they stick you in the ass? The thrill of getting gored!

I used the briefest of makeup and went out into the living room to see everyone speaking in hushed tones. I must have shocked them to be seen dressed as they all stared at me and smiled stupidly with Daniel saying, "Are you feeling better?"

"Yep, especially with these new knockers of mine being supported. Damn they're hard to get used to." I said laughing.

"Just wait it gets better; cold, heat, clothes, lingerie, showers, men, yourself and more with the nipples going crazy and you're ready to attack any man." Phyllis said laughing.

"Naw, I have a vibrator when the boyfriend isn't around, sometimes it's a woman's best friend." Lee said.

"What, the boyfriend?" Daniel asked.

"No stupid, the vibrator. It has no feelings, wants or needs and satisfies all women sexually." Lee said laughing

"Unless of course it runs on batteries or electricity, then it has a want and a need." Phyllis added making everyone laugh.

Daniel helped me to straighten up the living room, as we all spoke together and discussed what I had said earlier. I knew that anything I said was going to get back to my mother, but I knew she would agree with what I said. While we spoke the buzzer announced a visitor that turned out to be Lupe and Carlos.

On opening the door they were both carrying a multitude of food dishes with more still in their car. Lupe said she had spoken to Daniel and was told I was in the hospital this morning but would be coming home today. They both wanted me to rest and made some food for us to taste and enjoy. We all helped to warm and serve the foods with me paying far more attention to Daniel then I normally would have. Lupe had brought foods she made from various Latin countries from South America to the lands of Spain that were in most cases very spicy to the very bland. Carlos had brought beer and wine but I passed on those due to the medication I was on.

"Will you be ready for the dance classes to start Kathy?” Lupe asked with me saying, “I think so, some of the discomfort is already leaving. I need to get active again but not push it."

"By the inquires we have been getting at the club, I think you'll be very active. Carlos how many have we gotten so far?" Lupe asked with Carlos answering by saying, "Over two hundred with both men and women calling for information, what Daniel had done with that picture was a stroke of genius for publicity. I think we need the same thing for the Cantina."

"So do it, somehow I know you'll do it anyway, no matter if I agree or not. Men! anything to spend money!" Lupe said giggling while Daniel took Carlos to the photo shop and we transferred the food to my dishes and washed Lupe's dishes. Once finished we sat enjoying each other's company. I spoke of my fears of getting married with Lupe and Phyllis saying it was foolish to be scared if I truly loved Daniel since we already lived together and shared the same bed. I was silent as I thought of what they said; it was everything mother had also said to me. When Carlos and Daniel came back everyone had decided to leave.

Daniel and I watched a movie together and just cuddled with me not even remembering what it was about. To be honest I didn't care as long as I was with Daniel. I felt comfort and security as I laid my head in his lap and he held me to him. We made it an early night as I had an early class in the morning.

While getting undressed the telephone rang with the realtor being on a three-way conversation with Daniel's attorney. I went to the bathroom as Daniel went to the living room. I had just finished washing up and changed into a nightgown when Daniel came into the bathroom. He picked me up into his arms and carried me into the bedroom and laying me onto the bed excitedly saying, "Darling, the house is ours we can move in at anytime. Now you'll have to marry me for sure." Then he kissed me; while tasting him, I wanted him so badly that I was ready to stay home tomorrow from my classes. I had to maintain my sanity and told him that tonight was not the night. I have heard many from women when then had said no that their husbands or boyfriends had difficulty in understanding that two-letter word. I was so pleased that Daniel understood that all he did was wrap me into his arms as we cuddled and fell asleep together.

On waking the next morning I smelled breakfast cooking with me thinking that's a switch. I quickly got up, made our bed and took a shower. I was so nervous, as this was to be my first day in classes since my change. There were fears from the professors, as well as from the students in my new sexual status. I was pleased that Daniel, Tanya and Lee would be sharing duties as my protectors. I'm not saying that I expected problems but I had to be aware of any and all situations that could or would occur.

I took extra time after my shower in getting dressed for some unknown reason. I put on pink lace bikini panties and a matching bra that held my proud assets. I put on nude pantyhose and a black half-slip with a black linen skirt that was hemmed about four inches above the knee for a conservative length. I put on a short-sleeved, buttoned down, pink blouse that was low cut that showed off my cleavage and a black linen blazer. Placing my two-inch high-heeled black pumps onto my feet and adjusting the instep strap. I stood looking into my mirror being pleased what I saw. In thirty minutes my face was on and my hair looking great. I placed some items into a black shoulder bag and grabbed my book bag and added just simple gold jewelry to myself.

Going into the kitchen Daniel was dressed and working very hard with me saying, "Hey, what're you doing taking my job?" I gave Daniel a kiss as he pulled out a chair for me to sit-down; I drank my juice and took my pills.

"I see you're all ready to go. I thought you were going to wear jeans but now I get to see your legs most of the day."  Daniel said kissing me again with me saying, "Daniel thank you for understanding last night."

"What's to understand? We're still in school and I've been kind of pushy. Are you ready?"

"Kind of pushy? My that's an understatement coming from you. I'm somewhat scared but it has to be done." I said just as someone pushed the door buzzer.

I got up and went downstairs to find a UPS driver with a package for me. I signed for the package noticing it was light as I entered the apartment laying it down on the kitchen table, as I ate in the company of Daniel, with Daniel glancing at the envelope saying, "That's cute, read how your mother addressed the envelope." I read the name as Mrs. Kathleen K. Piet-Carson and had to giggle softly. Everyone wants to marry me off to Daniel, I could think of worse things than that.

We ate in peace and placed the dishes into the sink that I would clean later along with my kitchen that Daniel had destroyed. It was sweet of him to make breakfast but the mess he made was a classic in the annals of breakfast preparations. All I want to know is how do you get pancake batter to stick to the ceilings and walls in globs? Oh crap and I ate those sinkers!

We both grabbed our book bags and my purse with him holding firmly onto me as we left the apartment. In seconds we were on our way to the campus and parked in the student lot. The only thing that kept me from panicking was Daniel, as we traversed the campus to our first class, which was a sociology class.

On entering the main entrance everything was normal until we were at the door that when my knees began to knock. I felt a hand on my arm and turned seeing Mrs. Marstan with her saying, "Are you my new and old student? If you are, let's go to my office and talk dear." I nodded and followed her with the help of Daniel holding me.

On entering her office she told her TA to take over her morning class, as she needed to speak to one of her students. We were both asked to be seated in chairs close to her desk and offered coffee when she got down to the nitty-gritty saying, "I have to admit you are a pretty little thing, Kathy. I had my doubts when Professor Tavis told me but after seeing you in the photos and in person I see no problem with you attending classes as you are. I know about the journals you are to keep, So Kathy as part of your assignment for me I would like you to note in those journals on a daily basis what it means to be a woman in today's culture and society from a women's prospective."

"That's a tall order for her, plus attending lectures and the mandatory papers you want written." Daniel said sticking up for me with Mrs. Marstan saying, "How Gallant, so you wish to bargain for the young lady, very well, since you are involved also Mr. Carson you also will do the same as she but strictly from the male standpoint. You both are on independent study as of now and…Oh lord, Kathy is that an engagement ring on your finger?"

"Yes ma'am and everything you see is mine also."

"I wasn't aware you're Transgendered…"

"I wasn't aware of it either until all this happened and then the hospital screw up, the shrink’s diagnosis. Mom, Professor Tavis, Professor Pearson, Professor Ball and Daniel say I'm Transgendered too, I just say I'm me."

"Dear you've confused many people and this opportunity will give you an insight that few ever get. I heard the play for next season would be The Unsinkable Molly Brown. Now in that Journal I would like a comparison study on the way life was, to now, as I had said you both are on independent study but you are both required to take your exams in person." Mrs. Marstan said, damn this situation was getting deeper and became worse when my beloved said we bought an old art deco period house.

Okay so I was giddy and ran my mouth about the new house finding out that the professor before me was not only scholarly but a woman, a widow and a Mom. We delved into subjects that only women spoke about. She went from a business like nature to letting her maternal instincts take command of her words.

It was like this in each of the meetings I had with my professors both male and female they seemed to warm to me with no dispersions or quandaries to my motives. In each class except for Design class, I was to share with them all the contents of my journals in that class I was to also to do a comparison of fashion from the era of Molly Brown to the present. Also In that design class once the department head and the professors found out about our house that became my project with the classes from the Architecture and Art design school becoming active participants in our home and grounds and my mother's home. The professors said our homes were built by a man that was a student of the great Frank Lloyd Wright that used the concepts of lines, style and fluidity of grace to capture the soul of the home. This was a repeat of what we knew and I was somewhat pleased for any help we could get, as the gardens were a bit overgrown so I was spared from much of the gardening, broken nails and blisters I was sure to receive.

Going to the student union I found and sat at an empty table in a corner while Daniel went to get us coffees. When he rejoined me I felt the eyes of several people staring but no one approached, apparently minding their own business. Daniel rummaged into his book bag and pulled out the package that was delivered by UPS that morning and handed it to me. On opening it I saw all the legal paperwork and handed it to Daniel but read the letter from Mom saying in essence I was now legal and all records had been changed to reflect my new status. She said she loved and missed us. Normally Mom was so happy to run away from me, I guess things do change.

While sipping my coffee a woman walked over that I recognized as the president of one of the sororities, Faye Morrison, came toward us saying, "Are you the dancing instructors at La Cantina? We didn't know you're a girl, sorry but…That poster of you is gorgeous."

"Poster? Yes, well we are and that's okay Faye, are you planning on attending?" I said smiling with her saying, "I think everyone is planning to be there, those posters are all over, every place you go. We can't wait to start."

"How many did he print? What did Carlos do plaster the area with them?" I asked Daniel as he shrugged his shoulders saying, "I have no idea how many he had done up or where he put them. Crap those posters probably are all the way to Argentina." Daniel said just as his cell phone went off with him taking the call and leaving the table.

"All we know is that we intend to have a good time, so make sure you have your dancing shoes on." I said smiling as she went back to the table she came from speaking hurriedly to many the students.

Daniel returned and we left the table after quickly finishing our coffee as we went out the doors, we saw two posters advertising the dance classes with many students looking at them and many guys getting their ribs caved in when they saw us by their girlfriends. Daniel and I looked at each other and laughed, quickly walking from the Student Union to the Jeep. Once inside the Jeep we both burst out laughing again at how excited everyone was, it was even better that the posting of the grades or the acceptance to graduate school.

While he drove I noticed we were enroute to the downtown area and the county courthouse. He said that the call he received was from the county to come and sign some papers. We had parked and walked to the large building known for being the county seat and found the county clerks office with Daniel saying to the woman behind the desk, "We came to sign some papers Carson and Piet."

We were admitted behind the desk and taken to an office that said Thelma Paige, County Assessor and Clerk and told to sit, as Thelma would be right with us.  I looked at Daniel saying, "Daniel, what gives? And don't give me any crap, I want an honest answer from you."

"We have to sign for the house dear and since we're here, I thought…"

"Oh no, don't say it, please don't say it." I said after seeing his face turn crimson. Why do people try to deceive others when they know they're going to get caught? Okay so the premise to sign the papers for the house but also to get a marriage license with him saying, "Am I that predicable?"

"Dear, ever since I got into panties you have been predicable. Why the rush? Why do I smell my mother's involvement?" I said as he jumped in saying,

"I swear it's not her, hell I even went against the advice of my lawyer. That fool wanted a Pre-Nuptial agreement and I told him to stuff it. I want us to be happy together."

"Daniel, I know, but these kind of things are making me nervous. Perhaps the attorney is correct on the Pre-Nupt?" I said just as the lady county clerk walked into the office shaking both our hands. Daniel had spoken the truth to me that we were there to sign the ownership papers to the house. We also took out a marriage license that I still wasn't comfortable with what I was doing; yet it made him happy. I was thinking, Ladies when a man says to you it's jus