A Life In Disaster Redeemed

By: Lorraine B.
© 2003 - All Rights Reserved

 

My matters of affairs were a mess after taking my finals. I had studied, as I should have. However I just knew that I had failed I had that sinking feeling deep in the pit of my stomach. This was not acceptable in my family or shall I say my father; as this could cause me to lose everything I worked so very hard for or to be placed on academic probation. I had to make a decision as to my fate but what shall it be? I had to think and evaluate my situation clearly.

It was decided by me to leave the apartment I rented with my roommate and to run to the Outer Banks of North Carolina at Kill Devil Hills to the beach vacation home, that our family has owned for years. I had a set of keys to the home so there was no problem in getting into it. I would decide my fate once I had arrived at the house as I packed just the essentials, leaving all else behind that was not portable or fit into the mini van. I felt a note or apology was not in order as I fled out the door and into my van. Driving did kind of unwind me as I drove those long arduous hours to my destination stopping only for a short rest, gas or food.

I drove those murderous interstates, roads and back roads at breakneck speeds and hoped the local or state constabularies wouldn't stop me in my quest for solitude. I marveled at the lack of traffic on those roads and remembered that this was not the tourist season yet when traffic was bumper-to-bumper traveling fifty, sixty or seventy miles an hour. Seeing the waters of Currituck Sound and seeing the signs announcing the town of Coinjock, I knew I was almost there to my destination and a fate to be determined, as I have stated before.

Stopping at the grocery store I purchased enough provisions for a month although I really didn't think I needed that much food, at least dad could use most of it later. I had decided that I wanted to drink myself into a stupor as the depression took a tighter hold of me. I knew from the past that there was always booze in the cabinets in the bar at the house.

Making a call to the county sheriff's office I notified them the house would be occupied and requested I not be disturbed. They made note to tell all patrols that someone was there at the house.

The weather was very sunny that day as I sat back into the van seats. I lowered the windows as the temps hit the low seventies, enjoying the wind in my face and my hair. It was such a nice day I knew that the roads would clog up soon with traffic just because it was pleasant day and people loved the ocean.

This general area had homes that were destroyed and rebuilt many times over as it suited the whims of Mother Nature and her storms. This area was destroyed by Hurricanes and wave actions that ran the populace and insurance company into the millions of dollars. However the serenity and scenery was well worth any price. It always amazed me to see the surfers riding the waves in any type of weather or the hang gliders soaring above the sand dunes on days such as this. I assumed this was logical as this was the acknowledged birthplace of modern flight, as Kitty Hawk was not far down the road from the house.

I saw the house looking very sturdy as it stood above its stilts near the waters edge with others houses to the right and left of it. Many of the homes were built this way but ours it seemed was the largest with five bedrooms and all the modern conveniences. At one time I thought I would like to live here permanently and perhaps to write or compose for a living. What a joke, I can't even stay in school, I thought.

Having parked the mini-van near the main road after emptying the meager contents I brought and the load of supplies I bought, I hoofed it back. I climbed those murderous stairs several times to get everything up onto the deck; I opened the door and waited as the stale air left the confines of the sealed house. After five minutes I went inside opening each window to further allow the sea breezes to do its job. Everything was brought inside from the deck and placed away as the radio I turned on softly played music from a station from Norfolk Virginia only an hour or so drive away from this location.

When I was finished I was so very tired that I took a shower and laid down naked on the clean bed linens on the bed in the Master bedroom and went to sleep. My sleep wasn't restful and the dreams that I had were terrible in their very nature. After several hours of sleep I checked the telephone next to the bed and found out it was working. Getting up I found a terry cloth robe and sandals in the cedar lined closet and wrapped myself into it and placed the mule type slippers onto my feet that once belonged to my now deceased mother, thankfully we were the exact same size but I knew they would fit fine as would her clothes.

Going out into the kitchen I decided to make a light meal of a small julienne salad and coffee. I retrieved my laptop from the living room and used the phone line jack for the modem. It was connected to the ISP and I downloaded all my email from school and the ISP accounts. I saw a duplicated message and many others from Dad and some acquaintances of mine at other schools. What fascinated me were the duplicates as they were anonymous in their nature. I was about to delete them as I thought always of the viruses that infected the mails along with the Spam when something in me said to open them. I opened them both up they were identical, the very same in every way. I read them four times; all that was written was: Why? We need to talk! I need to see you! I know where you've gone! I'm coming!

Oh shit! Was this a stalker? Did I screw up? Did I tell someone I was coming here? Now what? Those were my thoughts as I read the messages. Quite frankly I didn't really matter to me at all. I drank the coffee and ate very little of the salad placing it into the fridge. I was so very tempted to get drunk with the liquor in the house but I needed to get the place in order first as I shut the laptop down. For some unknown reason I wanted this house clean.

Rinsing off the dishes and placing them into the dishwasher I went back to the bedroom and dressed for the cleaning I had to do. Again I thankfully used mom's clothes that were kept here using her jeans, sweatshirt, panties, bra and her sandals upon my feet. Next was a bit of makeup and my hair into a ponytail. It struck me funny as I remembered from a very young age playing dress up in her clothes. I remembered her musical laughter as I traversed the house in her highest heels sometimes falling onto my butt; I was always allowed to use anything she had. Never once was I chastised for doing this even though I was born a male but as I said I was young.

As I progressed in age I had all the thoughts and feelings that I was always a girl. I had the long raven colored hair, large brown eyes, body and facial features, mannerisms and the gentle ways that some young girls had, yet I was always expected to do the things boys did and I hated them all. Fortunately mom was my savior in these matters and dad backed down as I emulated her throughout my young life. Music and dance were always my strong suits as mom tutored me as well as others as I was growing up.

 

Due to his local high profile political nature in our town and state, I kept my activities in the house with our housekeeper enjoying my dressup games. I was not about to cause him or mother any type of pain by ostracism by of any of the voters or the political party leaders. Growing older, public political functions I avoided like the plague and suffered dad's wrath for this. My thoughts were that the less people saw of me the better for him to reach the offices he sought. He at last realized this after a long discussion after being caught dressed in Mother's clothes by him while I played the my piano.

They sent me away to a private boarding school from grade five were I was always the receiver of the other boy's jokes or the hurtful name calling, somehow I had managed to withstand these barbs. In the school I surpassed all expectations in writing, history, music, vocals, gymnastics, dance and drama. My studies in math and science seemed to elude me but I muddled through them. Being an accomplished musician with several instruments I became popular when it was found out later by accident.

In the plays we did I was always relegated to play the female leads and support roles especially if there was a singing part involved, as no one could sing as high as I could or hold the notes with as much control. Many times over the years I had won auditioning roles over girls with my talents in music, vocals and dance, as the producer teachers had chosen me over them. All I wanted was to play a part, any part just to participate, to belong. All these thoughts flooded my mind as I whipped through the house cleaning; I was done in no time.

As the sun waned in the sky I decided to walk amongst the fabulous sand dunes. Going down the stairs I took off the sandals and walked feeling the warm sand between my red polished toes. I was flooded once again with the memories of the school I attended, mom, dad and friends and one very special friend and boyfriends.

Yes I said boyfriends or at least a few boys. Since I was relegated for the female parts in the plays. There were boys that treated me like any girl no matter how I was dressed. I will admit I had sexual relations with only one boy and I will admit I took the gifts he gave me. One such boy was my roommate that later became my best friend throughout my life. Although in my last years of grade school I was obsessed to find out about my sexuality and myself by spending enormous amounts of time in the library in the town. I felt that the boarding school was not the appropriate place to do the research I had to do. It was the head librarian that assisted me in my searches. Gloria Foster was and is a gorgeous woman in her thirties, of a petite stature, with a svelte body and normal sized breasts that accentuated it all in one very neat package. Her hair was the color of honey and her eyes the bluest of blue seas. Her voice was that of crystal glass as she spoke in a musical tonal quality. She was always dressed fashionably and tastefully. We had many discussions when I was there in her domain of knowledge and my quest for enlightenment.

One day as I was visiting, there was to be a recital to be given by a local pianist and a visiting symphony quartet. In the early hours of that morning the pianist called sick before the recital. The seating was all sold out, as it was to benefit the library as a fundraiser; it had taken nearly to a year to arrange this event. I was at librarian's desk as I overheard what was happening. I looked at the program and saw I had played all the pieces before so I told her. She seemed skeptical at first and had me follow her to the concert hall style music recital room as the Quartet was tuning up. I was introduced after they were told that their accompanist was not coming and that I could play the pieces. They agreed to an audition with no qualms just dubiousness that I could play the pieces that were selected. I sat at the Grand Piano as the door was closed. I began seeing the notes in my mind from memory not bothering to look at the charts. I began to play not even seeing the reactions on their faces as I played with my eyes closed shut. When I finished the piece the cellist was at my side with her hand on my shoulder.

"That was wonderful dear, I guess you have the gig." She said smiling.

"Wait a minute! How are we going to explain the kid playing the gig? Everyone knows it supposed to be a woman pianist not a kid. We have to look at credibility here. Wake up everyone, reality check!" The violinist named Todd said that he was also the cellist's husband I found out later.

"I have an Idea, we'll be back in an hour or so, just please don't cancel." Gloria pleaded and dragged me with her and the Cellist behind her out of the room and out of the library to her car in the parking lot. In the car the cellist gave her name as Joyce asking what was going on.

"We, both you and I, Joyce, are going to transform this child into a young woman." Gloria said smiling.

"That will have to be a miracle, yet if it can be done let's do it. Todd and the others will go nuts." She said giggling.

"Hey wait a minute, no one has asked me yet if I agree."

"Well do you?"

"I've been through worse at the school, sure." I said, giggling, not even venturing to tell them the whole truth.

"Damn, you act and even sound like a girl. This will be easy, anyway you'll gain more knowledge in your pursuits this way." Gloria said as she pulled up in front of a fairly large house with an attached garage. The garage door opened when she pressed the transmitter allowing the car to enter its gaping mouth. Once inside Gloria closed the door and told us to follow her inside the house. The house had the aromas of flowers and of her perfume as we entered. On entering I noticed that the furnishings were antiques and later told she had inherited the antiques from her deceased mother. In the Master Bedroom it had her smells noticing once again the flowery smells. Looking around with my eyes I saw that the décor was femininely furnished, quite large and overly messy. This was a direct contrast to the rest of the house we saw.

Gloria was a like a woman possessed with a mission as she went to various drawers and to other rooms and brought more clothing and accessories with her as Joyce and I watched in complete bewilderment. I was told to remove everything, measured and to bathe, as she would be right in the bath to help me. I minutes I was stripped and very excited that I was to be the girl I always was, once again.  In the bathtub I added bath oil that smelled of Lilacs that I liked. Sitting in the tub I washed my hair and conditioned it as I heard some talking and then the door closing to the garage with Gloria coming into the bathroom saying, "It smells so nice in here. How are you doing?"

"I'm fine but still dazed by the events. I'm a little afraid of the school finding out what we're doing."

"I'll take the heat from the school after all you're doing this for the library dear.  I've sent Joyce to get some added things we need for you. I have a friend coming here to help that's a beautician and makeup artist. I can't tell you what this means to us at the library and for you being a sport about the whole matter. Now you need to level with me too. Why all the research on the psychological level? Kids your age aren't involved with that stuff." Gloria said as she handed me a razor to shave any hairs on my body. Yeah, Right, I thought. It was then I unloaded the complete package I've been holding inside of me, bringing me to tears. I cried, as this was the first person to listen to me in such a long time. I wished my mother were there to hear me, she knew and understood what I told Gloria.

"That's quite a load you've been carrying. Isn't there anyone at the school to hear you or your thoughts? Your mom?"

"I don't dare tell anyone at the school, I get enough grief from everyone. Mom, I talk to her once a week but I have to watch what I say as you never know who's around the corner listening."

"What name do you use sweetie?"

"Stephanie, that's what my mother was going to name me if I was born a girl as it is it close to Stephen."

"I guess so Stephanie, are you ready to come out now?" Gloria asked.

As I stood up I was handed a towel and dried off and another for my hair. Gloria powdered my body with powder that smelled exactly like the bath oil I used of hers, that I liked so well. While I was being powdered the door open and closed, I heard women's voices coming closer as I was wrapped into a dressing gown and placed satin slippers on my feet.

"Now don't be nervous that's Joyce and my friend Linda." Gloria said as she took my hand with her hand and pulled me gently into the bedroom. Joyce was unwrapping packages and another lady younger than Gloria's age only taller and bit heavier was helping Joyce.

"Did you get everything?" Gloria asked.

"Sure did, is this our victim?" Linda asked giggling.

"Please don't say that Linda. I really don't feel like running down the street after her." Gloria said.

"Hey that's our pianist for tonight. I'll never hear the end of it if we lose this genius child from the group." Joyce said giggling.

"Okay Sweetie There's nail polish over there on the vanity do your toes first, we'll leave you alone to get partially dressed; panties, hose, slip and shoes. Then we'll turn Linda loose on you to do her magic." Gloria said as she hugged me to her.

"Hey won't she need any help?" Linda asked.

"Lin we'll talk later, now please shut up." Gloria said pulling Linda.

While all three of the women left and went toward the kitchen as I fronted with the piles of feminine finery and the vanity that was pointed out to me. I choose the color of a deep red and did my toenails. When I was done I happened to gaze about the room and saw there were several cases that looked like fisherman tackle boxes and more bags. I wanted to explore the contents but I also didn't want to anger anyone.

After my toes dried I took the first garment off the bed was what looked like a pair of black panties but it was a girdle that had pads in the butt and hips, which I put on. Next were the sheer off black pantyhose. I was so very careful of these remembering how I used to put on my mother's pantyhose. I stepped into a black colored half-slip that went own to my ankles that had a slit in both sides. The next item I wasn't so sure I could manage were the shoes made of silk with a delicate bow that was made from what looked like crystal. My feet slid into the shoes with a bare back and ankle straps to hold the shoes on. The heel was possibly three and a half inches high, spiked and made from what looked like clear glass matching the bow. The shoes slid right on and buckled tightly as I sat onto the bed. When I stood and took a few steps they felt marvelous making my feet look so dainty and fragile. While I walked around the room a little more Gloria, Joyce and Linda returned handing me a glass of cold orange juice.

"Damn she'll be a little heartbreaker. Okay Steph I need you on the bed lying down." Linda said as she took out several boxes from her cases. In those boxes were silicone boobs that looked so real that seemed to be alive as they jiggled and bounced in Linda's hand. She held several of them to my chest area and determined which was the right skin color and size. From a green-labeled bottle she applied a substance to the boobs and to my chest and then lined the boobs up and stuck them to me. She and Gloria each held one until the glue dried which wasn't long.

"Those are a B cup close to a C cup which is about right for your size and also for the age we want you to become to fulfill part of the illusion that you're older." Linda said as she helped me from the bed and placed a black lacey strapless bra around me.

"Damn she looks good so far." Joyce said smiling with Linda and Gloria agreeing.

"Here's a stupid question, can a woman pianist have longer nails? Steph's are in really bad shape." Linda asked.

"I've seen some but I guess average would be a half inch. Steph will have to get used to it. Oh, the pains we women take to be beautiful." Joyce said making us all giggle.

"Will I be able to take them off?"

"Sure sweetie and we'll make up a special makeup kit for you also for tonight and later. Gloria, she's a dear to be doing this for you." Linda said

"All of us at the library owe her for this. Maybe Joyce can get her a few gigs too." Gloria said.

"Damn I've been with many pianists that were more than above average but our little girl here exceeds many classically trained pianists I've heard. So I think we'll do what we can for the gigs." Joyce said smiling as Linda dug into her cases and had me at the vanity.

"By the way your toes look great. That wasn't the first time you did your own, was it? We all know sweetie, don't worry your secret is safe with us Gloria explained everything. Also all this stuff is yours, even the boobs." Linda said as she applied something like a wrap to the nails.  

"With a lot more coming. You're one of us now and girls protect each other." Gloria said.

"But I can't, the school! Where will I put it?" I asked.

"In your room silly." Joyce said.

"Great that's all I need, I do have a roommate." I said.

"So throw him out or make him your boyfriend." Linda said laughing.

In an hour my nails were done and dried from the polish that matched my toes. Before the makeup they attacked my eyebrows and thinned and arched them. They all partook great pleasure in the pain I was experiencing as each hair was plucked. Next was my hair being trimmed, curled and brushed out laying at mid back and bangs in the front. I will be getting hell forever, I thought as I looked into the mirror.

Linda had me apply my own makeup as she watched with great interest saying, "Not bad girl for day wear but let's start over. Here's the crème now take it all off." Linda said handing me the cold cream. Linda next applied the makeup and showed me what she was doing so I could do my own for the night. I watched as I was transformed from young pubescent boy to a young beautiful lady. What a change for me along with what I had done earlier.

The dress was next after they turned my slit in the slip along the left and right legs leg. I held my arms up as the brought the silky black material down my body until it reach almost to my toes. I was zipped into the low-cut gown and was shocked as I saw a girl in her late teens early twenties with vast amounts of breast cleavage standing and looking into the mirror with Gloria beside me smiling. She then added a gold necklace, bracelet, ladies watch and seeing that I had pierced ears added gold ball studs.

"Okay sweetheart now go into the living room and wait for Joyce and me, it's our turn now to get ready." Gloria said as she gave me a smile and a hug that I returned.

Going out into the living room I was afraid to sit-down and wrinkle the gorgeous elegant black gown. I was excited about many things but to make a public appearance dressed and to perform was in the ultimate high that I could never achieve at home or at school. It was similar to the highs I had in the plays yet different everyone knew I was a boy but now no one knew except these three ladies. I felt the calf muscles on my legs and all the sensuous garments mixed in with the flowery fragrance of my body spelt girl, all girl. I was ever so happy and would do the very best I could as I performed in tonight's concert.

Not long after I had managed to sit Gloria, Joyce and Linda came into the room handing me a silk shawl, purse and opera length gloves with Gloria saying, "You forgot those sweetie and let's get something to drink first and then we'll leave."

I noticed that Joyce and Gloria both wore black, silver, red and gold glass beaded pantsuits that shined as the light hit the beads similar yet not alike. Both women were stunning in the effect the pantsuits gave off, only adding to their beauty.

"You need time to get used to the nails and to rehearse with us also. Damn, Todd is going to faint and the others will be drooling idiots." Joyce added giggling as we all had an orange juice.

As we all drank the fresh juice, we spoke of many things but mostly they had questions for me. What's it like for you at home? Do your parents know? Have you ever had sex with a boy or a girl? Have you taken any hormones yet? Do you have a doctor locally? Do you intend to have the surgery?  I was brutally honest with them as I told them everything there was to know about my parents and myself. Why should I lie? These women didn't have to do what they did for me; of course the recital wouldn't happen otherwise. Besides I love to play piano as well as the other instruments like the organ, harpsichord, flute, clarinet and oboe. They made jokes of my gymnastic and dance abilities. But when they heard my voice they were enthralled by the vocal range I had. I explained that if I read a musical chart once for some reason I retained it and how I wished I could do that with my studies.

"You know the library has an old harpsichord someone donated; I think there's also flute somewhere too." Gloria said as she excused herself to her bedroom.

"She's not going…" Joyce said.

"I do believe she is. Would you pass off an opportunity like this to bring in more funding?"

"I see your point." Joyce said just as Gloria came from the bedroom smiling.

"Check your lipstick and let’s go girls. Linda, please make sure you do as we all discussed. We'll see you at the library later unless you get too busy with George." Joyce said as she kissed Linda's cheek.

"I'll get George to help, we'll try to get there." Linda said.

"Thanks and I owe you big time." Joyce said as she too kissed Linda's cheek.

"Linda, Joyce, Gloria and I just want to thank you all, but I have a problem."

"What's that? Don't tell me the powder room?" Joyce said.

"It's called curfew at 8pm."

"It's taken care of, no curfew tonight but you have to be in before 12am bed check. They also said to use the back door to not wake anyone." Gloria said smiling as she kissed Linda again and took my hand and Joyce's leading us to her car. In seconds we were at the car as the scrutiny began. The two women watched my every move as I was getting into the vehicle. I guess whatever I did was correct by the smiles on their faces and the nodded approvals. Gloria and Joyce got into the car and we were on the road back to the library and inside very quickly, with my skirt raised as I climbed the stairs.

Joyce went into the recital room first as we waited until she came out to get us. She came out smiling and took my arm walking me in. The three men were seated until they saw me and stood with their mouths open in disbelief.

"If I hadn't of seen it or you before I say it never could be done. Kid you have the gig! Now we need to rehearse. Oh Gloria, the maintenance guys said to tell you everything is behind the curtains, whatever that means." Todd said.

"Todd her name isn't kid, it's Stephanie. Stephanie go check out the goodies in back of the curtains, I have to speak to our musicians." Gloria said.

As I walked up the slight stage I felt as if I was being undress by very hungry eyes. I heard one brief comment that I had a great body and great legs; I had to smile and flash that smile to them, sedately. It was if I was my true self again as I walked that stage seductively to behind the curtains.

Behind the curtains was another matter; I became enthralled with the instruments that were there. There was a very old harpsichord but some of the hammers needed to be repaired so I decided to best not to try it. The organ was more than I could ever have dreamed for it had everything from synthesized instruments to choir voices that I had used before. I checked it out and turned it on setting it up for a Fugue that was written by Bach. I stood tall as I began hearing the bass reverberate through me; I heard that it was already tied into the sound system as I played the notes. My fingers danced upon the ivory keys while my feet had a mind of their own on the pedals. It was then the curtains slowly drew back allowing me to see the room and the audience that had gather from inner sanctum of the library.

When the piece was finished the people applauded very loudly as did the professional musicians with Todd coming up to the stage excitedly and kissing me saying, "I'm sorry, Stephanie, for before but damn anytime you want to work a gig, you have it from us. Hell we'll even be backup for you!"

"Todd sweetie, add her to the program for tonight as a soloist." Joyce said loudly.

"How about it? For us?" Todd asked.

I nodded just as a camera flash went off. It wasn't a digital camera but a very professional outfit and a woman next to him wearing Press credentials. I was ready to run for anywhere I could hide. In a flash the woman was up onto the stage saying, "We were out in the foyer when we heard the music. Wow, that was great! Are you the musicians for this evening?"

"Yes we are and this young lady is our pianist and she will be doing several solos, she's a very talented musician…"

"And singer that just fell into our laps." Joyce added smiling with Gloria in step behind her.

"The scheduled pianist took ill and Stephanie volunteered and auditioned to help the library fund raising gala." Gloria said.

I was screwed, blewed and tattooed as the old drunken sailors say. The event went well and went without a hitch. The patrons got more than their monies worth for their tickets. We performed to the delight of a Standing Room Only very appreciative audience. Those that couldn't get inside heard the entire concert as it was played over the library sound system. The only trouble I saw was that the Media was there in heavy attendance even to the point of taping the entire performance for the local Public Broadcasting System. I didn't know it at the time but several freelance and syndicated music critics attended also. At least no one tried to interview me. I was somewhat shaken near the intermission when I saw the Headmaster and his wife along with several members of the Board of Directors there in attendance. My only salvation was that they did not recognize me or so I hoped and prayed they didn't.

At the final curtain and many encores I looked at the watch Gloria had given me. I had twenty minutes to change and get back to the school. That's all I needed was to be caught dressed as I was sneaking into my room. I caught Gloria's eye as she was speaking to an older, rotund, dapperly dressed gentleman. She excused herself, as did I to the many people expressing their pleasure for the evening in hearing the music that they heard.

"I have twenty minutes to get back to the school, I have to change first." I said as we ran to her car.

Getting into the car I noticed we forgot all about my school clothes I was almost in tears saying, "Ah… Gloria I have a problem called we forgot my school clothes."

"Can you get inside without anyone seeing you?"

"I guess I have to, I can run, I think. It's a good thing I'm on the second floor near the back stairway door."

"Well no matter what happens we'll all be right there beside you. Just be a good girl. Now open my purse and you'll see a set of luggage keys. Those are some gifts from me as well as all the clothes you're wearing. You made this evening to be remembered. By the way you're now Linda, Joyce's and my adopted niece."

 "That I can handle but Todd as my adopted uncle, I'm screwed." I said as we both giggled.

In no time we were at the back door of the housing building. I gave Gloria a kiss, ran from the car and into the building through the door. I thanked the powers that be, that someone had carpeted the stairway, fairly dark and I was in black. I managed to run up those stairs holding my skirt up and holding my shawl, purse and gloves. I checked the hallway and saw no movement and ran to my room as silent as I could but my heels wouldn't cooperate so I tipped toed.

On entering the room I grabbed my terry robe and quickly put it on over my dress, jumped into my bed with my feet still in my shoes but everything hidden under the covers; just as the door opened for the bed check. I lay silently as I tried to hide my face and painted nails as the flashlight probed the darkness for the bodies in those beds.

As the door silently closed shut, I was out of the bed and went to the bathroom as I tipped toed again. I took off all my clothes and into the shower, while washing I had several major problems to deal with. I couldn't get the breasts off of me; I had longer and very red nails and toes. I remembered the keys in my purse so after my shower I rummaged through the room in darkness so as not to disturb my roommate. There was a new double set of women's American Tourister hardbody luggage with matching makeup cases with two very large stand alone makeup cases and four old style steamer trunks. Where was I going to hide this stuff? I was really screwed now as I cursed under my breath. I was very careful as I heard my roommate stir several times. After minutes of searching and softly swearing, in one makeup case I found the nail polish remover but no solvent for the breast forms. I searched until I was tired to no avail to find that solvent. I was tired and put my clothes away that I had worn earlier forgetting about the polish and climbed into bed wearing a sweat suit as they hid my breasts or at least I thought they did.

In no time it was morning, since it was Saturday we were allowed to sleep in past breakfast. I re-closed my eyes seeing that my roommate Frank was still asleep. I was jolted awake when an upperclassman shook me saying, "Stephen the Headman wants you in his office now. Wow is he pissed, what the hell did you do?"

"I have no idea Mark." I said telling the truth unless it's from last night.

Getting up from the bed I stretched only to see the nail polish still on glistening in the morning light and my chest bouncing. My goose was cooked! The headmaster could be a terror if he summons you and you keep him waiting. I had no time to remove it from my nails. Shit the breasts! Well I guess I better bend over and take it like a big girl now I thought as dad was going to really whip my ass.

Placing socks and sneakers on my feet I noticed if I clinched my fists I could basically hide my nails. I tried mousse and water on my hair if there was tar I would have tried that too to hide those bangs but nothing worked. Bushing out my hair I still had the bangs and when it was in a Ponytail, I was really screwed. At least the oversized sweatshirt I wore hid my breasts I thought until I turned sideways in the mirror. I was going to procrastinate but knew I was being timed. I ran to the administration building all the time feeling my breasts jiggle, flop and wiggle. I was just hoping no one would see my bouncing wonders and me.

Quickly I ran up the stairway to Doctor Tweeds office door and knocked. I heard the word enter and I did. There was a full house in there, Board Members, Faculty and his wife. My first thoughts again were to run like hell but the only problem was where.

"Good Morning Stephen or shall I say Stephanie. What the hell…"

"Dear please calm down, your Blood Pressure."

"Yes, yes, Miss. Carleton, you have caused a bit of a problem for us."

"Miss.?"

"Have you seen the papers or the television this morning?"

"No sir."

"It seems that we are now admitting female students and you are the first. We had a choice in expelling you or to continue with this charade. Due to the Media coverage we decided to continue this hoax to eliminate any possible embarrassment to all of us. We have been debating for years to accept females and it would appear that you have now made that decision for us via your stunt last night."

"But sir it was…"

"Please do not interrupt me Miss. Carleton. We have spoken to the Millers, Mrs. Gloria Lang and Miss. Linda Quince but it was my wife that recognized you last night due to the theatrical productions here at the academy."

"I'm so sorry sir."

"I think not; as according to the Millers they have offered you other opportunities for you to showcase your abilities and talents, which would have offered you more opportunities to continue this charade. Because of your stunt last night four Board Members have resigned they were the holdouts in allowing the academy to go co-ed and for that all of us thank you. We also wish to thank you for putting the academy into the media spotlight, as it will bring us more students and recognition allowing the academy to grow financially healthy once again.

However there will be a punishment for your little stunt. I have spoken to you Mother, as your Father is in a state of shock and your mother has agreed. You will move into the old Harold Hall when you leave here. Our maintenance people are moving your possessions as we speak. Harold Hall will be the new Ladies residence for the school. It will be refurbished starting today and finished in six weeks. You are the first resident while here you will maintain a proper decorum and dress accordingly while living there, young lady.

You will also give an outdoor performance of your musical abilities to showcase this school for the next few days to come, with the Quartet. It will be a mandatory assemblage for all faculty and open to the public."

"Stephanie dear, you were fabulous as were the others but you did steal the show."

"We all quite agree with you Midge. One further thing, at the Noon meal I will announce to the student body what has happened, we need to clear the air a bit. The student advisors are speaking to the students now. Don't be alarmed, as you will be very well protected. Yet there will be a great deal of embarrassment to overcome and questions on your part, I suggest that any questions asked be truthfully answered."

 

I was confused at first and then realized I was to embark on a journey of a lifetime to be the person I was, a girl in every sense of the word except for those few differences.

" Ladies and gentleman I needn't say anything about your discretion in this matter. We wish to see this academy return to its former resplendency and prestige as a school where knowledge is passed on to the young to prepare them for the colleges they seek or to prepare them for life. Let there be no mistake that there will problems to overcome as we progress.

We have seen our enrollment dwindle from the eight hundred students that we have seen in past years to just over two hundred students this year. Our demise was imminent until now and we must exploit this gainful opportunity to grow. Preliminary figures show the academy will be financially out of the red and in the black in two years.

Midge could you please take Miss. Carleton to her new room and help her to settle in."

"Doctor, we all agree but there will be leaks of information." Mr. Evers the chairman of the math department said.

"Last night after a conversation with Doctor Tweeds, I drew up an what amounts to as a letter of agreement to be signed by all at the academy. It states that any recommendations will be withheld or unfavorable if there is a disclosure along with possible forceful legal actions for slander of the academies good name. I have spoken to several Alumni in the legal profession that are also judges that will hear any and all cases of this broken agreement remember they too have associates that owe them graces." Mr. White the academy's attorney and Board Member said.

"Miss. Carleton, Stephanie, go with my wife to your room please, as we have yet many matters to discuss." Doctor Tweeds said as Mrs. Tweeds led me from the room.

Silently I left the room with Mrs. Tweeds; neither of us said a word to each other until we were out of the administration building.

"You look shocked, will you be alright?"

"I'm a bit overwhelmed I guess, I really screwed up this time."

"I guess you did but your mother and the friends you made saved that little butt of yours. We've known about the problems you had with your sexuality from the psychiatrist and medical records that were sent to us and from the school psychiatrist. At first Horace was not going to admit you to the academy but your intelligence aptitude was very high. It was the faculty that changed his mind. You, dear girl brought to this school something we needed, a new chance. Just be yourself and the other students will see you in a different light." Midge said smiling.

"Sure like a black light, I was shunned before but now…"

"I sincerely doubt that, just stay out of trouble and follow the rules. One other thing I know you have the added parts but I will tell you just as I would tell any girl, keep your legs closed and your little rounded butt to the wall. If you need to talk I'll make the time to speak to you." Midge said as she gave me a little hug her as she had her arm over my shoulder warming toward me with her vibrant personality.

We arrived at the building where my new room was. Somehow I was given a room on the first floor near the reception desk area. It was explained by Midge that the other three floors needed repairs yet but the main floor was perfect. The room I was given was gigantic in terms of my last room in the hall. It was more of an apartment with a living room, large bedroom, bath, a kitchenette and many large closets. Midge explained further that originally this was a student advisors apartment but now it was home to me for the year or as long as I was at the school. It was tastefully and femininely decorated with whites, mauves and pinks and with what appeared to be all new furnishings. This room was shown to the Board Members and was done as an example of what the girls would get if they attended.

"Do you like it?"

"Oh yes, it's so much bigger."

"All the furnishing were bought months ago in preparation for the school to go co-ed after the building was re-habilitated but like Horace said we had dissenters and everything was placed into storage.

Now time is getting late and you need to get dressed. Oh by the way your old school uniforms were exchanged for new ones that are hanging in the bedroom closets, along with many other things are in the dressers." Midge said as she gave me a hug and left me alone. My reactions were of complete amazement and joy. Yet I just knew I was going to be in a great deal of crap with the student body especially the upper classmen.

I was about to explore my new lodgings when I remembered Midge's words about the time. I looked at my watch and realized I was still wearing the jewelry and watch that Gloria had given me. I could just imagine if I had tried to lie to the Headmaster about last night. I probably would be packing my things and sent home.

Going into my bedroom it was a strange event the bed was already made and it was a queen-sized bed with even a doll and a giant stuffed panda on it. The curtains were all made of pink lace with sheer privacy curtains in white. The entire apartment rug, which included the bath and all the closets, was a deep rose color.

The bath had more than ample lighting with a tub and shower, it even had a massage head on the shower. There was a separate linen closet that was stocked and a large vanity and a full-length mirror.

Going to the large bedroom closet I opened, I saw the new uniforms, dark gray skirts, dark gray slacks, burgundy blouses and blue/gray blazers, which were all hung and ready to be worn. On the floor were five pairs of black Mary Janes. There was also a pair of black patent ankle strapped shoes with a two-inch block heel for what I believed to be dress shoes.

Quickly I disrobed and took a shower, dried off and powdered with some I found in the makeup case that had been delivered along with all the other cases and luggage. I blew dried my hair my hair and braided it allowing my bangs free showing. Retrieving a makeup case that I went through last night I applied the briefest of makeup and chose a light rose lipstick and blush.

I was at a loss for words when I needed a bra and panties and went to my dresser. At first I thought I would have to use what I wore the following night but I didn't. There must have been at least thirty sets in the drawers of different colors, styles and textures. In another drawer were seven sets of burgundy colored panties and bras that I assumed were for the uniform.

Someone must have been watching over me as everything fit perfectly. What confused me is how did they know what sizes I wore? I had to assume it was due to Gloria as she did take all of my measurements. Another drawer contained full and half-slips again in assorted colors and another drawer were the uniform full and half-slips. I chose a half-slip putting it on thinking that someone had given much though as to what all girls like and needed for their unmentionables wardrobe.

Going into another drawer I found socks of all lengths and colors, another drawer knee length uniform socks and yet another with tights and hose. I took the knee length socks and put them on. Retrieving a pair of the Mary Janes they went on my feet and were a perfect fit.

Taking a skirt off the hanger I stepped into it buttoning and zippering it in back. A blouse was next, putting it on, buttoning and tucking it into my skirt. I found several purses and a burgundy and gray knapsack filled with my books and supplies on the closet shelf. Pulling down a small burgundy shoulder purse placing the essentials into it. Next I placed a blazer onto the bed and checked my appearance in the bedroom mirror there was a knock at my door.

Going to the door I turned on the computer on the way, intending to check my email later. On opening the door there stood my former roommate with Gloria, Midge, Joyce and Linda. Stepping back I let them in.

"It's true, huh?" Frank said as he brought in my stereo system components and television.

"I guess so Frankie."

"I'm cool with it. I'll hook these up for you." Frankie said smiling and bringing in the electronics into the apartment.

"Thanks by the way the name is Stephanie and I am so charmed to meet you, sir." I said and giggled with Frank laughing.

"My, Don't you look good. Very admirable sweetie, Midge thought we should come to lunch with you for support. " Gloria said as she kissed me.

"You know the Headmaster's wife?"

"She's my cousin." Gloria said.

"Oh crap, no wonder! That answers many of the question I had roaming in the back of my mind."

"Please don't be mad at Gloria. You can't live a lie with yourself, can she Francis?" Midge said.

"No Ma'am, Stephanie the older guys are already seeing this as a way to meet girls, you know that interaction stuff.

No one that I've heard is saying anything bad and I had this placed wired to get all the information. As for myself even though some of the other kids gave you a bad time I liked you as a friend. Will you still be my friend?" Frank asked, as I remained silent

"That's very well put Francis. Stephanie I think this young man does deserve an answer." Midge said.

"Okay Frankie but there will have to be some terms that you must agree to." I said.

"Okay, what terms?"

"Oh I don't know yet but I'll think of them as we go." I said as I giggled and gave Frankie a kiss on the lips, which he seemed to like.

"Oh crap, I've been poisoned! Now I have to go wash my face." Frankie said smiling

"Okay you two it's time to go eat. Stephanie when we're through we'll help unpack everything if time permits." Joyce said.

I went into the bedroom, picking up my blazer, putting it on and slung my purse over my shoulder. Checking the mirror once again I was pleased at the girl I saw in the mirror and declared myself ready to face the music from the student body. I was apprehensive as we all walked toward the dining hall as we approached my stomach twisted and my heart was doing a staccato beat in my chest. I felt the skirt with each step I took along with the slight breeze from the wind. My bra and breasts that I wore reminding me how I was dressed. I saw many of the boys staring but no one said a word as we came closer to the doors of the dining room. At the doors two of the older boys held them open for us to enter. All the meals served were cafeteria style so we stood in line with about twenty boys ahead of us. We each took what we wanted for entrees, as there were several, in my case it was the fish and chips with a salad and a Pepsi. Frank and I were going to find seats with the student body when we were called over to the headmaster table and were all seated near him much to Frank's and my nervousness.

"Those new uniforms look great for the girls, you really did well dear."

"I think it's the girl wearing it myself." Midge said giggling as I blushed.

Most of the meal was uneventful with bits of inane conversation amongst those seated. Everyone there knew I was nervous so much so I had to think of different things in order not to vomit. At last the room was filled with the last of the student body with the Headmaster standing and walking toward a podium saying, "I hope the meal was suitable to everyone's liking.

To move on I would imagine that all of you have seen or heard today's news broadcast of a performance given by one of our students. Yes gentlemen that girl is our student as well as a very talented and gifted musician. She will also be performing today in an open concert with the very same quartet that she appeared with last evening. Gentlemen I realize that the rumors have taken flight. First of all Havorford Academy is now a co-educational facility thanks to her. We need to bring new life to these hallowed halls and this was a way of doing it.

Now I am prepared to answer any and mostly all questions."

The first question came form the back of the dining room asking about fraternization with the girls. The Headmaster gave some brief rules to which much like all the male students had to abide by. He made a matter of stressing the visiting procedure of the co-eds once the hall was opened. Visitors were only permitted in the common areas and not in the rooms unless the doors were open and no later than 11pm. The Headmaster stressed that whatever was heard or said was to remain on the campus. If there were any problems he was to be seen or his faculty, wife or advisors.

"As I have said this is a new age for this academy. One thing I will tell you that what has happened was a mistake to the person it happened to, but as it stands the academy as well as you all will benefit from that mistake. If any of you wish to speak to me or have concerns after our lunch; please do not hesitate to do so." Doctor Tweeds said and sat down.

"Sir, wasn't that a bit of glancing over on the true subject?" I asked as he sat down.

"Stephanie, the student body was already informed on their floors by their Advisors as to what had happened to you. There was no reason to rehash old news. These old halls hold many secrets of the past and will hold many more. Any alumni of this academy will tell you the same. Now I believe you must prepare for a recital?"

"Yes sir and thank you."

"No Stephanie, we all thank you. I know that there will be some rough times for all of us but we'll all make the situation work."

When Doctor Tweeds finished speaking, I left with Frank going back to my room while the others remain and would be at my room shortly. As we entered my room I just about had to pull Frank inside, as he looked about nervously.

"Frankie, what's wrong?" I asked after I forced him into the living room and onto the couch.

"Steph, please don't be angry."

"For what?"

"I thought you were Gay but last night after they brought all that stuff into the room and I saw you when you came in…"

"You saw me?"

"Yeah and naked too after your shower, you left the door partially open and when you were looking for something. Damn you're good looking."

For a boy or girl?"

"For a girl and I mean it. I mean you have to be with those things." Frankie said as he pointed to my breasts.

It was a policy at the school for all students to dress and undress in the washrooms or to wear a robe in the room. In reality I guess he really never saw my body. I told him the whole story of what had transpired to me, which made him laugh, but when it came for me to tell him about the solvent and my search that made him laugh even harder. What got to him and brought us closer was for me telling him the truth of what my true feelings were. I told him what my mind was actually telling me and what really went on in my mind as I grew up. I disclosed to him everything every secret I had and cried. He came closer to me wrapping his arms around me holding me tightly as I cried.

I came back to reality walking along the beach with tears in my eyes. I noticed that I was some distance from the house and stated to walk back; as I walked as memories came back to me:

Frankie stayed in the living room, as I was just about to get dressed for the recital when Gloria and Linda came into my room.

"Change of plans girl, casual dress like jeans, a blouse and shoes." Gloria said

As I was getting undressed I told Linda and Gloria about the solvent and polish remover along with what had happened at the meeting that morning.

"They didn't come off in the shower?" Linda asked, as I shook my head no.

"I saw you use the glue it had a green label on the bottle." Gloria said.

"Oh shit, the green label? That was the long-term stuff. The solvent I gave Steph won't work on that stuff." Linda said.

"Damnit Linda I keep telling you to be careful and also to get glasses. You're going to screw up and turn someone's hair purple or green." Gloria said.

"Been there, done that, two days ago. The woman actually loved the shade of purple. She said if her son could do it in dark blue, she could too." Linda said making everyone laugh.

"Thanks Gloria! And you let her touch me." I said laughing.

"That reminds me later when you or we open those trunks there's some supplements and tea for you also you have a doctors appointment with you're mother's permission. Now get out of those duds so we can get you ready."  Linda said.

I had just taken off and hung up my school uniform when Joyce came with a very large box with a pink ribbon around it and a garment bag. She handed me the box saying, "Todd and I felt bad about all the Newscast crap and what happened to you here later. The one benefit is that our bookings have taken off, but the bad thing is our adopted niece has to stay here and go to school. We'd love you to be a part of us but we know that school comes first so maybe…anyway this is from us." Joyce said tearfully as she handed me the beribboned box.

I opened it to see a black silk pantsuit covered in rhinestones and glass beads depicting musical notes, a bass clef and a treble clef on the back of the jacket was a piano styled keyboard. On the front of the legs of the wide legged pants were also keyboards made from beading. Along with the pantsuit there was a black and silver Boa, black satin kid length gloves that went to the wrist, and a white silk button down blouse with a keyboard across the breast area with a very revealing bust line. Along with a pair of open toed three-inch high-heeled pumps studded in rhinestones forming piano keys across them.

"This was my backup costume and I'll be wearing the identical outfit you're wearing. We also have a little surprise planned. So get that perky butt moving and get dressed in that costume." Joyce said

Damn did the clothes fly in that room as we hurried about that room getting dressed. Linda was great to have around as she did our makeup over for the stage. Frank had re-assembled the stereo components that I worked so hard to earn the money for. Just as we were ready to walk from the room he was testing it with a CD of David Rose's rendition of The Stripper.

Joyce and I looked at each other and smiled deviously. We both walked into the room seductively with the Boas and danced to the music and teasing poor Frankie unmercifully as we danced to the music. He wasn't angry but he sure was red faced and very attentive of how I moved to the music along with a very noticeable problem. When the song stopped I ran over to the stereo, shutting it down as Linda and Gloria applauded.

"I have an idea, we all planned to do a duet with you on keyboards; so why don't you and I have some fun?"

"Are you nuts? They'll throw me out of the school for sure." I said knowing what she meant.

"I dunno, I think the kids would enjoy seeing two women gyrate on stage. I know I would! " Frankie said smiling wickedly at me.

"Oh and thank you kind sir ever so much for letting your testicles speak for you." I said.

"Ah c'mon girl it'll be fun!" Joyce said as I looked toward Linda and Gloria for help.

"It might be fun to watch, I think you should do it." Linda said with Gloria nodding in agreement.

"See what you started?" I said as I wrapped the boa around Frankie's neck and pulled him toward me kissing him as he blushed once again.

"Okay girl slow down you're not married to the boy yet." Linda said laughing with Joyce and Gloria while Frankie and I turned beet red. I don't know what came over me as I kissed Frankie. I've never been attracted to anyone like that but I sure liked it and I didn't hear one complaint from Frankie either, before, during, or after that kiss.

"Now go repair that lipstick Steph and you go wash it off your face." Joyce said.

I took Frank's hand into mine and took him into the bathroom in my bedroom with him saying, "Jeez this whole place is yours?"

"Yeah but you can always come back to visit me, you know that you'll always be my roomie." I said as I washed the lipstick of his face.

"That was then, you were…"

"A girl? Different? I've been a girl all my life stuck in someone else's body. Because of a mistake or a dare I get to wear the clothes and do the things I've always dreamed about."

"You're also more confident and more fun to be with." Frankie said as I kissed him again, quickly wiping the lipstick from his face as I blushed from his complement. We spoke privately for several more minutes as I re-applied my lipstick, putting the tube into a pocket of my jacket. As we walked from the bathroom we held hands that Joyce, Gloria and Linda quickly saw and smiled.

We left the rooms and proceeded to walk toward the floral gardens just as I heard many instruments doing warm-ups and tuning. I saw several very high towers that had been erected. I looked at Joyce strangely.

"Those morons! Okay that's one surprise. You're performing with the Eagle Symphony Orchestra. It's also being taped for broadcast sometime next week. Don't look at me like that young lady!" Joyce said raising a perky eyebrow.

"Yeah, sure, and you want to do The Stripper?" I said as we all laughed.

"Yep and we're doing it too! So sweetie, get those dancing feet on." Joyce said as I groaned very loudly.

As we approached closer I saw that a good percentage of the student body and faculty were already present. Many of the Board Members had brought their families with many of the people from the town. There were cameras everywhere and people pulling cables in every direction imaginable. Getting closer people actually started to point and applaud us with the Conductor leading the applause with over one hundred members of the Orchestra. Damn was I scared! This was worse than being caught in Mom's clothes by Dad.

At the stage Joyce and I were escorted by Todd to the Conductor while Gloria, Linda and Frankie went to the reserved seating area near the Headmaster.

"Stephanie this is Maestro Franz Schurz." Todd said speaking to man perhaps in his late or mid fifties years of age with snow-white hair. He seemed to tower over me and was very muscular for a man his age with a face that showed strength and determination. His smile warmed you and his professionalism scared the socks off of you or in my case my pantyhose.

"Ah our prodigy, I saw your tape while it was being edited and was very impressed. Your skills…your technique is impeccable for one as young as you are. You have a presence about you that I have not seen. Todd was contacted, as was Doctor Tweeds to do this concert. The members have been eagerly waiting since they all saw you on the telecasts with my calls to get them, our equipment all here along with all the rental sound equipment.

Your charts are at the piano as well as the keyboards and other instruments. I understand that you will improvise on those so we will follow your lead."

Pardon the expression, but I was floored. I thanked him for his kind words as he took my hand, clicked his heels, bowed at his waist and kissed my gloved hand. Wow!

Todd escorted me to the piano and kissed me for luck as I looked over all the charts for the performance and he went to sit with the string section. I went to the keyboards first and checked them both on their sound levels, I noticed at once they were similar to what I've used before at home. A stage hand came out and outfitted my with a headset mic as I set the synths and voices and did a few bars of Come Sail Away by Dennis DeYoung and Styx. I stopped after the few bars as a female orchestra member came to me saying, " The Maestro says blast it off and we'll follow. Break a leg dear, we're all here for you."

That's what I did as I restarted the song to be joined on the other set of boards with Todd smiling as I did vocals. As we did the song I saw the audience filling quickly to beyond standing room. Looking around I even saw the musicians having one hell of a time as they played. We did a total of four songs by Styx; Show Me The Way, Renegade, Come Sail Away and Mr. Roboto again all written by Dennis DeYoung. We took a fast break after that set to a rousing applause from the audience.

I remembered the good times that Mom had played all their albums as we cleaned the house together. I guess I really played those songs for her as I really did miss her. It was then I looked out at the audience and saw both my parents applauding as hard or harder than anyone. I caught the Maestro's eye and motioned to the Microphone telling the sound people I wanted to talk, and then he nodded toward me.

"Ladies and gentlemen, Havorford Academy and the Eagle Symphony Orchestra with Maestro Schurz welcome each and everyone of you to this first ever musical gala. Please give these musicians and technicians a hearty round of applause."   

There was a thunderous ovation that eventually died down with me resuming by saying, "I need to express my appreciation to all my dear friends and schoolmates. Many of you thought that this concert was going to be all long hair music well the only long hair around here belongs to me and I like basically all music as you've already heard.

Before we resume the concert those songs by Styx were dedicated to my Mother and the next set will be for my Father. Yes Mom and Dad I did see you sneaking in, did you pay your eighty seven fifty at the door for those seats? If you did I'll keep it for my next allowance." I said as the audience laughed with Mom and Dad waving at me

The next set we did several MoTown Classics from Smokey Robinson and the Miracles, Temptations, The Chilites, Marvin Gaye to the Supremes this time with Joyce on the Keyboards. After the set we took a break as I thought about what next to present to the audience that's when it happened. I felt a slight tap on my shoulder. As I turned slowly I saw Mom and Dad with both of them smiling at me.

"Do you look good, Surprised?" Dad said as he hugged and kiss me. This was the same man that was supposed to be upset with me. Now he's acting like everything was normal which surprised me.

 

"She certainly does look lovely dear." Mom said as she too kissed me whispering that we would talk later.

"Mom, Dad I'm…"

"We know but now these people are expecting a show, knock them dead Stephanie. We love you." Mom said as she took Dad's arm and went back to the audience.

We did a few more sets from Broadway tunes including the opening song from the Phantom of the Opera. As I played the opening chords to that wonderful organ solo Todd joined in as the Maestros eyes went wide. I saw his baton point somewhere into the brass section. The next I heard was the most marvelous melodious male voice singing the male lead to that song similar to the voice from the original Broadway cast. When it was time I sang the female leading voice as both the orchestra and Todd continued to play the notes to the music. Looking back that song made the event a smash and so did Arturo the man I sang the song with. At the conclusion he bowed at the waist and kissed my gloved hand as I curtseyed to him and the audience as they applauded.

Our next song was from Cats with its major hit Memories. The last Broadway tune came from Gypsy and that was The Stripper by David Rose. Joyce and I were so good we received a standing ovation for our performance as seductresses in the almost risqué number as we flirted with the males out into the audience. It was then I needed a short break for a powder room trot. Oh bless that person that thought of the intermission!

With each set we did we noticed the audience seemed to just swell in numbers; with the musicians loving every minute that they played. I took Joyce by the arm angling toward the Powder room when I saw the lines; we made a beeline to my lodgings when I heard my name being yelled and Mom almost running to me saying, "C'mon girls I'm going with you." As she took Joyce's and my arms with her in between us, we spoke briefly as we walked to the hall and going to my apartment.

"So this is what Daddy's money is paying for? Not bad!"

"Sorry mom this was the only room complete for me to move out of the other hall after last night."

It was then it all came out as to how I got here. As Joyce and I told the story she laughed so hard she had tears coming from her eyes. It was a good thing she went to the bathroom first or I would have been cleaning up a puddle. We all walked back to the staging area after repairing our makeup. We assumed our places but this time I used the keyboard as a Harpsichord playing music of the Baroque period and the Chamber music of Bach, Brahms, Beethoven, Schubert and numerous others.

At the conclusion for the day the Maestro quieted the crowd by saying, "This has been most enjoyable for all of us. My musicians were chosen for their talent and this day I have added another musician to this orchestra and that is the young talented lady that has been entertaining us all. She is a wunderkind the likes of which I have never seen, Miss. Stephanie Carleton."

He walked toward me and took my hand into his and bowed once again to me as I curtseyed. The audience showed their appreciation with a standing ovation with the Orchestra joining in for the adulation as he bowed and I curtsied as low as I could to him, the orchestra and the audience. Afterward I Looked out into the crowd I saw my parents and how proud they both were of me. Both of them had tears rolling down their cheeks. The worst I saw were the news people asking the opinions of the crowds and interviewing Doctor Tweeds. I thanked the Maestro and as many of the musicians as I could personally. What was funny was one musician thanked me for the challenges of his skills in winging it. That was true as almost none of the music was done from the Charts; it was all improvisation. A few basic skills of a musician are to sight-read charts, winging it, a great ear and a mastery of their primary instrument. I had to admit to myself I had fun but now I needed to relax. The crowd around me of well-wishers was getting overpowering as I tried to make my way back to my apartment at Harold Hall. I felt a hand on my arm and almost screamed.

"It's me Honey, Daddy, let's get you to your room." Dad said as he led me away through the crowd. In minutes he had me at the apartment and inside. I closed the door and locked it in order to keep anyone from just walking in.

"Thanks Daddy for finding me."

"Your Mom and I went looking for you. You looked lovely on stage and played brilliantly. Now go get changed so we can eat, I want to take you out on my arm and show everyone what a beautiful daughter I have."

"Dad I'm beat can you and Mom stand the food in our dining hall?" I said as I kicked off my heels and sat on the couch and crossing my legs.

"Sure but we wanted to do something with you as a family."

"Dad I know you mean well but I feel as if I've been in ……well hiding until now. You ship me off to school, other than public events I normally stayed at home or was with a sitter."

"OhMyGod, is that what you thought? It was never our intention for you to be or feel slighted." Dad said coming closer and sitting next to me drawing me to him. This was the type a moment that I missed when I was younger. I liked this feeling to be held by my dad.

"Daddy, I know your dream of becoming the governor or a senator someday. I hope I didn't ruin it."

"On the contrary, the party chairman, Jeff Hughes, called me and asked me to run for the Secretary of State last night; it was after the news broadcast on the cable channels. That's also after we both saw you and I was really pissed off. It seems that after he saw you and tied our family names together and how much you resembled your mother he assembled all the pieces as to you being our child. I had to swear him to secrecy but I know he can be trusted. I couldn't lie to him and I told him the truth with some of the compulsive problems we had with you dressing.

Jeff understood but he still wants me to run and for you to take an active part in the campaign."

"Well that's a step closer to your goal. Daddy I'm not geared up to be under that much scrutiny, besides if the public found out about me you just might lose the election." I said just as there was a knock at the door.

"Go change your clothes and I'll get the door." He said as I picked up my shoes and ran into the bedroom as he went to the door. I shut the door and started to disrobe ensuring that the curtains on the windows were closed.

I turned on a lamp on top of the dresser and found the keys to the trunks and luggage. I needed clothes and this was where all the clothes were. As I unlocked the first trunk there was a very soft knock at the bedroom door with the door opening and my mother entering. She closed the door saying, "Your dad was right you know?"

"Huh…Sorry Mom I'm not psychic maybe a bit psychotic but…"

"About you looking like me, sorry dear. Your father wants to take us out for dinner. What's this about not wanting to go?"

"Mom I'm so tired and I have so much to do. I have to unpack all these from Linda, Joyce and Gloria." I said as I pointed to all the trunks and cases.

"What's all this?"

"Clothes and who knows what else, I have to find something to wear first. I just have to get out of this costume. It may be silk but it is heavy and my feet are killing me."

"Paying the price for beauty darling, that what sore feet and backaches are to a woman. Now let's find you something to wear. Then I'll try to be here next weekend and we'll go shopping together. You know I've been granted my wish. Your dad and I wanted to have girl child first, but I guess the powers that be said no to the conception. I guess when you started to play dressup; I too pretended you were a girl. I never dreamed this would happen even though we had those talks about how confused you were." Mom said with tears in her eyes. We both hugged each other as we saw each other's point of view and perceptions. I saw my mother in a different light as well as my father, just as they now saw me as their daughter by mistake.

"My goodness those girls really packed these cases. They must really like you to do and give you all these beautiful clothes."

"Yeah they all adopted me including Mrs. Tweeds. Aunt Midge is Aunt Gloria's cousin and Aunt Linda is her best friend. Aunt Joyce and Uncle Todd they made today a reality for me."

"They think you're special darling and quite frankly so do we. Gee, now I have familial sisters, I'd say that's pretty remarkable for an only child." Mom said giggling as we found a pair of black hip hugger jeans and a red low cut v-necked sweater. I found a pair of red low-heeled ankle strapped pumps as Mom found a red shoulder purse.

I removed the costume I had been wearing as mom's eyes grew wide with her saying, "My Goodness, are those real?" pointing to the breasts and then touching them. She laughed as I told about the mistake that Linda had made with the glue and solvent. She agreed that the breasts indeed looked and felt real. To be honest as she was inspecting them and touching them I felt everything she did. If those feelings were anything like you have with the real McCoy, I want the real thing as soon as possible. I wanted them now! Mom helped me to dress watching me closely, I felt as if I was under a microscope. As I repaired my makeup she went into the living room and came back with a box that looked like a wooden jewelry box made of some type of wood and stained.

"Did you get that jewelry from your aunts?" Mom asked.

"Yes Mom last night from Gloria, It was a gift from all of them."

"That was sweet of them but a girl needs more than what you have. My grandma gave this box to me and now I want you to have it. I've added more pieces that were mine over the years and many were gifts. Enjoy it all Stephanie and enjoy being a woman. Just take it easy on the boys and no sex." Mom said as she squeezed my hand in hers and kissing me on the forehead.

"Boys? Sex? I don't think so! Well maybe the boys for friends." I said giggling with her just as Linda, Joyce, Midge and Gloria came into the bedroom.

"There she is our little wunderkind as the Maestro said." Joyce said giggling.

"I assume you ladies are now my sisters, I know that Midge is my sorority sister but…" Mom said giggling.

"Yep and we're all going to corrupt your daughter and our niece. Sorority sister? You went to state?" Gloria said and then giggled.

"That's how I found out about this school from national." Mom said.

"That's right and Carol called me and I turned you over to Horace. I hate to say it but we all belong to the same sorority and Midge is a third cousin to me also. So little Missy here is our niece."

"True and we did take a pledge to help out our sisters and their families." Linda said with Joyce agreeing.

"Hey Girls, I'm starved! I need sustenance now please." Todd said loudly into the bedroom.

"Hey Uncle Todd, please come here." I said loudly.

"Stephanie Annette Carleton! Young ladies do not yell." Mom said forcefully.

"But Mom…"

"No buts squirt, listen to your mom." Todd said as he came into the bathroom.

"Mrs. Tweeds…"

"No dear, Aunt Midge please, except when amongst the students." Midge said smiling.

"Dad offered to take us out to eat but I'd rather stay on campus. Could we bend the rules and allow everyone to join us."  

"Are you okay?"

"Just tired, sore, and thirsty to name just a few items."

"I'm sure the Headmaster would allow the rule bent, since we're all related." Midge said smiling and winked at me.

"I don't care where we eat as long as it's edible. Don't even say it Joyce! Besides I was asked to speak to the Carleton’s." Todd said.

"Why and by whom?" Joyce said.

"Since when have you become the Booking Agent and Business Manager of the family?" Todd said smiling.

"Oh since about two years ago when we got stiffed for the swanky party your friend gave." Joyce said. 

"I forgot about that, did I ever say I was sorry? If not I'll make up for it tonight."

"Sweetie I think you'll be making up for that fiasco until we both are in eternity together and even then I won't ever let you forget." Joyce said kissing Todd before he went back to the living room with dad.

I showed the jewelry box to everyone that mom gave me being so proud of it and promising to treasure it. Inside of the box were some family heirlooms and as she said and pieces of her own substantial collection. Replacing the studs I had in my ears with two diamond studs and a diamond pendant leaving on the gold chain bracelet, wristwatch and adding two rings one for each hand. Mom sprayed me with her perfume and gave me the bottle. I checked myself in the bedroom mirror and walked into the living room.

"She gets better looking each time I see the kid but so does my wife. "Todd said as Joyce kissed her husband again.

"I was thinking the same thing, Todd. But not about your wife perhaps mine though." Dad said as Mom kissed him.

"Damn all this mushy stuff, it kind of makes you sick. It's great, isn’t it?" Linda said smiling.

As we all went out the door, Midge gave me the keys to my living quarters and storage spaces. I was also reminded of the rules about guests and no overnight guests except for my adopted aunts along with Mom and Dad. At least I wouldn't be a hermit, of course I was also given free access to the music room to come and go as I pleased. In a few short minutes we were going through the line getting whatever we wished to eat that was prepared. I had roast beef this time with veggies, a baked potato, salad and a great deal of Pepsi.

Going through the line I made a note to myself that since I had microwave and a small fridge I should stock the cabinets and freezer. If I didn't get a chance to eat at last I could nuke something simple or have a snack. Midge had us all sit at the Staff table since it was empty. As we sat one of the 12th grade class officers got up and went to the podium saying, "I think I'm speaking for the entire student body. We would like to thank you Stephanie, Mrs. Tweeds and the two members of the orchestra present for the event that we were allowed to attend this afternoon. We all saw your appearance on the newscasts we were at first stymied but we are normally in a confused state anyway.

Stephanie you are a part of this brotherhood and will always be a little sister to all of us. Your secret will always be secure by your brothers as a blood oath without the blood. Many of us have learned tolerance from you and we thank you again for this, as it is a necessary part of survival in today's world. By your talents you have made us all with the Alumni very secure that these halls will be here when we are gone."

When he completed speaking those in the dining room stood up as they all applauded looking directly at me. I blushed even more as the upper classman walked to me and kissed my cheek and led me to the podium.

"Thank you all for your support today, we are very happy that you enjoyed the concert. Tomorrow there is another if you wish to attend. We just kind of fudged the whole thing. The Maestro just told all of those wonderful musicians to follow my lead.  It was a major surprise to see so many of the students, faculty, Staff, Board Members, my Mom and Dad, my aunts and friends in the audience. Your support by your applause showed you cared in the events that happened." I said, going back to the dining table as the applause resumed even louder, as I sat down in my chair as it began to wane and finally stop.

We all had finished our meals, beginning to leave, when many of the students offered their hands and apologized for their past behaviors toward me. I knew I was being watched very carefully thinking to myself it was all a dream or a trap for further harassment. I took the offered hands in the friendship they represented.

I stood at the waters edge having walked back to where I had started. The sand was still warm but the air temperature was slightly dropping as the sun descended to allow the night to enter. In some ways I missed those days as I thought of them. Life was complicated sure but now it appeared worse.

Putting on the sandals I wore I walked back to my van when I realized my keys to it were in my purse. Unknown to me why, I tried the door handles and found out I had failed to lock the car. Chastising myself silently for not locking the car I took several cases from the back seat; opening the back cargo door lid I took several more, larger cases out of it. Closing the lid I picked up some of the heavy cases and strained with the weight as I carried them from the car to the beach house making several trips.

Turning on some light as I entered the house I took the cases into the living room setting them down gently onto the floor. Ever so slowly and with deep love I opened each case to reveal a Roland synth keyboard and added synchronizers, reverb, the keyboard stand, pedals, along with other electronic equipment. I assembled the equipment patching into the stereo system, additional speakers and added my laptop as the controller for the Roland and synths. Adjusting the volume on the amp and the outputs I began to play anything that came to mind. Beginning to relax I felt every note and chord release the tension and depression I had. I played several classical pieces and went to rock. As I played my mind drifted:

After we left the dining room we all went back to my room with daddy opening the door for us. Stepping into the living room I was greeted by the sight of the electronic equipment I had used earlier on the stage.

"Surprise Stephanie!" Everyone yelled that was with me.

Breaking down into tears of happiness I sat onto the couch dumbfounded with Daddy bringing me a card that was affixed on the keyboard setup.

"I believe this for you Sweetheart." Daddy said as he handed me the fairly thick envelope.

In opening the envelope a card came out emblazoned with the crest of the Eagle Symphony Orchestra and the Maestro's name inside the card were several typewritten sheets.

I began to read the card first:

Dearest Prodigy, Our Wunderkind;

Stephanie dear, I gladly give you this marvelous instrument. You made it sing just as melodic as your sweet voice to the ears of the trained and untrained.

Your talent is beyond reproach, as the harshest critic has written in our appearance alongside of you today. (Enclosed is the advanced copy of the review.)

Do not waste your talent or gifts use it to bring joy to the hearts of all in the world.

We will all see you at the morning for rehearsal 9am Sharp.  Do not be tardy!

Our love to you my dear

                                     

Grandpa Maestro

I smiled as I dried my tears, handing the card to daddy to pass around so everyone could read it. I read the review very closely only pausing to wipe the tears from my eyes. I shook as I read the review by Wilbur Frerize a syndicated columnist and Arts Reviewer that wrote the review. He had a reputation for being extremely caustic with very few friends and those friends only tolerated him.

He praised my exuberance and style along with my musical abilities. He marveled and praised the Eagle symphony musicians in keeping up with my choice of music as no charts were used it was all done by improvising. He did say my talent was beyond reproach and hoped for him and everyone to see more of my abilities. He also mentioned the recital the next day at the academy. I handed the review to Dad as Mom returned the card to me.

"The Maestro really took a shine to you. That was what I was going to tell you while we were eating. Also Aunty Joyce and I were talking, we want you to go under contract to the quartet and the Maestro is going to offer a contract with Eagle.

In that contract it will state that wherever you appear the symphony goes with you except when you perform with the Quartet. The bigwigs in publicity are planning a summer concert tour built around you as a featured performer to all the major cities. It's a good deal for someone like you with your talent to get the exposure and the experience. The gig also pays very well but when you play a gig with us it will be locally and mostly on weekends with a split of the proceeds. It's enough to keep you in pantyhose." Todd said smiling.

It was all coming to fast for me, I needed the time to think and discuss the matter with Mom and Dad. It was a very large decision to make.

"Uncle Todd, I understand but I need to speak to Mom and Dad. I still have school too."

"We all know that, are you willing to give up your holidays and days off from school to perform and to give joy to people?" Aunt Midge asked.

"Sure but…"

"Did you enjoy yourself on that stage?" Daddy asked.

"Yes! But I don't want to burn out either. If I do this I want you all around me." I said.

"Darling, I know I'll be around and if Daddy can he will be there also." Mom said.

"You know that Aunty Joyce and I will be right there on stage with you." Todd added

"Linda, Gloria and I will be wherever you are or at least one of us will be there." Midge said.

"Daddy will you handle the legal stuff and the contracts?"

"Sure I will baby."

"I know what I want to say but I still need to think. I'll tell everyone at breakfast before rehearsal."

"I think that's equitable." Daddy said as he hugged me to him. My father that barely knew I existed previously was hugging me. I liked it!

"Okay now go play something for us to try it out." Daddy said releasing me from his arms.

I no longer needed anything as I was getting my high with the music that I played. I no longer felt the stress from college as my fingers danced on the ivories and dance they did for several hours.

Becoming tired I took a shower and dressed for bed in a long flower printed cotton nightgown. Snuggling into the bedding I began to drift off into dreamland:

Mom and Dad stayed with me that night after everyone had left. They decided to stay for at least two more days as they both wanted to get to know their daughter better. While Mom and I unpacked the luggage and trunks, we spoke to each other as we had never spoken before. Mom and I were close but we became closer that evening, as we pulled out the clothing and other items we went over all the pros and cons of saying yes or no. We saw that the pros outweighed the cons. She said I was going to have all the support I needed, as she would see to that herself.

My parents took the bed after I insisted, as I slept in the recliner chair in the living room curled up with the panda that was on my bed. That night was peaceful and I slept well.

The morning arrived with Mom waking me up gently with a kiss and handing me a cup of tea. She had awakened early and decided to stock my shelves and fridge as I had decided to do the day before by going to a store close by to the academy. I drank the brew as she sat on the couch while Dad slept. Looking at her I said, "Mom, Are Dad and you alright with this. I mean sure we talked about it and all but…"

"Darling to be honest with you Daddy was furious when he saw you on the news at home. When he saw you on the Cable News show and the praise they gave by the Reviews you received he didn't know what to say. You promised him so many times that you wouldn't wear my clothes and you reneged each time in a few days. I even knew when you wore my clothes under your own seeing the outline of the bra or my panties. I was so worried that you'd be caught here at school when I knew you took that small bag with some items here. If you'd have been caught I don't know what the consequences would have been except horrendous both here and with him.

I read the diagnosis of what amounted as a gender identity confusion leaning toward transsexuality from the psychiatrist and the recommendation that you not be sent to an all boy's school but daddy said you'd grow out of this phase. I as your mother knew he was wrong and you proved me correct as you always did. I don't know exactly what the entire conversation was with Jeff Hughes, but I certainly wished he would have spoke to your father sooner. He was so much more relaxed and not as angry as he was. While we were driving here though his anger once again flared scaring the hell out of me. He was beyond his control limits; if you had been around him at the time I'm afraid he would have seriously hurt you. It wasn't until we had parked and walked to the gardens that he was calm again. When we heard you making your music and heard you did he calm down to within normal limits and was rational. He was once again the man I love and married."

"I was that bad?" Daddy said, as he went to mom kissing her and then to me taking my hand into his.

"Yes darling you were." Mom said as she went to the kitchenette.

"I heard everything, I'm so sorry for my actions. I didn't mean to frighten you dear."

"We know darling, mothers and daughters are very perceptive to the men that surround them." Mom said as she gave daddy his coffee as he sat on the couch in his underwear.

"Uh dear…"

"What?"

"Underwear sweetie."

"So, we're family."

"Never mind, but there's clean clothes for you in the bags I packed."

"What bags? I didn't put any bags into the car."

"Men! And you want one of these creatures? I did stupid! I placed clothes into luggage, did the carrying and put them into the trunk. I even packed a shaving kit for you." Mom said pretending she was angry placing her hands on both hips and staring at him.

Dad placed his coffee cup down onto a table and went to Mom taking her into his arms. He bent her over kissing her passionately and then brought her up breathlessly, with him saying, "See men can do things like giving pleasure to the woman he loves. And I didn't know we were staying."

"Ah…. one more like that and I'll have to change Stephanie's sheets after we use them very properly." Mom said coyly and very attentive to daddy as she pressed into him.

"Ah please Mom, no details. I'll find out myself in a few years."

"Yeah, like ten or twenty years young lady." Daddy said smiling.

For the first time that I ever recalled we spoke to each other as a family as we drank the morning brews that mom had made for us. I noticed that even my parents seemed to be that much closer to each other. Looking at my watch we had time yet but Mom decided for Dad to shower, shave and get dressed first. Finishing his coffee dad went into the bedroom as Mom followed, after giving me the supplements that Linda had packed for me. I took another sip of the tea noticing the bitter almost woody taste it had though it had honey in it.

Mom had come out of the bedroom several minutes later saying, "That man! He wanted to test your mattress."

"Just give me advanced warning and I'll leave. Remember Mom, no details." I said with us both giggling.

Mom had also pulled out clothes for me while in the bedroom with Dad. When dad came out I went in seeing that the bed was made with my clothes on top of the satin bedspread and shoes by the bed. I went and took my shower relaxing under the hot water spray. While washing my hair I began to think of some of the music I might play. Getting out of the shower I dried, turbaned my hair and powdered my body and inspected myself in the mirror just as Mom came into the bathroom saying, "Hard to believe Huh?"

"Oh yes with these breasts I don't even look like myself."

"Sweetie, are you sure this is what you want?"

"I don't understand Mom."

"To be a woman, I mean sure I love it but I was born this way…"

"Mom I'm sure it is what I want. When I kissed Frankie there wasn't a voice that said it was wrong. It felt normal for me to do it."

"That's what the shrink said would possibly happen. We decided to stay so I could be with you when you see the doctor. Midge picker her out for you, I spoke to her yesterday at the concert. After seeing you she consented to start you on your way to become the woman you want to be so badly. I have to warn you after you been poked and prodded by her you'll feel like a pincushion. Now let's get you dressed." Mom said as I hugged her.

In the bedroom I put on a bra in panty set in red lace and red knee-highs with mom giggling and saying, "Well those bras will be too small if you grow as large as I am."

"That's okay just think of all the boys then."

"Don't even think about it! School first, playtime and boys are way at the bottom of your prioritized list."

"But Mom…"

"Don't you “but Mom me”, young lady. I am your mother and I do know what's best for you. And family will be watching you also." Mom said sternly, that was the first time Mom spoke to me like that and not the last. I knew she loved me and I knew I loved her and respected her. I wanted to be her daughter and I wanted her closeness and friendship as she wanted mine.

I pulled on the red jeans and red baggy sweatshirt asking, "Mom what is this my red period?"

"That's a good color for you I saw it and pulled it out." She said as we went back to dry my hair.

"But all red?" I said as she dried my hair.

"I want people to see my beautiful daughter and with that color they will."

I knew better than to argue, she always wins and I lose. I kept my mouth closed as she put my hair into a ponytail tying it off with a red velvet ribbon with a very large bow. My thoughts were to tolerate this after I saw the bow and realized that it made me look younger than I was as I applied very little makeup and a red lipstick.

In the bedroom I placed my feet into a pair of brown penny loafers, checked myself in the mirror and grabbed a red fanny pack putting it around my waist. I was ready!

We left Harold Hall together and walked toward the Dining room. As we walked the boys that we saw waved and called me by name, something that wasn't done ever before. I smiled and waved back at them but my memories of being ignored or hazed were still with me and it hurt.  Inside after going through the line we sat with Midge. She pressed me for what decision I had made. During that eventful breakfast at the academy I told everyone my decision was that I would do it. By their faces I knew that my decision was not a surprise. Dad had said he'll do all the legal and contract work starting Monday.

"Hi Steph, I know you have the rehearsal and all, I was wondering if I can come watch you. You know keep you company." Frank said as he came from behind me as we were leaving the dining room.

"Sure Frankie." I said smiling and taking his arm as he escorted me. I saw Midge and Mom smile as I took his arm. I just knew I was going to get a great deal of razzing from them. Oh Crap, they'll tell Linda, Joyce and Gloria too. I'm dead meat!

It was still early as we arrived at the stage but the road crew was already hard at work. The equipment that was in the apartment was there which puzzled me until I realized the maintenance people had a key. All the seating that was there had been removed. I saw added speakers along with several more towers, scaffolding with lights hanging and a backdrop with the gigantic logo of the orchestra. Why Lights during the day? More cameras with some that were controlled by remote control somewhere.

I kissed Mom, Dad and Midge as Frankie escorted me to stage and the keyboards making him sit near me. The soundmen saw me and came with a headset microphone and an earpiece for my ear. I was told they needed a sound check from the piano, keyboards and me. Standing at the keyboards I went through the songs I thought of in the shower. I remembered the settings and adjusted the equipment. When I was ready I contacted the control booth by the mic.

I immediately began the classic rock favorite Frankenstein by J. and E. Winters. When I began all work stopped as the crews watched and listened. People and students started to enter the area as I hammered those keys, worked the switches and used the pedals. This was what I wanted, to be onstage I thought as I finished the piece.

"You will play that piece first to open the show my dear."

"Maestro I didn’t…"

"That was very skillful and it is Grandpa to you young lady. Who is your friend?"

I introduced Frankie as my best friend to him and consented to do the piece with the maestro saying, "Good and Francis is welcome to remain with you at the performance. It will start this evening at six pm.

Do you like the stage?"

"Why yes, I was surprised to see everything with so many differences."

"When there is a performer worthy such as you are we do nothing but the finest for them. Today I would like you to do basically the same repertoire as you did yesterday adding that last piece to the opening." The maestro said as we spoke. I thanked him for the equipment, the card and the critical review.

"That man is a pain in my arse but he wrote the truth. There may be others today too as we have been getting requests for the Press to attend.  Did Todd speak to your parents and you?"

"Yes Maes…I mean Grandpa. They threw it all in my lap and my decision to make, I said yes." I said as he kissed me excitedly.

"My goodness, you will not regret your decision. I must go speak to your Papa. You have made an old man very happy my dear." He said as he bounded from the stage toward my dad.

"What was that all about?" Frankie asked as he took my hand.

I told him what Todd had said and what I decided. At first he was so very happy and then he seemed sad.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"I dunno, Oh crap, my best friend will be gone." Frankie said.

"Wait a minute, it's only during weekends, the holidays and the summer. You'll be with your parents then."

"But I thought…"

"Stop being so silly, though it was sweet of you." I said as I kissed him on the cheek as I went back to checking the equipment and doing the sound checks for the engineers as Todd and Joyce came giving me a kiss along with the other musicians that arrived.

"So what's first?" Todd asked.

"Frankenstein." I said seriously.

"We're showing a movie too?" Todd said smiling as Frankie broke out laughing.

"No the song."

"Ah isn't that a bit…hard."

"Hey I do what I'm told by the boss." 

 

"The Maestro?"

"I was doing a sound check for the engineers and he caught it, He said we start with it."

"The Old Fart did it again. He's turning us into the Boston Pops." Todd said shaking his head in wonder just as Joyce came back.

"Did what again?" She asked. We told her of what was to be the first piece. She thought it would be great to start the concert off with it, while Todd disagreed. Joyce told him softly she would play it with me and to hold onto his testicles and scrotum from the sensual erection and the orgasm from the sensual vibrations we were going to make.

 

"So dear what was your decision?" Joyce asked.

"Oh…I haven't given it much thought. I was so tired last night."

"What? That's not right! You said you'd have a decision today. Why you little………" Todd said almost yelling as I giggled at him.

"Uh… Ah. …Uncle Todd, now go be a good boy, sit down and tune up that stringy instrument of yours." I said.

"Damnit another damn Prima Donna. She's your creation Aunty Joyce please control the monster you made. Frankenstein suits you all too well! " Todd said as he stormed off.

"That was a good one, perfect control, I loved it sweetie. Welcome to the orchestra." Joyce said as she hugged me to her.

At last the Maestro was ready to begin the rehearsal. When he climbed the stage he tapped his baton to get everyone's attention. He turned on the public address switch on his mic saying, "Ladies and Gentlemen, I have an announcement to make before we begin rehearsal for the 6pm performance.

We now have a new and the youngest member we have ever had with this orchestra Stephanie Annette Carleton. She will be a featured performer for the concert tour planned for this summer and our pianist. Please take a few minutes and welcome her to our family."

Every one of the musicians, the stage crew, and engineers came to welcome me as the maestro smiled. Eventually we got down to business and had our rehearsal. We had to stop a few times as adjustments were made to the sound system to balance out the sound emanating from the sound towers massive speakers enclosures. Maestro was making notes, as we performed making no comments to anyone. Dad made the remark later it reminded him of pictures and the movie he saw of Woodstock. Hey, where are Jimmy, Janice and Country Joe?

At last the rehearsal ended at lunchtime and I was once again tired, hungry but not thirsty as Frankie made sure we had something to drink. The only thing I needed was a powder room close by as; oh those walks were a killer when your bladder was full. Hey bring that Sousaphone over here!

The academy cooks had made an outdoor barbeque for the academy with the head chef inviting the orchestra and the crews to eat. I noticed many of the students avoided the barbeque beef for some reason I was going to do the same as I thought it was made from the leftover beef. I found out as I bit into the sandwich why it was being avoided, damn it was sweet but very spicy hot. It was so hot your eyes teared; it opened the sinuses, warmed the insides and brought out the perspiration and finally a release by the sphincter muscle as it ran right through you.

Frankie and I sat down on the lawn as we ate. He and I spoke of the entire forthcoming concert. We both agreed it would be better this evening than last night. We had just finished eating when six women came from nowhere holding tape measures and pads of paper in their hands. I was forced to stand as they took every measurement they could of my poor body, much to my embarrassment. They even took the sizes of the clothes I wore looking for the tags. I was praying they wouldn't ask me to take anything off on the lawn. Frankie saw my discomfort and smiled at me making me forget about those women while those closest to me were laughing and giggling. They had finished with me and descended upon Joyce and Todd like hungry locust, it was now our turn to laugh. We both quickly left the area and went back to my rooms by the looks I received from Joyce and Todd I was dead meat as usual.

We manage to get to the hall and into the apartment without incident. Frankie had the television with the national cable news channel on as I went to get him a soda and me a cup of tea.

"Hey look you're on TV!" Frankie yelled with me running.

The channel showed three major clips. The first was our rendition of Come Sail Away. The second clip was our salute to the Phantom of the Opera. The last clip was of Joyce and I doing The Stripper. There was a man speaking saying basically the same thing as Wilbur Frerize in the written review. When I saw the name it was he, the Wilbur Frerize. He spoke of the contract I signed. He also spoke of the concert this evening at the academy and urged people to come see the show as well as speaking about the coming summer tour.

"Jeez, you're famous Steph!" Frankie said just as I heard a ringing like a telephone.

We looked at each other as no other rooms had phones in the halls. I followed the sound finding a telephone in my bedroom and picked up the receiver. "They finally put the phone in. Did you see the TV Steph?" The voice was Midge calling.

"We just saw it Aunt Midge."

"It's been on all morning, in all the newspapers and on the radio. We're so happy for you dear. The Board is ever so euphoric, as well as the area as a whole." 

 

"But it's happening too fast. I'm just a kid!" I said as I hung up crying. Frankie must have heard me and came by me holding me to him.

"Hey don't cry. I'm here for you, please." Frankie said as held me to him as I cried.

"What's going on in here? Steph baby, why are you crying?" Daddy said as he came toward us.

"Who's Crying? Stephanie? Both of you go watch TV or do something. Let me speak to my daughter, now out!" Mom said as she came into the bedroom taking me from Frankie's arms.

"Your daughter, she's also mine too."

"You have two seconds before I throw you out." Mom said as both Frankie and Dad ran from the room almost knocking down Joyce, Linda and Gloria.

"What's wrong? Did Frank do something?" Gloria asked as Linda went into the living room. 

When she returned she said, "Frank tried to calm her down she just said everything was happening too fast. It had something to do with a phone call. What phone?" Linda said.

"Like maybe this phone." Joyce said holding it up and picking up the receiver.

Joyce said the phone went to the switchboard and the only call I received was from Midge. Gloria called Midge and found out what happened and what I said, as Linda went to get me my tea

"For an intelligent woman I swear my cousin can be an airhead. She's coming right over."

"Momma it was all over the national news." I said calming down some.

"If this performing is going to do this to you maybe we'd better think about it some more." Mom said.

"Things are just happening so fast." I said.

"Overwhelming?" Joyce said.

"Why sure it is, look what we all did to the poor kid. One day she's just a plain student the next day a concert hall maven. She's the darling of the media because of the talent she has." Joyce said.

"And her looks, Joyce is right, but what do we do about it?" Gloria asked.

"We need to show her our support and be there for her at all times while she's onstage or on tour like we all said." Joyce said.

"I'm Okay, I have to just collect my thoughts. I just need to rest a little. I have to do that show this evening." I said.

"Are you sure sweetie?" Mom asked.

"Sure Mom, I'll be fine, as the old saying goes the show must go on. I just need some rest."

"Damn that kid has moxie!" Linda said while everyone got me comfortable on the bed gave me a kiss and left, closing the door.

The morning had come as the sun streamed through the windows. I heard the sea gulls crying as they flew through the sky as I opened my eyes. Getting out of bed I threw on my robe and slippers walking to the kitchen.

Leaving the bedroom I looked at the disaster area I had made, Oh well, after I had coffee and toast I'll clean up my mess and the bedroom. I started the coffee and poured some pink grapefruit juice and drank it slowly as I looked out at the Atlantic Ocean. Far off I saw what could have been some of our naval ships from the Norfolk Naval Operations Base or what the locals call N-O-B.

Having finished my juice, I made a slice of toast and opened the window as it was beginning to warm up. Going back to the coffee pot I poured a mug, turned on the radio and buttered my toast. I had to change the radio station twice to find some music any type of music, since the first ones were some morons on a talk show and the other was a Holy Roller station thumping their bibles with fire and brimstone yelling repent all you sinners. Who me? Why I never!

Sitting at the table I ate my now cold toast and drank the coffee slowly not really paying attention to anything as I looked out the windows. I saw the neighbors next door as they left to do some surf fishing I recalled that he was a retired something or other and she was a housewife. They both were very nice and had lived there for several years off and on I guessed. Both it seemed were deeply in love with each other.

Cleaning up my mess in the kitchen I began my day with a very hot shower allowing the water to cascade and caress my body, stimulating my breasts, vagina and clitoris. I had the warm feeling of a growing and impending orgasm. Wave after wave the orgasm hit just as the wave action hit the beach fulfilling my sexual need as I showered. Beginning to cry I stood under the water not from the embarrassment of my sexual need but of my failure. Never had I failed at anything I have done until just a few days ago. That professor was an asshole that called my professional career as a musician a circus and the Maestro the Ring Master. I kept quiet as I was insulted before my fellow students in that class and withstood his mockery that he gave me at any given time day after day. This was self-discipline that every musician practiced however a musician is still an entertainer of the masses and only human.

Drying off I got into my panties and a floral pink sundress with the sandals I wore before. I started to feel a little better as I dried my hair, then braiding it as I normally did. Once again I did the chores about the beach house finishing rather quickly. I allowed myself another mug of coffee taking it outside with me onto the deck. Sitting at the outside table I crossed my legs and looked out upon the blue seas not focusing upon anything:

Waking up I felt much more like myself. Getting up from the bed I went out to the kitchenette to make tea, as my mouth was very dry. The apartment was quiet as I prepared my tea. Taking the mug I went to my computer, switching it on allowing the power supply to send its life to the components letting the hard drive spin its song. In seconds I was onto the academy's network.

I checked the email and set one to Frankie. Most of the mail was Spam but I read one from Mom that she wrote telling me that they were coming to the school for the past concert. I took a sip of the tea and deleted it.

Next was the mail to Frankie telling him I was so sorry for my emotional outburst, I told him he was a true friend to attempt to console me and for that I loved him for it. Several times I recomposed it just in case someone misconstrued what I meant. I finally gave up and sent it the original way I had written it.

Opening up web browser, I went to the news sites. At every site there was something written about me that I printed out. The reviews that were posted were all flowery and full of praise of my talents. One site had a film clip that I had seen on the cable news; there was a telephone number that I copied.

Going into the bedroom I used the telephone and my phone card and called the number with the operators help. I was connected to the switchboard in seconds and I explained who I was and my purpose for calling.

I was connected to what sounded like a cell phone, once again I told the woman that answered who I was and why I called.

"Sweetie where are you?"

"Havorford Academy, Harold Hall, Why?"

"If you give me an interview right now I'll bring the tape with me."

"Ah…I'll call you right back, give me a number." I said.

She rattled off the number and I asked the operator to get Aunt Midge and quick. The phone rang several times before Doctor Tweeds answered.

"Sir I think I screwed up again."

"Stephanie? What is it?"

I told him what I did and he laughed saying, "Everyone is here, so young lady we'll be right there. Call that newswoman back and tell her to bring that tape in ten minutes. By the way its Uncle Horace to you dear girl."

Calling that newswoman back was a pain because the school operator gave me a very hard time until I told her to call the Headmaster, Uncle Horace to verify the call. After that she couldn't have been sweet enough to me.

"Okay you have the interview in fifteen minutes. Please don't forget the tape. If you do no interview." I said.

"I'll bring it and the cameraman. I need directions."

I gave her the directions and told her how to enter the hall.

In five minutes everyone arrived at the apartment in ten minutes one of those crazy women with the tape measures arrived with her arms full of clothes and shoes. As she left the newswoman arrived with a complete crew of audio, visual, producer and telemetry for the satellite feed. We were running out of space quick however we managed. I introduced everyone to her and the producer. I was informed that we were going to be on a live feed directly to the newsroom in an hour.

Joyce looked at her watch and said that was cutting things close to curtain call. We needed to be ready or the Maestro would have a fit, although if we got ready now it could be done and we could be on time for the call. They agreed to allow us to get ready while they called their boss to set everything up as they decided to do a live feed. I asked Uncle Horace and Daddy to give them whatever fill information they wanted as all the women ran into the bedroom to help us dress.

"Damn kid, you did really well in handling those sharks. I'm very impressed." Linda said.

"I like the way she passed them onto her dad and Horace now that was a piece of skill." Midge said as I took off my jeans.

"Jeez take a look at this implement of feminine torture they have to wear tonight." Linda said as she held up a silver colored and very black-laced strapless Bustier.

"Damn that'll get all the men's hearts pumping and if they don't there dead." Gloria said giggling.

"You're kidding right?" I said.

"Darling you did this to yourself, now take your medicine like a big girl. Now strip!" Mom said smiling evilly at me. I did as mom said, I was not a happy camper as I disrobed. I knew better that to open my mouth they would all probably jump me and forcibly dress me.

"Into the bathroom and put this on with these." Linda said handing me a red panty girdle, red seamed stage pantyhose and red satin hot pants.

Damn that girdle was a killer but I got it on after a tugfest, next were the seamed stage or dancers tights, which I managed to keep the seam straight getting them on. The satin hot pants weren't too bad as they went up my legs. I did a few stretching exercises and found out I could move. While I was in the bathroom Joyce had done the same while she threatened to kill everyone that designed that costume.

 

"Okay girls off with the boulder holsters." Mom said as she and Gloria attacked me and Linda and Midge attacked Joyce with the Bustiers. I wasn't as bad as I thought as the wrapped the bustier around me, shelving my breasts into the cups.

"Hold onto something, now exhale girls." Mom said as she tightened then pulled at the strings in the back. I felt like I was in a vise being cut in two pieces. My waist narrowed and my breasts were close to coming out of the cups.

"I'll kill the Sonofabitch that designed these costumes for us." Joyce said breathlessly.

"Now, Now there are children present." Linda admonished.

"Aunty Linda, stuff it!" I said.

"Damn she has my attitude. Ladies I wouldn't get Stephanie any more pissed than she is or we will all regret it." Mom said making us all giggle.

We were handed women's silver dancer heels with a t-strap and open toes which Joyce and I had somehow managed to get onto our feet and secure the straps because of that damn bustier. Next was a jacket in red with silver lapels made entirely of satin. The jacket was cut similar to a man's tuxedo coat but cut short in front tapering to a “V” with two very long black lacey tails in the back like a bustle and train. The last items were boas, red, black and silver feathered boas!

"I will kill someone for this! I do swear an oath on this one!" Joyce said.

"How are we supposed to move?" I asked.

"Very, very carefully girls." Midge said.

"Damn now I know what those Vegas girls go-through with their costumes." Joyce said.

"What costumes, some shows leave nothing to the imagination." Linda said.

"Please don't give anyone any more ideas?" I pleaded.

With hair braided, silver jewelry added and night makeup we were finished in the allotted time. Joyce and I looked like two trollops waiting for all the sailors to come off their ships for a night of fun. We were hesitant to say the least to reenter my living room. What was worse is I had to go on camera!

"Is there a back way to that stage?" I asked.

"Why?" Midge asked.

"You of all people ask why with two hundred sex staved teenaged boys in a private school and Joyce and I wearing these walking through the crowds." I said.

"Hey Steph, it might be fun, young yummy boys. Just think, at least we'll lose these Bustiers" Joyce said giggling.

"Yeah and become sore and messy too!" Mom said giggling as she left the bedroom.

Coming back into the room Mom said, "The news crew decided to get the interview outside something about interference and a satellite lock. 

So are you Ladies ready?"

"I guess the Ladies of the Evening are ready, Mom"

"Stephanie Annette! Did that just come out of your mouth that I thought I heard?"

"Leave the kid alone, she's right! We should call ourselves the Happy Hoofers." Joyce said as we all laughed as we went out into the living room. As we entered my Dad's jaw dropped, as did Uncle Horace's with Todd saying, "Holy Shit, You're keeping that costume right Joyce?"

"In your dreams!" Joyce said sarcastically.

"I wish!" He said.

"Hey, you guys got screwed too? Red formals? With tails? Ah…what no top hats, canes and gray gloves?"

"God forbid! Yeah take a look at the socks and shoes."

"Men's patent leather formal evening pumps and red silk socks. Snazzy! You are bringing that home aren't you?"

"Okay wise ass, I deserved it."

"And more later." Joyce said winked sling her boa around Todd's neck and slung her hip out to Todd as we all had a very good laugh.

I went outside very cautiously feeling almost naked in this costume. Silently I hoped that no one mistook my appearance for a hooker. I found the crew but they were surrounded by people that either saw them and were curious or here for the concert, it was then I heard the crowd state to say things like, there she is, damn what a costume and even a few very lewd comments.

The producer came running to me saying, "Wow, that's one hell of a costume. Are you ready to go on camera?"

"I guess so and this is just for a crummy tape."

"That crummy tape is the whole show and our comments and clips. It's actually three tapes." He said.

"That's more than I expected. I guess I'd better be good, smile a lot and answer all the questions. I promise I'll be a good girl."

"That would help and please relax. April doesn't bite, we pulled her fangs this morning." He said as we had a good laugh. We walked over to where the reporter was. The soundman was going crazy as he was putting on my mic. I noticed he had a bit of a tenting problem in his pants.

"My Lord, what did you do to Kevin? Yeah, the soundman."

"Oh the guy with the tent problem, I didn't even touch him."

"I thought he was gay. Honey if you have that effect on men tonight we better have the National Guard ready to protect that sweet tush of yours."

I tried to be as professional as I could as the questions were thrown fast and furious at me. At first I was a little scared than I began to relax as I looked at the interviewer. She had a way of making you relax just as I made men get erections. Oh well, at least the interview went well and I have the tape I wanted with the Symphony and the Academy getting a lot of free publicity. Everyone was waiting for me, when the interview was over I thanked the crew and hurried over to Mom and Dad taking their arms as we walked silently. Yesterday I was scared today I was morbidly petrified. Several times I tried to run away only for them to hold me more arduously. Getting closer to the stage we saw that many people were sitting all over the grass some had even brought picnic basket that were filled with food sharing the contents with the people around them. As if on queue the applause had begun and my fear began to leave me. I became confident, more controlled of the situation.

Before going onto the stage Joyce, Todd and I were given our mics and explained that the mics also had an intercom radio in them that we could speak to the Maestro or the control booth engineers and they could speak to us. This system also gave us freedom to speak over the PA system. All music and dance queues would come over the earpiece and to listen for them. 

The orchestra was seated as we climbed the stairs to the stage. I noticed that the stage lighting was lit casting a shadowy effect on stage. The Maestro smiled at us, which helped to calm me the rest of the way. Joyce and I did the set ups for the first set and programmed them into the consoles as the Maestro spoke to the audience to greet them. A fast sound check was done and we were off like a premature ejaculation again - fast and furious.

We followed the program that we did at the rehearsal. The crowd this night was even larger than the night before and so were the lines to the powder rooms and all the added Port-a-Potties at the intermission. I needed anything to drink and to empty my bladder. If I could, I'd use someone's pocket! Maybe a Euphonium? French Horn? Perhaps the tympani?

Frankie must have read my mind bringing us several containers of cold water but we both had to go urgently. Joyce saw one of the security men; calling him over to the stage she explained what we needed. We had other security people that came and got the both of us to the apartment and back in record time.

Joyce went to her cello and I sat at the grand piano and prepared for the classical set of the program. I took one final look at the charts and was ready at the tap of the Maestro's baton. We did the Mozart and Chopin selections without a hitch. I went to the both keyboards, setting up for the harpsichord pieces. When I finished I nodded to the Maestro that I was ready. We started the set when the keyboard I was on started to smoke, bursting into flames. Without missing a beat I switched over to the other keyboard to the applause of the audience with the Maestro just staring at me shaking his head in disbelief, as the fire was being put out.

Just before we started the Broadway set a replacement system was brought and set up. I did the setups and tested it. Todd came over to me, as I was drinking water saying, "Getting ready to put out another fire?" I silently vowed he would get his and soon. Broadway was even better than at the rehearsal, Todd and I were in perfect synch as we played the organ opening of Phantom of the Opera. Arturo and I blended our voices perfectly. Memories drew tears from the eyes of both men and women in the audience. My voice sounded the best it ever did in the past as I sang which was evident by the standing ovation we received. But when Joyce and I did the Stripper Number, it brought the house down as they say. ~

Finishing the coffee in my mug, I went inside and rinsed out the mug placing it into the dishwasher, starti