A Care Giver Adventure

Owner Operator


by Straycat

 

Preamble:

Casey Maxwell is the Owner Operator of an over the event-horizon Space Train in the 22nd century. Hired on to the CareGivers, and familly to them as well. Casey’s wife is Rebecca St. Charles, formerly NASA Space Shuttle Astronaut turned CareGiver after the PWA. Tracey Chadwich-Robins-Waco, Casey’s daughter and a CareGiver. This is Casey’s Story. It’s a story of Adventure. It’s a story of Love. It’s a story of Familly. It’s a story of War, and most importantly, it’s the story of a man coming to terms with who he really is.

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Chapter 1

No shit, there I was. Sitting in bed wondering just how does one come to grips making a change like this in the middle of my life? Oh the doctors had all kinds of good advice… If you are twenty. I am a little bit beyond twenty years of age. Matter of fact I am on the close order of 72, but don’t tell anybody. Taking Fountain for the last tweny years, daily exercise and a very healthy sex life has keep me going pretty well. It was recently estimated that had I not been violently decompressed a few months ago I would have probibly reached 210 years old or slightly more.

Oh yes, I was almost killed. It has had a bit of a calming effect on me, not so much the nearly dying part, but the loss I would have suffered after having survived such an event.

You see, I am an astronaut. I am an owner operator of a transport ship. Flying in space is my life. Piloting my craft is all I have to look forward to every morning. Well, not realy, but it sounds better that way. I do have familly, and I love them almost as much as I do flying in space. My ship is not the biggest, nor is it the fastest, and it is most definatly not the nicest thing to fly in. It is, however, mine, and that is all it needs to be special, to me anyway.

Since the accident I have undergone more than a few changes, and not just mentally. Do to the extent of my injuries I would have been down checked for my spacers rating. I would have lost my pilots licence. I would have become a liability to any and all around me in space. In short, I would have been grounded, or worse made a simple passenger on my own ship.

I would rather have died than to have that which I love so much taken from me like that.

With everything else going on, the plight of one man, in the grand scheme of things, doesn’t really matter all that much. Now I have to say I am at least as smart as the next person, as long as the next person is a rocket scientist with a 200+ I.Q.

Here is the basic layout of the geo-political lanscape in the solar system right now. You have the Terrans with their Inter Solarsystem Police and United Nations trying to put a strangle hold on everybodies freedom “For the greater good” they always say. And then you have the Independent Spacers Movement, XX Flight, Apollo Freight, CareGivers Company, the Independent Spacers Guild, and a whole host of others trying to make out a living in the most hazardous enviroment imaginable. Just trying to live and Be Free. That’s not a whole lot to ask you might think, till you see what the Terrans have been doing to us for years.

I am not going to say it started with the Protection of Women Act enacted by the United Nations, but that is seen now as the opening shot in the war. A war of independence no less. I am a spacer, so I guess that tells you which side I am on, right?

With the crushing foot of the ISP and the U.N. on the neck of the spacers we had no choice but to fight. A malicous man once said that the trouble with Scottland was there were too many Scotts. And he also said that since they could not drive them out that they would breed them out.

The U.N. had the same idea, only coming from the opposite direction. If we can not breed, we die. Literaly die. Terra can just wait us out and let us die off, or we would have to return to Earth. If we have to do that then we would have to be under Terran control.

So you stick me floating around the solar system in my ship just trying to live and be free, meanwhile titanic forces set the stage for the first interplantary war. Sure, I did business with both sides, and if push came to shove (which it has several times) I take sides. I always side with the spacers, but I still take money from Earth when I have a chance to make some profit.

It was on one such day that I almost died. My memories of the event are a bit fuzzy with the pain and all, so I will pull a page out of my wife’s diary and you can see it from her perspective…

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Dear Diary,  August, 31th, 2125

Casey, my love, has been hurt; almost terminally.

We were on possum for The Fred. Admiral Hastings had us tugging along what was billed as “propulsion parts, miscellaneous” as bait for the ISP. We had IFF squawking a faked code, freash paint job over the reg numbers, and the whole nine meters. In the pipe five-by-five, right on profile for our flight plan. ISP fell for it, just like we wanted.

“Tug Flowers for Algernon, Heave to and prepare to be boarded. This is the ISP Corvette Yankee Omega Four Two Niner.”

“ISP YO429, this is the tug Flowers for Algernon, WILCO. May I ask what we’ve done for you to grace us with your presence?” Casey asked over the squawk box.

“Tug Flowers for Algernon, you are suspected of violating the Protection of Women Act. Heave too and prepare to be boarded. Have all female personnel ready to be transferred to YO429 upon coupling, and transfer your manifest immediately.” Casey grinned over at me from his pilots’ seat on the left.

“This is where the fun begins, babes.” He gave me a wink then keyed up the microphone again. “Rodger ISP YO429. WILCO; transfering manifest now.  We will begin killing forward momentum in 30 seconds.” He clicked the One MC. “Johnson, they took the bait. Get your boys ready.” Then he tossed the microphone up on the dash.

“Are you enjoying this, lover?” I asked and his response was a chuckle and an evil smile. We made ready for guests, unwelcome guests of course. The assault team finished their touch ups, double checking their night vision gear, and then got back into the cabins.

The idea was to lull them into a false sense of security, then spring the trap; taking the boarding crew first, then the ship. We wanted to do it preferably without casualties on either side, but we were taking no chances. The assualt crew had full weapons loadout. Oh, yeah, sure; we had done this a time or two in the past but it would only work so many times before something bad happened. Well, we were hoping for just one more time.

Once we came to a stop they crossed our bow, and maneuvered for docking. The ship completely blocked our view screen forward. It was big; lots of armor, and massive engines.

Casey and I took up post at the end of the entance tunnel, which happens to be convenient to the armory. Casey loaded up the pistol and stored it away in the armory. No sense in spooking the fish.

Bastards used a gravity lasso on us, to “aide” in their docking procedures. Right, like this old heap couldn’t just drag them along with us if we decided to run for it.

“So, babe, wanna bet it is another wet behind the ears gringo?” Casey asked. I chuckled and shrugged; running gag and a long story. Maybe I will tell you some day.

We heard the docking thumps of the clamps engaging, then we listened to the airlock cycle and the door swung open.

“Idiots” I muttered. They left both sets of doors open. That’s a no-no, and a vilotation of our breathing air. If anything happened to their air seals, or if they got hulled, we would be breathing vacuum because of their idiocy. They also came loaded for bear. No less then 6 guys with a mixed combination of shotguns and automatic rifles. At least one guy in the second rank had a teargas launcher. And right out in front of all of them, the Lieutenant. Classic ‘carrot or the stick’ routine, talk to the nice officer, or deal with the not-so-nice guys with weapons. Smart looking chap; he looked like an intelligence officer and the asshole was smiling. His eyes took us in at a glance, also seeing we were parallel to the plain of his gravity generators. Zero-Gee can be so much fun.

Capitaine David Keys of the Flowers for Algernon, I presume?” His voice sounded reasonably intelligent.

“Aye, that’s me;” Piped up Casey. He waved a hand in my general direction “And this is my First Officer, Carlotta Fagina. She happens to be the only female on board at this time, and well beyond the restraints of the PWA, Sir, being beyond childbearing age…” I jabbed him in the ribs for that. “She's lean, she's clean, she's built, she looks thirty-two, and she knows Nixon jokes from the first time that they made the rounds” The Lieutenant continued to smile and stepped on board, taking a handhold to accert a little pressure on his feet.

“One would hope that you might have a fresh brewed cup of coffee on board, while we discuss your crew and cargo, Mon Capitaine.” He got with in a meter of us and halted, still with that smile on his face, his hand on the bulkhead railing, and his goons on his six.

“Of course, Sir, this way.” The Lieutenant made a gesture and the six-man team lowered their weapons, but kept them ready. Casey led the way to the galley, with the Lt and I in tow. Behind us crept the goon squad, still ready for action.

Casey took a seat at the table, and so did the Lieutenant. I got coffee. Don’t ask; some kind of very old and out dated formality. The Lieutenant took his with real milk and sugar, not substatutes like most people these days. Casey took his the normal way, two cubes of Splenda and a non-dairy cube. I had to retreive a milk cube out of the freezer for him, then I looked into getting my own coffee. Black if you must know.

Anyhow, where was I? Ah, yes, coffee.

The glance at my timepiece told me we had about ninety more seconds till the fun would start. The Lieutenant did not start drinking his coffee, instead he began talking.

Capitaine, I do not know what kind of game you’re playing here, but I want it to stop.” Casey should play poker for money with a face he returned to the Lieutenant.

“What games? You ordered us to heave to and be boarded, you’re the law out here, and we complied.” The Lieutenant smiled and lent forward slightly.

“You are not the only history buff in space, Capitaine Maxwell.”

“Who? I’m sorry, I think you are mistaken.”

Flowers for Algernon, written by David Keys in 1958. I have read the book before, and I also ran your reg numbers. This ship is not listed under those numbers, Capitaine Maxwell.” He looked around. “I never thought I would actually catch the infamous Backasswards.” He leveled a gaze directly at me; “And you must be Rebecka St. Charles. Charmed, I’m sure. That other name does not suit you very well at all.” I glanced at the goon squad, they shouldered their weapons. The sound of safety's being taken off chilled my bones.

That’s about the time all hell broke loose. The lights shut off, I ducked behind the counter, and Casey came diving over it about a second later. The stink of cordite and the report of firearms filled the room, along with shouts of anger and pain as the assualt crew burst from the cabins with their night vision gear and firearms taking down the unwelcome guests.

Casey and I held each other close for a long couple of seconds while it passed. When the room lights came back on we took our queue and got up. Peaking over the counter revealed just how bad it was. The Lieutenant was wounded and all his goons were dead. So were a few of our guys. A med tech was putting a slap patch in the Lieutenant so we could keep him for questioning.

Johnson’s second in command was ripped in half with his head was missing most of the back; his nightvision gear hanging loosely from his face. The fighting was headed into the ISP corvette, and from the sounds of it, it was brutal. Casey took off for the bridge and shouted over his shoulder at our guys.

“Get that hatch closed. Someone pokes a hole in my ship and we are all gonna breath vacuum!” He closed the bridge hatch once he was inside. I headed for the lower bridge, just in case, dogging it behind me. I got on the comset and called my lover.

“What’s it look like up there?”

“Nothing on radar, babe, but I’m getting a weird echo. Try it your side.” I dialed up the radar screen on the MFD, multi-function display. There was the echo alright, but Casey wouldn’t have been trained on these things; I was. Again my blood ran cold.

“Dam it! They got a shadow! There is another ship out there hiding in their radar shadow!” Half a second passed.

“Is that what it means. Johnson! Get your men and get back to the ship! We are being ambushed! There’s another ship out there!”

“Negitive Captain, they still have the lasso on you. We gotta shut that down or you ain’t going anywhere. Give us a minute to get that taken care of then get the hell out of here, got it?” I got the start up sequence going, and checked my board. All lights green, we were airtight. I could hear orders being shouted over the com, and gun fire.

“What about your boys?” Casey asked

“We knew the risks when we signed on. Your ship can’t be replaced. Get going, Captain.” Was his reply

“Babe, as soon as they cut us loose I am gonna release the cargo pods and go for the rendezvous point.” We were both working on the numbers for that.

“Copy, lover. Hope Johnson and the boys have the best of luck over there.”

“Johnson can handle things, he is a smart chap. We did our job getting them on board; time to run like good little non-combatants.”

“I heard that Captain.” Came Johnson over the com, “Good, we’re mopping up the engine room crew now. I think the command crew is trashing the bridge, but I have men already rerouting the controls so we should be able to move this cast iron beast once it’s completely in our control.”

Vaya con dios, mi amigo. See you back at Reds. Now cut us loose. There is another ship coming in. Make sure the com is jammed will ya?” Static descended on the channel, all channels as a matter of fact, although the intercom worked.

“Looks like some one beat us to the punch on that one, babe.” The ship shuddered a bit. “That would be Johnson deactivating the gravity lasso. Ok, I’ll get us get outta here.”

Casey tapped the cold gas and backed us up at a couple meters per second. Once we were about a dozen hundred yards he dropped the cargo pods and hit the cold gas to arrest our departure rate. Added a bit of vertical movement, and then heard him gasp.

El dios contuvo a hijo de mierda del asno del las perras!” I looked up from my screens just in time to see the flash from the muzzles. The radar shadow was another corvette, and it was firing on the corvette Johnson and his boys were on. Blowning holes through it was more the word. We must have caught their eye, because some of the smaller weapons started firing on us.

My heart stopped when I felt the chuff. I check environmental, just as I feared, the main bridge had depressurized. About twenty seconds later I felt a thump and slam. The main bridge was building pressure again.

“CASEY!” I screamed into the com. Untill the room was sealed again, he would not have heard me.

“Alive… get us… out of… here.” Came the gasping reply. Training instinct took over, and I overrode the main bridge controls.

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As you can see so far, it was a pretty crummy day. A well-laid trap foiled by a well-laid trap. It is funny how things like that can happen when you are not paying attention. Or rather not paying attention to the things you should have been. They always say that hindsight is 20/20.

During those horrible seconds while I was being broiled alive in pure vacume my mind went into overdrive. It was almost as if time slowed to nothing. I could feel the vacuum that was trying to take my life. I could see that the pressure shields inside the window had not deployed, and training took over.

I screamed. I screamed like my life depended on it. If you try to hold your breath in a blow out, your lungs will explode.

I knew the only way to save my ship and myself was to get those decompression shields closed. The bridge hatch may be good, but protracted vaccum might overcome the seal. Center consol over the window is where the Emergancy deployment trigger is located. I had to undo the harness that was holding me in the pilot’s seat, which had fortunetly kept me from being blasted out of the ship when the window shattered. I stood, pulled the cotter pin preventing accidental discharge, flip the arming switch, waited for the green light and then depress the trigger.

I collapsed into the pilots seat as the charges went off. The bridge started to pressurize again, that’s when I could hear Rebecca yelling for me. I gulped air and replyied. Then the pain decended on me like a blanket. I don’t remember too much for the next few days except pain. I was informed afterwards that I’d had morphine and a saline drip while we were in transit back to our contact… but I guess I should allow Rebecca’s words tell the story as I don’t remember too many details about that time.

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Rebecca’s tale continues:

“Hang on to something.” I call out on the One MC. I rolled us and kicked the throttle a touch to get forward momentum. Backasswards is not a war ship. She has no guns… but that does not mean that she is unarmed. I had four of the biggest and most powerful weapons ever created by man at my fingertips, and they were going to make me proud today.

M.O.P. D-47’s were fusion drives, probably second generation as they were large enough for a ship three times the mass they were attached to. That figure being with a full load of cargo.

I slued the ship around in front of the ISP corvette on cold gas doing what on earth would be called a Boot-leggers turn while rolling like a coke can on a hot Georgia highway. We ended up only a couple meters away from the ship pointing my engines directly at the offending corvette.

“Eat this you mother fuckers!” I yelled and hit the throttle again. Fusion power flared behind us. Corkscrewing like a bottlerocket we took off slicing the corvette like a fish with the power of the fusion engines. I kept it there for an extra 10 seconds longer then I really intended, then I checked our position and angle. Punched the numbers into the computer and corrected for the rendezvous point, and called up the preprogrammed burn. I had to sit through the burn, and that was a long time to wait when your best friend and lover is hurt and you can’t get to them.

You see, the access hatches for both bridges open up into the zero-gee corridor from the air lock. The Duke/Brannick gravity wave generator works only on certain plains, depending on how it’s built. This one was pointed up relative to the decks of each bridge. Since the bridges are 180 degrees out from each other, that makes the floor of one the floor of the other as well. Double redundancy; two bridges. As soon as the engines shut off I was out of the seat and heading for the hatch leading to the other bridge.

I yanked the med kit off the wall as I passed it. Undogged the hatch and pulled myself in. First glance told me that the blast shields were down. No, not the blast shields, the decompression sheilds, which are armor plates inside the windows. I rushed over to Casey and gasped in horror. About every vein in his face had broken, his eyes were completely red from blood, his joins were swollen, and blood was coming out of his nose. Massive pressure trauma, I am sure some quack would call it. I hit him with a morphine ampule from the med kit, he groaned. I checked his pulse, thready and a bit weak.

I looked around and found the control for the gravity ring, hit the override and stopped it. It would be easier to move him in zero-gee, and easier on him too. I also shut off the Duke/Brannick box, lifted him out of his seat as his harness was already unbuckled. I cradled him close as I moved him slowly toward the down ladder. I had to move slowly or the Velcro slippers would come off, or loose. I floated Casey over the hole and wormed my way below him, then gently tugged him after me thru the hatch, into the corridor, then holding him close I maneuvered him into our cabin.

Again I set him floating in the middle of the room as I went to the galley for the emergency kit. This was a lot bigger then the med kit, and had one item that I needed immediately; the Pressure Bag.

The medic and the Lieutenant were both still there in the galley. Both looked a little worse for wear having gone through a boost without the Duke/Brannick box to cushion the gee-force. They were both alive, that is really all that mattered to me at that second; I went back to our cabin.

The Pressure Bag was developed on Earth back in the 20th century for mountain climbers over a certain altitude. I don’t recall the exact medical terminology for the condition, but I know adding pressure helps. And I know when you take the person back out you have to do so very slowly or they will develop the Bends. That is where Nitrogen gas builds up in the joints.

I opened the bag, drew it around him, and sealed it, then cracked open the valve on the oxygen bottle. The bag inflated. I allowed the pressure to raise slowly up to two bars, which is twice ambient pressure at sea level on earth. Two-bar is alittle more than twice internal pressure of the Backasswards.

I had seen this thing in use once on TV when I was a kid. Some climbers up on Mount Everest had a demonstration of it. Personally, this was the second time I’d had to use it on some one. Last time had been back in 2006 on my last space shuttle ride.

I went back to the galley for a bulb of coffee, and to check on the medic. Byron Dyson was his name.

“How is our guest?” I asked as I floated over to the coffee. He lisped heavilly the way queers did back when I was a kid. I thought that most people had out grown that fad.

“He’s not going anywhere. I’d be a lot better with gravity.” Yeah, that lisp was going get on my nerves.

“Captain had a blow out on the bridge. The sheilds engaged too slowly; he has massive barometric trauma. I got him in the bag right now. Gravity would only add to his discomfort.” The priss actually sighed at me.

“Well, I guess that’s for the best then.” he lisped; I frowned at him, then went back to our room and floated where I could see Caseys’ face.

The Endeavor, was one of the last three original Space Shuttles. It was retired way back in July of 2007. I had been EVA with Donaldson when he caught a piece of space junk in the leg and had trouble sealing it. I had the EMU, Extra-vehicular Mobility Unit, and it took me a several seconds to get over to him. I had to do an emergency patch job on his leg to kept the pressure in, then got him into the airlock as fast as I could.

Yeah, orbit was still loaded with junk way back then.

Donaldson was not hurt as bad as Casey was; after all, and Donaldson was in a suit designed for redundancy; It had sealed his leg off when the pressure dropped, minimizing the damage.

Donaldson still lost the leg, however; but that was after we got back to Kennedy Space Center. The return trip was shall we say… Interesting. As in the old Chinese curse “May you live in interesting times.”

Computers have come a long way in the last 100 years or so. I would almost actually trust my life to one now a days, and that is saying a lot about my trust in computers. Just before we hit reentry interface All of the computers went down. The old shuttles had four back up systems, the most reliable of them were the pilots.

The Endeavor started to tumble while I was riding left seat. I’m suprised the old bird didn’t disintergrate on us. It got awfully warm before I got her straitened out. That’s the short version. The long version would take up more pages than I care to dedicate to the Endeavor. Besides, it is all on file in my offical report with NASA.

Ya know. I never tried crying in zero-gee before. I do not recommend it. The tears have no place to stream to.

Casey came around the next morning, only feeling marginally better. Personally I think he was humoring me. I administered another dose of morphine thru the bag, and got him some broth and passed it thru the airlock built into the bag. Byron told me he checked in on Casey while I was sleeping. I guess I was so tired that I didn’t hear him. I am normally a light sleeper. From that morning on we took turns keeping an eye on the wounded, not that either Byron or I could have done anything if either had gotten worse.

It was a long flight back to the rendezvous point. Not long as in time, But long in worry. Byron was a competent medic, but he was no doctor. The Lieutenant I found out was named Jacques Auteuil. I also got his service number, but I don’t need to write that here. The Fred will want it however, and he will get it. The Lieutenant would not say anything else.

Jack, as I had taken to calling him, had caught a bullet in the shoulder and the leg. So sad for him. Bryon cleaned him up, removed the lead, and stuck a plug in him; then hand cuffed his ass to a pipe away from anything he could fuck with. We let him off his leash only long enough to use the head.

That is the bathroom. Old navy custom. Back in the days of wind powered sailing ship the crapper was off the bow, because the wind was coming from the stern of the ship.

What can a gal say, I was Blue Water Navy before NASA, and old habits die-hard. I was a pilot of course. I drove me an F-14 Tomcat back before they retired them all for that F-22 Raptor.

Damn it girl, you are showing your age talking about those things.

Anyway, I put a post it note on the main bridge “Out Of Service”, and flew from the lower bridge. There is really not much of a difference, except tradition, and the fact the lower bridge still had all of its windows; the upper bridge lost one, and they were all blocked off now.

Bryon was neither a tech nor a mechanic. I wandered into the shop, back of the grav-ring. Found a couple spare windows. I found the right one and the bolts to replace the window, and the tool kit. Suited up and made an EVA, or Space walk as some call it, solo. Not something I like doing, but I followed all the safety rules, and kept radio contact with Byron inside, not that that he could have done anything if the shit hit the fan while I was outside, but that is SOP. Standard Operating Procedures.

It took longer than I would have liked, but we were far enough from Sol so I did not catch too many rads. I had mostly depressurized the main bridge before working on the window. I did not want a pressure leak blasting me off into space. When I was done I had Byron repressurize the bridge; talking him through it while I watched for leaks. It held. Once I was sure it would hold I came back inside and unsuited, then climbed up into the main bridge and looked thru the manual to figure out how to release the armor plating that had saved Casey’s life. It was not easy, that took another couple hours. Byron checked up on both Casey and the Lieutenant while I kept busy, and took over bridge duty while I slept near Casey.

According to the manual, the shields should have fired immediately upon loss of pressure; they did not. With all the modifications to the ship over the last 30 years, it had never been hooked back up to fire remotely by the new computer control system. I found the manual-override. The pin had been pulled, arming switch thrown, and firing button pushed.

Casey had managed that while being boiled alive by the lack of pressure. That’s my man for you. Even when he was dying he was saving his ship. There really was no reason to open the shields till the charges had been replaced, so I left them closed and shut the outter armor sheilds as well. Then went to the other bridge and flew from there.

You don’t really need to see outside in space, but it helps. I prefer being able to see outside. Knowing and seeing your environment keeps you from getting claustrophobic. That is not something I suffer from, but I like looking at the stars.

We made the rendezvous in about a week. Casey did not improve much, and our guest was given very good reason to behave. If Casey died I was going to space him. Or at least that is what I had told him.

Fortunately the rendezvous ship had a full medical bay. CGC outfits their ships very well. I radioed ahead.

Charles Sheffield, this is the Backasswards on encripted 37 alpha. Over.”

Backasswards, this is the Charles Sheffield, we copy on channel 37 alpha encrypted. Say status.” A crisp British accent replied.

Sheffield, Backasswards, Pilot Code one. Medic code one. Visitor code two. Captain code three. Boarding party MIA presumed 10-7. Confirm.”

“Confirmed. Two souls code one, one soul code two, one soul code three. Boarding party Missing and presumed dead. What happened out there Backasswards?”

“The rats laid a trap for us, more in person Sheffield.”

“Copy that Backasswards. Dock port 2-4-left. Medical team standing by.”

Sheffield, I have a request. My Captain is badly beat up. Took at least 20 seconds of pure vacuum. I have him in a pressure bag. Can you give him zero-gee till we get him in the med-bay?”

“I’ll get it approved by the OOD, and inform the Captain. We’ll take good care of him Backasswards.”

“Rodger that. And you better or I’ll kick your scrawny butt, ya hear?” he chuckled.

“Right oh. I will endeavor to keep that in mind.”

I plugged the Backasswards into port 2-4-left, cycled the lock and sure enough the medical team was waiting there in zero-gee. I led them into my cabin where Casey was still floating. Byron had him on a saline drip, hooked up inside the pressure bag. How I’m not sure. I would have to remember to ask him about that later.

The medical team worked Casey out the hatch and out the ship. They dragged him into the med-bay where they worked the depressurization routine, and I had to report.

Oh, the joys of command. Zero-gee, I found, was only in the route to and from the Backasswards to the med-bay, and gravity had been turned back on after we had passed. Ain’t science wonderful? A full guard had taken our guest to the brig, and took Byron to another debriefing room, which is also where I was headed.

I walked into debriefing to see a David Niven rip off if I’d ever seen one. Right down to the pencil mustache. He smiled when I entered and stood.

“Ah, Mrs. Saint Charles. Please have a seat.” He spoke with the same crisp British accent I had spoken with over the radio. His nametag said ‘Commander Richard Rayner’. I frowned.

“Commander Rayner, about that ass-kicking comment…” he waved it off, and I took a seat.

“I understand, Mrs. Saint Charles. Nothing to worry yourself over.” He took a seat himself on the other side of his table, where lots of paperwork was laid out, and a writing tablet. “First thing I would like is a report; we will worry about the status of my arse later.” He smiled again. “Would you care for a coffee or tea? Maybe a fag?” I stared at him. “Cigarette, Mrs. Saint Charles.”

“Sure, and a coffee. Black and strong enough to pour it’s self.” He waved to an orderly over in the corner.

“Then if you would, in your own words, describe the events as you witnessed them.” He picked up his stylist.

I spent the next three hours going over the events of the last few weeks. The intercept, the trap, and the counter-trap. Radar shadow and why we didn’t see it before.

“The Backasswards has a military grade radar set, salvaged and not on file. If we had used it sooner, it would have tipped the ISP off that we knew of the counter trap.” He nodded and constantly made notes. Cross referencing questions, going back and forth covering all the angles.

When he finally stopped writing he took a deep breath and looked up.

“Everything seems in order here, all things considered.” He set his stylist down. “I do believe that you have a wounded man in the med-bay. Why don’t you go see him, and if I have any more questions I will contact you. I must send this information back to Command.”

“Sounds like we have a mole in our midst.” He shook his head.

“Possible, but more than likely the ISP is finally beging to learn from their mistakes. They sacrificed a corvette, by the sounds of it, and her crew in order to catch us ‘pirates’ it would seem. To catch you and your ship, more specifically.” I nooded and took my leave.

Chapter 2

Rebecca’s tale continued:

I found myself back in the med-bay. Full gravity was back on by now. Casey was finally out of the bag, and on the table. I had to wait outside in the observation lounge. There was a doctor handy. She was five foot nothing, raven haired, green-eyed oriental beauty. She was also a CareGiver, which helped a bit.

“Ah, Mrs. Maxwell.” I shook my head.

“No, it’s Mrs. St. Charles. That is my husband, but I kept my name.”

“I am sorry, I ment no offence.” She gave a short bow.

“None taken.” I returned the bow, then we both turned to look in the window to what little we could see of the operation.

“He is a tough old bird, I will give him that.” She said and I nodded. “I am going to be direct about this, Mrs. St. Charles. Initial diagnosis is not good. He will live, but I doubt he will be fit for much. He will never again hold a spacers rating. He will no longer be able to pilot, let alone command a ship again.” I looked her dead in the eyes. After a second she lowered her eyes. “I am sorry.”

Tears welled up in my eyes, and Casey’s image floated through my mind. All the times I had seen him at the command consol, in the pilots’ chair. His smirk and chuckle ringing in my ears. The Doc had not moved, and while there was a tear in the corner of her eye, she seemed to have something on her mind.

“I didn’t catch your name, Doctor.”

“Doctor Timberlane, but please call me Wendy.”

“Well, Wendy. You have the look of some one with Plan B in mind. Care to spill it before I get to sentimental about all this?”

“Plan B, as you call it, is the same plan I underwent when I joined CareGivers.” I looked her up and down, then in the eye. “My name used to be William.” I nodded.

I thought about that for a second “Wendy is a better name for you.” We turned back towards the window. “I took the same stuff when I singed up. I’m a natural, but it helped my reflexes and boosted my mind a bit. Not too much, but enough that I still notice these twenty years later.” She nodded.

“I know. I remember reading about you during my time in training. The way you saved Donaldson-san during the Endeavor incident.” After a moment I lifted my chin towards Casey and asked:

“Does he know yet?” she shook her head.

“We are not positive yet. Once we are, then he will have to be told.” She looked at me again. “One would presume that you would wish to tell him your self.” I nodded.

“Yes. Crotchety ol’ fart he might be, but he’s mine.” I shook out my red tangles a bit and started pacing around. Wendy took a walk and ended up in the operating room a few minutes later in full scrubs. I could only really tell it was her from her green oriental eyes and coal black hair.

I made dinner for one later that night on board the Backasswards. I sat in the G-ring, which was spinning again. I started it up when I came back on board. We were deep in space, and I was docked to a ship I knew to be friendly, so I’d left the airlock unlocked. I guess I should have expected guests. Some how I couldn’t even think about it, but Byron let himself in, got a cup of coffee and sat opposite me at the table I was using, while I poked ineffectually at my food. He didn’t say anything at first, looked like he was trying to work up the nerve to speak. Started a couple times, but remained silent.

“I’m not an old maid, Byron. You helped my husband. He’s alive because of your actions. For that I can’t thank you enough. So, if you have something to say, please do.” He smiled sheepishly, took a sip of his coffee, and then set the cup down.

“He saved my life once, many years ago.” I was almost shocked. He wasn’t lisping. “That’s why I volunteered for this mission.” He paused again, and took another sip of coffee.

“Several years ago I was riding out to the Wango-Tango with my lover, Villhelm Dyson, he was an assistant engineer at that time. We were on this puddle jumper of a ship called the Merlin’s Prank.” He lowered his eyes for a bit before continuing. “It wasn’t much of a ship. After it got hulled by a piece of space junk it was even less. The Captain and his engineer had taken turns with us to… ‘Pay’ for the ride as they put it. I didn’t mind so much, but I prefer to be willing for that sort of thing.” He sniffed.

“Villhelm and I were on the bridge so the Captain and his engineer could be alone for a while. Villhelm was standing watch and had dogged the hatch, as per regulations, so I was told. I wasn’t much of a spacer at that point in my life. Matter of fact I wasn’t much of anything. I was just keeping my Villhelm company.” He looked around the galley.

“Captain Maxwell was nearest when Villhelm sent out the distress call. Captain Maxwell sent Jorge Waco in the Briar Patch to come get us.” He took a sip again. “We ended up spending a little more than a week on this ship.” He smiled. ”I can still remember chatting with Tracey. She was such a nice girl. She told me about the CareGivers. About the DeCorvin process a bit and what it really meant to be a CareGiver.”

He drank a bit more coffee, and I found that I didn’t have anymore food to poke at… I must have eaten it while he was talking. Truth be told I had not noticed. So I went and got some coffee, and got Byron a refill.

“Thanks.” He smiled. “I tried applying for the CareGivers when I finally got back to Mars. I failed horridly. No skills to speak of.” He sighed “That’s when I decided to change my life. I started taking medical studies. I’m not much of a hostess, but I could learn something.” He laughed a bit and then drank some more coffee. “It took me four years to pass the basic stuff. I wouldn’t let my Villhelm help me. He’s smart. Full engineer now, and still as lovable as ever.” He smiled. He really had a nice smile.

“When I finally made Medic rating I made sure to get posting where Villhelm was. He’s the Chief Engineer on the Charles Sheffield now. When Sheffield was slotted as the rendezvous ship I learned the Backasswards was involved, I felt it was necessary to repay Captain Maxwell for his hospitality, and for saving my life.” He looked up into my eyes. We shared a sad smile.

“Well, kid. I guess you managed to make it even, then. He saved your bacon, you saved his.” He nodded, then took another sip of coffee. Then as if remembering something he took his wallet out, and removed a picture. He lingered over it a moment, then passed it on to me. The picture was of two strapping young men, one of them was Byron, and a lovely black girl. All three were holding hands, and holding them out showing the rings of marriage in their fingers that must have been taken on their wedding day. All three of them were smiling like it was the happiest day of their lives. And I guess it was. I know mine was.

Oh, mine and Casey’s marriage was nothing special as far as ceremony is concerned. The Captain of the ship married us. Ok, Casey was the Captain. But it was still the happiest day of my life when I finally tricked that ol’ codger into marring me.

“Her name is Delilah, and no, she’s not a Philistine.” Byron told me, and we chuckled.

It ended up being a couple more days for them to complete examinations on Casey. Fixing what they could, mending as best they could what they could not. They were not rushing anything. He was past the critical hour, as they say.

I found out that they had raised the pressure in the operating room, which is how they got Casey outta the bag so fast. Meant the Doc’s would have to depressurize slowly, but it saved Casey’s eyes, so no complaints there.

When everybody was back in normal pressure, and I was given the ok, I went in to see him.

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When Bek cam in to see me I was still a bit sore. Ok, a lot sore. But I was alive, and that was all that mattered at the moment. That moment was about to pass. She waltzed in and smiled down at me. She always had the most gracefull way of walking.

“How you feeling today, lover?” I rolled my eyes at her.

“Like I’ve been coger en el asno por una mula the size of a world war two aircraft carrier. How do you think I feel?”

“Grouchy would be my guess.” She leaned over and kissed my forehead. “They give you the good news?”

“Nope. Just the bad news.”

“Which is?” She took a seat on the stool next to his hospital bed.

“That I’ll have to live through this…” She looked down at her hands in her lap.

“Lover, I’ve known you took long to even try to sugar coat this, so I am just going to say it. I think you would rather have it that way.” She looked up as I arched an eyebrow.

“Ok. I gathered there was something being left unsaid around here. Say it then.”

“They saved your life, and your eyes. But you will be crippled the rest of your life from your injuries. If they had been right there when it happened, they mighta coulda done something. With all the time that pasted getting you back here… most of the damage was already done.” She took a deep breath. “You won’t be spacer qualified anymore.”

I swallowed. She could tell I was taking this hard. The thought of loosing my home, my ship, my way of life. All because of Terra’s need to control everybody. I was about to get angry at the loss.

“Options?” I asked tightly.

“Limited.” I nodded. “Either accept it, and we live out our lives with it. Or…”

“Spit it out, Bek.”

“Care Givers. DeCorvin Process.” My eyes opened a bit wider. “Wendy says it’d heal most of your injuries, but the major side effect would be that you would be changed into a genetic female.” I stared at the ceiling a while, weighing my options, considering the possibilities. There were not many to consider.

“I’d get my qualifications back?”

“More than likely.” I thought a bit more.

“Meloney would get two Grandmothers. She might like that.” She playfully slapped my arm, I winched in pain anyway.

“Don’t even try to take the high road on this, Casey Maxwell, my husband. You and I both know it’s about the ship, and your need to fly her.” I gave her my best sheepish grin.

“How’d you ever talk me in to marrying you?”

“Easy. I got you drunk, then gave you the best sex of your life.”

“Ah, is that it?” It was an old joke of ours. We both chuckled, but I held my ribs in pain for a bit.

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That is how I almost died, but it seems I’m starting the story in the middle. I never was much of a storyteller. Meloney is my grand daughter. Her mother is Tracey my only daughter… at least, that I know of anyway. I was not married to Tracey’s mother, Penny, but in many ways I am glad that I did not.

You see, if I had wed Penny Wise and made her Mrs. Casey Maxwell, I never would have gone back into space. I never would have won the Backasswards in a card game and never would have truly LIVED. I have never been so alive as I have been in space. If you’ve never been there, you will never understand.

Being a Spacer is the best ‘Get-rich-quick’ scheme there is. If you live, you make the money. It’s that simple. The more in demand your particular field is, the more money than that you make. Being an Owner Operator is just a bit different. You cannot Just pocket all that money. You have to reinvest it into the ship. You have to pay your crew, the broker, port fees, benefits, taxes, tariffs, and licencing fees. It is Very easy to dump all of your money back into the ship and forget to buy food. Well, that is a mistake you only make once. Then again, almost any mistake you make in space you will only ever make once. Mainly because 99.999% of all mistakes end up being fatal, and the other 0.001% don’t matter enough to worry about.

But how far back should I start my story? Childhood? Hell, I don’t remember enough of it to make even a few pages worth of very disjointed text. All I remember really is it was not worth remembering at the time, and now it’s been too long ago for me to really remember much of anything.

School? Well, maybe as a side note. I decided I wanted to go into space almost from the get go and talored everything in my life to get there. Here, you do the math: I am somewhere close to 72 years of age. I have been in space 45 years. I have owned the Backasswards for 30 of those years. That means I spent the first 27 years of my life on earth, at at the very least I that means I spent 16 some odd years actively trying to get into space.

I do not, in any way what so ever, regret a single second of all that time.

I once met a Tibetan monk who spent 15 years contemplating the breeze. He told me about it over a fifth of gin in a disreputible bar once. He was on a bender. He did not regret the time he spent there, he just appreceated the time drinking more. Kind of puts it into perspective, doesn’t it?

I guess the best way I could start my life story would be to pull a couple pages out of my own diary from when I met Tracey, and how we figured out how we were related.

It will also help me figure out where I am in my life right now, and what I am going to be doing from now on.

As I am sure you are going to discover that I do not take change very well, and my most recent change is as drastic as anything I have ever done in my entire life.

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Dear Diary,                                                                                            March, 31th, 2104

Kids these days, no respect for their elders. I’ve been a Spacer ever since I first shipped out on the Teenage Wasteland 15 years ago. Sure, I’ve had those days. More than I can count. But I’m not complaining none. Who’d listen? I did good on my hitch, saved my pesos, invested wisely, and got lucky in a card game or two. That’s how I got the Backasswards about 10 years ago, doubled down on a royal flush when facing off against a dead-mans hand. Neither of us drew down like in the spaghetti-westerns of the 1960’s and 1970’s. Naw, RubberDuck was a good ol’ bird, only shed one tear when I offered him a job till he could afford to head off again. He was a good first mate the two times I launched with him. His heart gave out halfway back on the triangle run. Buried him at sea as per his wishes… I never even knew his real name, but that ten reams of paperwork I had to do to register his decaying orbit into the sun will always remind me of him. That was almost depressing; I kinda thought he’d have just kept going into the great unknown forever. The Corpsicle Explorer. Yeah, I welded him into an old footlocker and scribed that onto the door along with those immortal words “To boldly go where no one has gone before” and “Rest in peace, My Captain.”

Anyway, I was telling you about kids. Never found a girl to settle down with and make a few of my own. Too busy, and now I’m too old. Never bothered with chemicals. Figured when my time came I’d check out like Ol’ RubberDuck did. As far as familly is concerned, men out number women like 4 to one on Terra now, and it’s worse than that in space, like 7-2 was the last numbers I saw. Sure, sure, you get a few Surgicals like the DSC once in a while. Aggressive lays, not the hardest things on the eyes, but dammed close. You spend two years in space working 18 out of 24 hours every single day and you’d stick it in the first thing that opened it’s thighs too. Had more than a couple natural gals too, Few pretty nice. Oh, and I’ll never forget my first and only cherry. Penny Wise. God, what a girl. Her father, Miguel, was an asno. But Brazilians normally are to Uruguayans. He threatened to cut my bolas off, and I threatened to drop a rock on his happy ass. Punta.

Well, those were the good ol’ days and now things are rough. Being an Owner Operator ain’t as easy as I thought, nor is the pay as good anymore. Apollo Freight, and a handful of others are running me out of business. They can move stuff cheaper than I can buy parts anymore, thanks to Space Train Systems discontinuing the 2050-b model a couple years back that is. RubberDuck had upgraded the engines back when you could still afford that kind of thing. The nav systems, life support, and pretty much everything else were original. Being just shy of the start of the 22nd century c.e., that put it all about 50 years out of date. It worked… Mostly. The engines were Grumman Ironworks M.O.P. D-47’s, all four of them. Damn, I couldn’t count the number of ships that had used the D-47’s at one time in the past. Things change, or rather engineers change things.

Anyway, where was I? Ah, yeah… Kids. I was dirtside looking for a new hand or two to make the triangle run with me. Had one already, he was out getting his martillo wet or whatever. Could always use another hand or two. I was coming out of a bar to head back to the space lift and start looking for some new crewmembers, when this kid runs into me, literally that is. He apologizes, which is unusual enough, then he noticed my tour patches from the Teenage Wasteland and gets all wide eyed on me, asks me if I’m a Spacer.

I told him yeah, I’m an Owner Operator. He begs me to hire him, he’s always wanted to go into space and he’d make it worth my while… like I said, kids these days. I’m not gonna ship out with a wet behind the ears brat just cause he’s gonna offer his milk money. For me to take him up, show him the ropes, teach him a millions of peso’s worth of skills, then have him ditch me dirtside and run get a better job. Ain’t gonna happen. He did have an air about him though… looked rather familiar for some reason that I couldn’t put my finger on. Eh, not important.

I polled the staffing agencies during the cab trip back to Launch Control South America (basically NASA Southern Command, but they hate it when you call them that) outta Port Shepard, and found a guy that looked qualified to do the job and was going for cheap. Cheap is good, qualified is better. He was both according to the listing. I placed a bid on it and waited for the call to connect. He answered and we talked.

Small talk, yes it was his listing, yes he was still available, sure he could ship out on short notice. He’d meet me at the pad for the orbit trip back to my ship.

Now, I don’t exactly travel heavy, but I’m known to pack a bag or two for a trip to Mars wandering around New Atlanta, or dirtside Terra for a week or two of visiting the houses of ill repute and some of the better know bars too. The point is the guy showed up with the clothing on his back, and a daypack with one change of clothes. I should have told him to bugger off right then and there, I didn’t because of the call I got right before he showed. Carlos, who was my right hand on the last flight I’d made, called me. He got a kid on the way and a manufacturing job at her daddy’s biz. Talk about a set up. I guess those arranged marriages are handy for something. So I took this guy. His paperwork spec’d out. No general alarms in my head. I needed the help. Oh, I coulda run the ship solo, that’s not the question. But being alone in space is one sure way to breathe vacuum. Not something you ever wanna do. Not since Gordo Cooper or Space Ship One had any one gone into space alone willingly, for very good reasons.

Getting the launch going was a cakewalk. It had already been programmed by Carlos. A parting gift I guess. He could do that math in his head, he was that good. Then again, he was gone, and the punk was running the right seat. He seemed to know what he was doing. He had a few questions because the layout was different then he was used to, which is not so unusual considering the age of my bird. This was a contract load for New Atlanta. Emergency food packs. Nothing hot, or expensive unfortunately. Cause if it had been I might have been able to get a few more things fixed and or upgraded.

Percentage of the load, half up front, other half on delivery, plus broker fees and taxes etc, etc, etc. Standard fare really. But things were breaking faster then I could afford to fix them. We launched. Like getting kicked in the asno by a mule. Half way to Mars I finally got the idea this jerk had lied to me. He couldn’t read a radar screen, couldn’t fix a zero-gee john, didn’t know the first thing about astro-navagation or propulsion systems. He almost breathed vacuum because he’d never worn an EVA suit before and if I hadn’t checked him I’d been down a suit and a hand.

When I finally cornered him he confessed. He’d never had any formal training in anything. Read a bunch online and had a vague idea on actual workings. Three months in space and I find out I’d been babysitting an invalid. I stranded his anso on Mars and let some one else worry about him. No coin, no nothing. I figure the on the job training he got made up for the mistakes he made that I had to correct. I got better things to do than baby-sit some pounder while my ship and my anso is on the line.

I pulled a load heading to the belts solo. Like I said before, NOT something you really wanna do solo. Dropped and pulled an ingot load back to Terra for some peso’s and hope to find a hand that has a clue. Things broke, they always do on this ship. Nothing life threatening, fortunately. But the four days I had to have the G-ring stopped and working on the plumbing was something I could only hope to forget. I hate sleeping in zero-G on my own ship unless I’m strapped into the command consol, which I’ve also done before.

I pulled into Terra Shipping Authority and dropped off my load after a year alone in space. Stir crazy comes to mind, but I didn’t have all that much time to sit idly with nothing to do. I took an orbiter down to dirtside for a little R&R&R. Rest, Recuperation, and Repairs. I also made sure I hit up NASA, ESA, and ARTA for a new hand to help on the Backasswards. Unfortunately they had upped their rates in the last two years and I couldn’t afford them on the last paycheck I’d gotten. That on top of more repairs, and maybe I could afford at least one upgrade.

I got the bird ready to fly and made another solo Mars run. Again nothing expensive as Apollo was winning all the bids they covered… lucky bastardos. Must be nice. I know Apollo started off as a small time O/O just like me, but he got of couple lucky contracts early on and grew from there. Hell, I even passed the Atlas once or twice in the last couple of years, that was Apollo Frieght’s first ship. I know The Fred of Apollo Frieght doesn’t take anything out of service. And he can afford to keep them up… a couple more years and I won’t have a choice but to sign on with one of them guys. Maybe, but orgullo won’t let me till I’ve given my all and my bird’s falling apart… of course I know it’d be too late then… but hey.

I hit dirtside again to do my business while I waited for freight. Found out that Grumman Ironworks had not only discontinued the D-47 line, but were offering the last update for them as a parting gift. Well, not gift, and not cheap either. But it was needed. About a 1% boost in efficiency and about 2.5% decrease in maintenance. But the labor to install it was too expensive for me to bother paying some one else to do. I have almost as much time on them engines as any of the company reps do. I also looked into a nav board update, and a general parts order.

Not surprising things are getting hard to find, and more and more stuff is coming from “Bob’s Discount World of Spacer Junk” also known as salvage yards. Salvaged from what? Give you three guesses and the first two don’t count. Wrecked, broken, or hulled ships.

Ok, now here is where things start to get interesting. You know as well as I do that NASA, ESA, and ARTA don’t go cheap, and getting more expensive as times go on. That’s when I decided to call CareGivers. Oh, sure, I’d heard of them before. All women spacer staffing agency. Hot pink flight suits. Total Babes. Makes my martillo hard just thinking about them. But I had not considered calling them for a hand to help on the ship till now. And amigo my wallet was dreading that call.

I got a hold of Miss Sandra Chandris, CareGivers Corp Recruiting South America, first try. I explained very carefully that I was not looking to join, but looking to hire a spacer as long as they were fully qualified and not too horribly expensive. She told me that she’d have a look and call me back. Amigo, when a hot babe like that tells you she’s gonna call back, you take her word for it and thank her!

Two days I waited, not idly mind you. I got a ship to prep and cargo to find. But as always all the good stuff was taken even when I tried to under bid. Dedicated accounts must be nice. That’s when I got the call back from Sister Tracey Chadwick-Robins of CareGivers Corporation.

Hola” I answered

Hola, is this Casey Maxwell?” her voice all but purred and her picture matched the voice. And that picture took my breath away. I gasped

“Something wrong senor?” she asked

“No, no. Nothing’s wrong. You just remind me of some one I knew many years ago, senora.”

She smiled “Yes, I have heard that a time or two. I am told that I favor my grandmother on my mothers side quite a lot.”

I was almost breathless. Women, as I believe that I have pointed out, are few and far between these days thanks to the wonders of modern science. Making studs of most men and causing a surge in male offspring because nearly every swinging martillo wanted to have a son to carry on the family business.

“I hope that now is a good time to call, I can try back later if that would be more convenient for you, senor…”

“No, no, now is just fine. I take it your calling about the job, si?” I said trying to get the right head running again

She smiled that award winning smile again “Si, senor. I hope it is still available.”

“Yes, of course it is!” I’d have held that job open for years for her just this moment if she asked… but it looked like I wouldn’t have to wait that long.

“Good. I take it that you are still on the planet, correct? Would you like to meet someplace to discuss my qualifications?”

“Yes I am. Are you here in Montevideo?” I asked. I didn’t want her to have to travel too far on my account.

Si, senor. Is there a place you would like to meet?”

I thought about this… I figured I could probably use a drink about now anyway “Have you ever heard of the bar called ‘Senoritas Y Toros’?” Oh, and it wouldn’t hurt to offer this lovely young lady a drink either.

She smiled again “Si, I can be there in about 45 minutes if you would like.” I’d be there in about 30 myself anyway, so that works.

           “That would be fine. I’ll be the grizzled ol’ space dog hiding in the back corner as long as I can shovel my booth open again.”

She actually laughed at that “Ok, I will see you then, adiós.”

Adiós.” And I signed off. And this thought crossed my mind… I Need A Shower, bad.

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That phone call was twenty-two years ago. It is funny how perspective changes over that period of time. I recall things now that I completely overlooked at the time. One of the things that I had overlooked was the genetic signature line across the bottom of the screen. It was not on the screen for long, and I was distracted by the young lady that was on the other side of the screen to notice it at the time, but now I recall it almost prefectly.

Of course it helps that her and I talk on a semi-regular basis and I can tell when she calls by that signature line. One would expect a parent to know their child’s G.I.D. line over the vid-phone.

In any case, that signature line so closely resembles my own that I should not have been surprised to discover we were a little bit later on that we were related.

But I will get to that in another diary entry. For now I will continue where I had left off.

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I hurried back to the deluxe coffin hotel that I was staying in, hit the rain locker and dragged out a clean flight suit along with my leather jacket, (real leather, a gift from my last hitch on T.W.), with all the patches on it. What’s a leather jacket without patches? And boots. Dirtside I always wear boots. In space I could get away with Velcro slippers, but dirtside you’d pick up a whole hell of a lot more crap then you’d ever want, so boots it was.

I got to the bar in about 35 minutes, I take quick showers, and my coffin is not that far away anyway, walking distance. And sure enough my table was taken. I saddled up to the table and leaned over to the three gringo’s there.

“Excuse me, but I believe you’re at my table…” I said rather more politely than I felt. The ugly one looked up at me sneering

”Piss off punta, Dis be our table now!”

I leaned forward putting my hands flat on the table, which also allowed my jacket to hang open revealing the snub nosed revolver I always kept there, and never let the cops know about.

“I’m sorry, I don’t think you heard me. I asked you to leave. Nicely.” I was Really trying to hold my tempter, a fist fight right before meeting a lovely young lady was NOT the best way to hire a spacer.

Gringo number two and gringo three saw the gun, and decided that cowardice was the better part of staying alive. Gringo number one needed a bit of convincing yet.

Jefe, we can go, there are other tables, mano.” Number two said

“Yeah, Jefe, another table. Right. We were just leaving…” number three piped up.

“I ain’ts leaving for this washed up Punta. He wants ‘is table he can fight me for it!” Jefe was obviously not noted for his brains, and blowing them out would have been hard as they were a very small target.

           Time check, 6 minutes to go. I needed to end this with out a fight. Or cops. I pulled the pistol out and stuck it up under his chin, Smiled, and said “Please.”

He swallowed. “Well… Since you asked soo nicely…” he smiled weakly ”How about a drink? He he he…”

I smiled again, “Sure, I’ll buy you a drink to move. Now.”

They moved while I re-holstered the six-gun. I took a seat facing the door and flagged the barman. He sent a waiter over. I ordered my usual and hoped I’d not get pined before she showed up… you know how women like to be late for no dammed reason except they can.

She wasn’t. Actually she walked in just as my drink made it to the table. I’m glad I hadn’t been drinking it or I’d have spit it out. It was like being visited by a dream. I knew her. But that couldn’t have been, that was twenty-two years ago. Every curve, every hair. You never forget a virgin it’s said. And right now I was seeing her again, walking towards me. I took a drink, I needed it now. Finished it and waved for another. She even walked the same, same swing, same pace. Life was in slow motion, and I was drinking her in. I couldn’t talk. I just… Wow.

And it’s not like she had that much work to find me. The way the place was laid out there really only was one corner with a table in it, which was part of the reason I choose it. Easy to find. There was a bar in two corners, and a stage in the other.

As she closed on my table my brain tried to reassert itself again. Noting differences that were not obvious from afar in bad lighting. Her eyes were the wrong color for one. They were brown like most South Americans, not blue like Penny’s. Her hair was strait, shoulders a bit broader, and the mouth a bit different too. I stood as she got about 5 steps from the table, and as if I’d admit it I was smiling despite myself… And that’s when I also noted Jefe coming up behind her with a rather unfriendly smile on his face.

She must have noted my frown cause she slowed her pace a step before his hand landed on her shoulder. That, mano, is just something you do NOT do to a woman, or a Spacer. And you absolutely do not do it to a Spacer woman. Walking him out an airlock would be the best course… but as we were on Terra, there weren’t too many airlocks handy.

“Hey there little senora. Ignore this punta and come play with me. He owes me drinks for sparing his life…” was about all he could get out before she moved. Took a step forward, and spun in place bringing her right foot up to connect to his jaw. He staggered back holding his jaw and staring his bloodshot eyes back at her. He spit blood and a few teeth and cursed.

Perra! You’s gonna pay fer dat!” and he lunged, I tried to move around the table, but she moved faster. Dropped kicked any chance of him having offspring right outta orbit, every man in the joint cringed in sympathetic pain. She double fist punched him to the solar plexus, twisted his arm almost outta it’s socket, put it over her shoulder and threw him farther than I could have on a good day. He landed with muffled harrumph heels over head, and slowly fell over.

She dusted her hands off, moved a stray lock of hair out of her eyes, and turned to face me smiling again.

“Nice place you chose. Usual hang out I take it?” there was laughter and applause from the rest of the bar. I tried to stop gaping at her and managed to close my mouth again. She extended her hand to me and introduced herself.

“Sister Tracey Chadwick-Robins. You must be…”

“Casey Maxwell.” I took her hand and shook it twice. From some where in the bar I could just hear a question inquiring if nuns took ninja training like the Shao-Lin Monks did, and the rejoinder that ninja are Japanese, and the Shao-Lin are Chinese not Catholic.

She laughed, and the bar started up with its usual noises that I only just noticed had stopped completely.

“Combat training I see.”

She laughed “Capoeira, actually, but there was not enough room to really get going.” A Brazilian martial art that started when the populous was denied martial arts hand to hand training back during the days of the British Empire, if memory serves, but I could be wrong, (that’s been know to happen once or twice a millennia). Not too uncommon this side of the Panama Canal. I chuckled.

“I can see that. Well, shall we sit?” I pulled a chair out for her, keeping my seat in the only real corner of the room and waving the bar tender again for a drink order. She picked up a briefcase I hadn’t had time to notice she’d dropped. Honestly I’d been busy noticing other things, like the way she tossed Jefe against the wall.

“I presume that you would like to review my credentials and training docket.” She took out a binder with a ream of paperwork in it and handed it to me

I took a minute to glance at the overview, list of qualifications, references, and certifications. That was a small chapter in and of it’s self. While I was reading, her green tea made it’s way to the table for her to sip on while I read.

Jefe’s two friends picked him up and half dragged him out of the bar. I had a nasty feeling that they, or at least he, would be back.

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Chapter 3

Tracey definetly made an impression that day… In the wall with Jefe. I still chuckle when I think of the completely perplexed look on his face as he colapsed into a heap on the floor.

If the truth is to be told, the gun was unloaded, so if Jefe or his friends had bothered to notice and take offence, I would have definetly have gotten my anso kicked at the very least.

You might ask what I was doing with an unloaded firearm on my person with all the restrictions those days. It is simple: The Uraguayan Government actually thought about the saftey of their people. Uraguay only had a population of aproximently 6 million people then, and a very bare fraction of those were spacers. It was not completely unheard of for some criminal to hold up an astronaut on his way home from 2 years in space with a pocket full of credit vouchers. So the government forced an accord through with Brazill International SpacePort: Allow our citizens to carry “protectionary devices” and receive a minor stipend of a kickback… or something to that degree. I never bothered to look into it really. All I cared about at the time was being allowed to carry for personal defence.

Of course the space-line decided that any and or all such devices had to be unloaded and the ammo placed in checked luggage which was completely unaccessible untill after you were well outside of the terminal. Oh, and the terminal would not allow you to load the ‘device’ untill you were 100 yards off their property. And then lets not forget that Uraguay Still does not have a Carry permit instatuted for just such a ‘device’. All of these rules were, of course, unwriten. Which ment that if you carried, do not ask and they would not arest you for it.

So what did all of those things accomplish for the average Uraguayan Spacer? Not a Dios dammed thing.

But I am getting away from the story again. I do that, you might have noticed.

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Dear Diary, April,4th, 2104

We caught a Pan-Am orbital, that she insisted on paying for, up to Tripp Station. As I expected she didn’t travel too heavy, but had enough to make life comfy for her, and she had her own suit. Hot Pink. Go Figure. Nice comset, latest tech, beats the unit I got hands down and then some. Clothes and more in reserve I bet, and a Guitar. Not a cheap on either. Fender Stratocaster with the built in amp/synth.

We got a couple odd looks and more then a few frowns of disapproval from the other passengers because we were suited up and they were in normal wear. My usual explanation if anybody ever bothered to ask, and a couple people have over the years, is thus, “I live in space, I know exactly what can go wrong...” it’s not always received in the best light. But at least once it cause the person to think about it and go buy their very own suit... not that they would use it more than once in their life more than likely... but.

“Maybe I should you introduce the Backasswards now.” I said, “She’s 100 meters in length. About 25 meters diameter but not really round. More squarish with rounded off edges, like an octagon. Her grave deck is 15 meters back from the forward bulkhead, and can almost comfortably house 8 people for around 2 years, plus a couple months for safety, of course. Her systems are packed in every crevice and crack imaginable, there isn’t more then a square meter of uncluttered wall space in the entire ship... and that meter is the Boob Tube, dry erase board, and back drop for my dart board. Ok, the TV is projected on the wall. A crew’s gotta have movies out there once in a while.” Tracey smiled as I continued.

“She has a docking collar that also serves as an airlock on the bow of the boat, that’s where we’ll be entering. It’s zero-gee to aid in loading. She’s got another airlock port side just aft the grav deck about midships, and another dorsal airlock between the engines where you can easily stick your head out and eyeball the 5th wheel docking collar for the cargo pods. That one is very small, not something I like to use often, but I’ve been know to have a peek once or twice in my time. Her engines come off the corners at 45, 135, 225, and 315 degress. Looks like an “X” with a fat center really.” I made a hand gesture crossing my hands in the form of an X.

“Oh, let me not forget to mention that those engines even before the upgrade we have to do could generate enough thrust to kill you if your stupid enough not to turn the Duke/Brannick Box Gravity Wave Generator on. She’s designed to pull a million tons of cargo a very long way in not all that much time. Bobtailing I once did a 30 gee boost with the Duke/Brannick Box up to match... Oh. My. GOD!” I took a breath, Tracey was listening intently.

“Never again.” I swore. “It was like lighting a Saturn 5 that was tucked between your anso cheeks. The cold jets were going rapid fire just to keep her strait, that much thrust and no weight behind her to keep her pointed in one direction. I coulda been all over the sky...  Now I know how Jim Lovell and Fred Haise felt when they fired the booster on the L.E.M. on Apollo 13 to get back to Earth. I only let her run a few seconds, but it was more than enough...” She chuckled

“Must have been one hell of a ride.” I nodded and continued describing my ship.

“The interior is a bit cramped compared to most of the larger craft floating out there these days. Corridors just wide enough to grab both sides to help move yourself around in Zero Gee, lots of hand holds, that kinda thing. The grav-deck has a running tract in it... Very 2001, but needed as well as the weight room. There is something about zero gee that affects the bones, if they aren’t under gravity your bones start to wither and become brittle. Makes it very had to get any work done if you pick up a back pack or your EVA suit and you break your arm because the bones aren’t strong enough to overcome the packs inertia. But I’m sure you know more about this than I do from what your docket says.” Tracey’s turn to nod, not wanting to interrupt my description. I guess I get passionate when I talk about my baby and she could tell.

“My cabin is first cabin inside the grav deck, closest to the bridge. Just in case, and by long tradition too. A bit bigger than the coffin hotel I normally check into on Terra. Queen sized bed, just in case the Captain has a female that sleeps with him or her as the case could be.” I fumbled not wanting to imply anything.

”The other cabins are double bunked, which fold away for single sleepers. All have a refresher in them, zero-gee commode, and sink. The galley is fairly basic, but has aspirations as the most comfortable room in the ship. That’s where the projector TV, my dartboard, and the food are. It’s the largest open room on board. Has the ability to prepare food under ‘Normal’ spin gravity and in zero-gee. Oh, there’s a refresher off the galley too, and that is where the crew shower is. Pull handle type, not Hollywood shower like the captains. Saves on water. Figuring there could be as many as 4 women onboard for a 50/50 split of the crew there has to be a couple extra refreshers... Just in case.” Again Tracey chuckled. I fumbled along again to try and cover my nervousness being this close to a woman after that many years in space alone.

“None of the propulsion areas are accessible from inside. No need to waste pressure on them. There are access panels on the outside that get you in to those spaces. Now the power systems are in pressure, the fuel cells and back up batteries. That sorta thing. The Nuke Pack is in there someplace. I’ve never played with it and I don’t wanna. I’ll let some one with less reason to live play with that thing. I don’t like glowing in the dark.” I smiled “I had to take the Backasswards in for a Nuke Pack check 6 years ago, and it’ll be due in another 4 years.” She looked at me quizzically, as if she didn’t already know that. Or more like why am I telling her this. “Yeah, every 10 years. It’s that whole Nuclear Regulatory Commission B.S. make sure we don’t irradiate space by having a leak... Go figure. I keep wondering if they’re gonna start down checking the sun for it’s rad leak... Burrow-crats. Yeah, I know it’s spelled the other way, but I say it the way they act.” This earned me another chuckle from Tracey. That kind of sound could get addictive.

“How about the Bridge and control set?” she asked

“The bridge is utilitarian at best. Spartan would be a kind why to describe it. The windows are short but wide, multi-segment, almost panoramic in their view. I can look over my shoulder and out the window. Blast shields are just inside and outside the windows. The inner ones keep pressure in if there is a blow out, and the outer ones keep stuff from poking holes in the windows. The outer ones are basically and literally just armor plating that slap down if the radar reports anything inbound that might hit the ship or by manual control on the board. The inner blast shields are C-4 powered and fired if the window integrity is compromised. They have an air tight seal and LOCK into position when the shit hits the fan. I’d have to read the manual to figure out how to unlock them... but I’d be in no hurry to do that.” She nodded.

“Safety and back ups are always desired when you live in space.” I nodded.

“Commanders and co-pilots seat are right next to each other. Ok, I fly left seat. Old habit. I also do the piloting unless I really trust who I’m flying with, then I act as commander instead of pilot. I might let you take her out since you have all the paperwork in order. Just to see how you handle her.” Tracey suppressed a beaming smile. Either because of the honor, or because I was doing my best not to insult her. “Controls are NASA/ FASA standard. Cyclic, and Collective. You being pilot qualified you’ll have no trouble.”

“Navigator and engineer’s stations are right behind the two pilots and like the other two are captain’s chairs and lock forward during boost. Against the rear bulkhead is the down ladder to the rest of the bridge, and where the other crew must be for boost.” Here again I smiled cause the next part is kinda funny to see the look on peoples faces when I describe it.

“Now, it trips people out that the floor of the flight deck and the floor of the lower bridge is the same piece of decking. That’s where the Duke/Brannick box works. Covers the most area for the least amount of equipment. It’s also the back up bridge, and has all the same stuff... well, it did when it was new. The upper deck’s been upgraded, and lower has not. It all works. I’m not stupid. But I always fly upper deck. Again, Habit.” Not even a grin, Tracey just nodded.

“Keep it simple, stupid. I approve.” Was all she said

“Thanks.” I almost frowned. “Now the docking collar/air lock runs in a tube between the two bridge decks, And is wide enough to get most of the equipment inside the ship thru. Only the nuke pack has to go out the side door... or the outer access panel. Oh, the tube is zero-gee. How they managed that with all the artificial gravity equipment around it is beyond me... Any questions so far?”

“What about backup systems? Emergency controls?” All business. Good.

“Ah yes, let me not forget the Emergency Back-Up Computer. Well, the ship has a main computer, and a back up comp. They run parallel 24/7. The emergency back up is a laptop stored on the lower bridge, in an armored padded EMP-hardend case in a locker right next to the second pilot’s seat. Plugs in right in the middle of the dash. It’s rude, crude, and absolutely guarantied to keep you alive if the worst happens... or you get a nice ‘we’re sorry’ card from the folks that made it. I’ve tested it about every launch. And it always seems to work, so I put it right back where it goes and don’t mess with it. It was new with the ship, and still goes, so I’m not gonna touch it beyond the checklist requirements. There is also the fact that it uses almost the exact same interface that one of the popular video games used to have. ‘L.E.M. Commander’ I think it was. I played it when I was a kid. Come to think of it, I think it was the exact same system... Never mind, I don’t wanna know.” I shook my head.

“Now, the cargo pods. Them are easy. They are un-powered except for running lights, usually un-pressurized, standardized boxes that hook to the 5th wheel on the rear bulkhead of my ship. Standardized cargo pods. You can daisy-chain as many as you want back there. The limit is what my fuel reserve can get moving. Now the first pod is always a fuel pod, and the last one. The reason for this is my engines are not articulated.... So instead of turning the train around, I detach the ship, turn around and fly to the end of the train. There I re-hook on to fire my engines to slow down...” I made hand gestures again to show the ship maneuvering ”so for a while there I’m flying with my ass pointed the way I’m headed... Back Ass Wards. Ok, bad joke. But it stuck.” Tracey had the good graces to at least chuckle at that one.

“I once had a load of pure lead. The whole load was lead. And that took 4 fuel pods, two each direction, to get back to earth. Ya know... if they ever do come up with hyper-sleep chambers, I’m thinking of getting one. So instead of two years being bored outta my skull, I only have to worry about the first, and last week of each leg. That’d keep supplies to a minimum and be interesting I think. Two years later and I’d have aged only a month total... probably would age at that rate. Yeah, I think I could live with that.” From the disapproving look on Tracey’s face I tried to cover my rear.

“But till Buck Rodgers Inc. makes good, there’s no sense in waiting with my thumbs lodged.” She nodded.

We hopped a puddle jumper over to Port Shepard, in honor of Alan B. Shepard Jr., from Tripp Station. As we approached Port Shepard we looked out the window, and there she was. Right where I had left her, nosed in to the air lock. I pointed her out.

“Well, that’s the ship. She’s not much to look at, kid, but she’s got it where it counts, as the old saying goes.” Invoking the words from the most holy of Trilogies. I could see by the reflection in the plexi that Tracey was studying her from here.

Ok, next time in port I gotta get her painted. She’s showing a couple surface rust spots, and more than a few sun faded areas. Her registration numbers were still nice and bold, as was the name emblazoned across the bow. ISP Reg’s. At least they don’t make me account for my time in 15 minute intervals anymore.

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Just a quick note, I never did get around to having my ship repainted. I keep putting it off for a slower day or when I get bored enough to do something about it. Maybe next month…

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“Parts I have on order should be up any time now. We’re gonna have to do an upgrade to the engines before we go. It’s the last one available, so no problems I hope. Got some other gear coming, too. Repairs mostly. The reclamation system needs hosing out…”

“Fun. How’s the air system?” she asked

“Needs a booster, or a flush. It’s about due for either, but I can’t afford a flush. Maybe next time I’m in dock.” She looked at me funny, which can be hard to do in a suit.

“Who is the system manufacturer?”

“Natur-Aire Chile, why?” I didn’t get a reply, she switched her channel. Like I said, my comset is old. I have to manually set the frequency on the side of my helm. Wrist switch is and has been broke for a while. I’ll get around to it when everything else works. Right now, what I have will do. She was off channel for a few minutes thru the puddle jumper’s comm link.

“How long are we staying in port? When you planning to boost?”

I shrugged, not easy to convey in a suit so I added “Not sure yet. Still looking for cargo. Have a sniff or two, but I’m not finding the rates I like yet.”

She switched off again but was only a moment before she was back “No Problem then. I have some stuff on order and I’ll log into CGC-NET and see if they have anything heading that way…”

“Now hold just a darn minute. I can’t afford any more parts, I’m about tapped as it is, not to mention I STILL have no idea how I’m going to pay your salary… Not that I even have a clue yet what you were planning to ask for pay!” She turned, looked right in my face screen with a neutral expression.

“Have I asked for money?”

“Uh. No. I figured it’d come up as soon as…” but I got cut off

“Then don’t bring it up again. I’m not using your account for the parts. I’m using mine. If I’m going to ship out on this rust bucket then she’s going to be up to my minimum specifications. I have standards. I like breathing, and 45 day old must is not what I wish to smell two days after boost.”

I couldn’t argue that one. “But still, This is my ship, and...”

“No argument there. I’m sure you won’t object if I fix a few things to make myself feel more comfortable on the next few runs. I can have them un-fixed when we get back if it bothers you too much…” She smiled. She had me, and she knew it. I knew it. She knew I knew she knew… Hmmmm. Maybe this is why I never married. I’d be getting steered around by my ears and be happy I was getting my way in a very backward kind of way. I tried another tact that I knew was doomed as the thought hit my array, but maldición del dios él, I had to try.

“And just how do you expect me to pay you back for all this? I’m not made of money and my contracts have been rather slim lately…”

“And I told you not to bring up money again. I will explain it this nice and slow. I. Am. Filthy. Stinking. Rich. I do not need your money. My allowance earns more per month than you can make on that thing in a year. I could buy this ship three times over with the interest I earn alone. I own everything I could ever want at the moment, and still have money to burn. I do not even have to take the money CareGivers Company would pay me, I do, I am not stupid. But I Do Not Need It.” She turned away and took a breath letting it out slowly. “Besides, I am heavily invested in CGC. So if the company is doing well, so am I.” She looked back at me. I could see the fire in her eyes, the passion that she was doin’ what she loved because she loved it. You can’t pay for that kind of dedication.

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The fire I saw in her eyes that day still smolders today just as hot today as it did the day we jumped an orbital up to Tripp. Tracey is not the only younge lady I have met that has that fire in her eyes. Nearly every CareGiver is that passionate about their chosen vocation. I am honored and privileged to know them, and ever more so to work with them on a regular basis.

But again I am side tripping from the story.

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Dear Diary,  April, 5th, 2104

We did a hull inspection, part of the pre-flight checklist. Pits, scrapes, a gouge or two in the outer armor plating. Nothing I would have worried about, some of them had been there as long as I’d had the ship. We were on the Buddy System, mag boots, safety lines, whole nine yards. Saved more than one spacers life, mine included, but that’s another story. Checked the running lights, visual inspection of the engines, door seals, ect ect ect. We were gonna have to work on the engines anyway, but I don’t take shortcuts unless a life depends on it, but taking risks like that more often can mean your life depends on it. Even checked to make sure the 5th wheel had enough grease on it and enough in reserve.

Inside we went over every system onboard, including the back up bridge repeating the entire bridge sequence from thing one to last item. Then continued from there back, through the galley, weight room, and suite of cabins, and into the shop areas behind the grav deck. This area also has a Duke/Brannick Box as well, but it’s offline unless work is being done, same as the bridge. We triple checked the airlocks, with suits on, and went back in the battery compartment, water reclamation, and the finally the access tube to the 5th wheel dorsal air lock.

That done, we hit the net. Me the brokers, and Tracey on CGC-Net. We had a bit of time till the parts all showed up. I was not looking forward to the engine overhaul. That’d be 3 working days worth of work, which requires a minimum crew of 4. We were gonna do it with 2. Then there was the scrubbing, flushing, and hosing out the water reclamation system. Restocking the stores, turning the sheets and fluffing the pillows... you get the idea.

Let’s just say another day didn’t make the load options any better on my brokers’ site. The one or two I might have taken got nabbed... and stuff I wouldn’t give a second look at was all that was left... ok, Time to cut Mikey off and get a new broker.

I went to the galley to get a cup of coffee and found Tracey there ahead of me.

“Coffee pot needs cleaning too.” She smirked, I harrumphed and grabbed a cup... ok, she was right... don’t rub it in.

“Any luck with the broker?” I flopped down in a chair and moaned a bit. “That good, eh?”

“Nothing I’d let my dog fly... if I had a dog that is.”

“Good.” She said, I lowered my cup.

“I beg your pardon?” She smiled behind her cup.

“I found a load on CGC-Net that will be preloaded a few days from now that I signed you up for. It’s a pretty hot ticket, but employees get first pick. And this one was right up your alley. It’s a few meters short on one container, but for what it is worth I think you will do ok on it.”

“Signed me up for, eh? And a couple meters short? Space is money in this line of work. I’ll have to find something to take up that space, make another percentage. I might be able to get things fixed next time I’m in dock!”

She took a sip and shook her head. “I already took care of that.”

Exasperated I set my cup down and looked at her. “Ok, little lady... out with it. My shields are down and hull patch crews standing by. You can’t deflate my ego any more than it already is... Spill ‘em.”

She chuckled. “I changed the work orders, added a few things, and picked up the whole tab. Even got a call from my bank wondering if some one had hacked my account or if I had picked up a new hobby...”

“Hobby, huh?” I chimed in

“Shush, I’m not done yet. The repair crews will be here in the morning, station time.” Which is GMT if no one ever told you. “The gentleman from Grumman was very nice. He’s looking forward to working on the engines. He’s never had the privilege to work on M.O.P. D-47’s. He is looking forward to working on about the last remaining flight worthy D-47’s, he is even knocking the cost of the upgrade off for only the labor... and that is not counting his labor.” She smiled like she was looking forward to something that I shouldn’t even be thinking about at my age.

“Natur-Aire Chile, will be here about lunch time for a complete flush and fill. Oh, and I found out they also support the water reclamation system too, so they will take care of that as well.”

I was going to sigh, but she continued as I took the breath, so I let it go with out the show... “Batteries 3, 4, 12, and 37 need replacing as we noted in the pre-flight. So I have the boys over in ISP maintainence coming with replacements and tools.”

“That’s against Reg’s, you and they know that!”

She all but purred “You do not have the right kind of voice to convince men to do your bidding...” and then she batted her eyelashes at me suggestively. It took a second for me to remember to breath, and she chuckled again.

There is that “being lead around by my ears” thing again... Why was I getting used to it? Never mind...

“I also faxed the ship’s registration info into CGC. They are sub-contracting you until further notice. Better rates and better cargo. You will need to stop by Yotori Station for your physical, it is due anyway you know, and then all will be ready.”

“Yes Mother.” I piped up in flippant response. It was sarcasm, but she got this wide-eyed look and said something in what sounded like Japanese as she bowed her head to the table. “Huh? What’d I say? Better yet, what’d you say?”

“I said ‘The honor is mine for your thoughtfulness. Thank you very much.’ I did not mean to offend you in using a language you are unfamiliar with.” She said in a very solemn voice. I guess CGC is a bit more then just a tech school. I pushed my coffee cup aside and whipped out the best manners I had available to me.

“No offence was taken. It’s my fault for implying such.” I bowed, not quite to the table, but it was definitely a bow. She smiled; as an awkward moment passed in silence.

“So...” I broke the silence “How did I honor you exactly? I was trying to be sarcastic.”

“When you called me Mother. The head CareGiver on a ship is called the Ship Mother. It is a rank that few obtain, and is a life’s ambition of many CareGivers to achieve.” Understanding broke upon my brow like a 2x4. I looked down and fumbled with my coffee cup a second.

“Well, I guess I understand now. I, uh. I need a First Officer. I haven’t had a competent first officer since Rubber Duck died or Carlos left. Maybe you’d know a young lady that might fill the post I have vacant...”

She smiled, and bowed again. “I might indeed, if you would find her worthy of such a position and honor.”

“I would.” I told her, returning the bow. We shared a smile. I didn’t want to ruin the moment, but, well... I’m a guy, it comes naturally. “We’ll need to get you a sword befit a first officer of my flag ship...” ok, that sounded just as lame out loud as it did in my head...

“Got one; wakizashi and tanto, actually. The katana is too long for the tight confines on board ship, but I have one of those as well. They were made in the 1600’s. It is my honor to carry them as your first officer.” She bowed again, and I returned it. If I did too much more bowing my back was gonna hate me in the morning.

That’s when I remembered something not on the checklist. I told her to follow me and led her to the armory. No, I won’t tell you where it is.

“Handy place for it. Easy to get to. Shotguns, pistols, machetes, hand axes. What is this ammo?” she asked taking inventory in a glance.

“That’s skatter-gun shot for the pistols. Solid slug might penetrate the hull, the skatter gun shot will shred a guy and put more holes in his suit than he can patch. In vacuum that’s pretty much all you need.” I took the pistol from my armpit, swung it open and showed her the empty cylinder I had carried up from Terra.

“Thirty-eight caliber. These five shells right here go for it.” I pointed to five lined up in foam right up front.  “And there are more in this box, if it’s needed. I hope I never have to use it, but...” I latched the cylinder and holstered the .38 snub-nose under my armpit.

“Sure, there is nothing more useless then an unloaded handgun. In space there are fewer things safer than an unloaded pistol. Ok, the skatter gun loads help a lot. Personally I’d rather not chance it. If some one tries to board me I think I’d see them coming. I got a military grade radar set, salvaged and not on record of course, and I can see a long way off or really small things closer up. Either way... it’s good to know where this is.”

I secured the armory again.

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Dear Diary, April, 8th, 2104

All of the work is done. For the last couple days I’d nothing better to do then sit in the lounge out side my ship and watch as over a dozen or so techs came and went for more then a couple of hours, then it was just the engine crew. At least twice that I know of Tracey disappeared inside to talk with the chief tech from Grumman... I stood guard at the door. Just to make sure they were not... Disturbed. Yeah, that’s a good word to use.

That was also the time when the most disturbing thing happened. 20 goons in armor with combat shotguns and drum mags showed up at my airlock. The smallest of them could have been a linebacker, Easy. Tracey fielded this one too. Only I noted with a bit of pride that her charms had little to no effect on him. Yay, for my gender striking back. He got his way, and took 12 men inside my ship, while the rest stood guard outside the airlock.

When they came back out he sent a short comm message. All I heard was static. Then 50 more showed up marching in step. They parted like the Red Sea and up came a bean counter if I ever laid eyes on one before. He was pushing a sort of cart. And there where 3 more behind him also being pushed by bean counters and a security guy carrying tools. An hour later they were back out of my ship and most of the goons departed. 10 stayed behind to guard the chief bean-counter. I invited him in, he accepted... two of the goons followed him like a 150 kilo shadows, and closed the lock behind him shutting us inside.

“I am Percival Steinberg, Captain. Your First officer here graciously offered your services to my employers.” He did not offer his hand.

“Happy to be of service, Mr. Steinberg. I hope your employers are as pleased with their service as I am with my First Officer.” I gave a bit of an eye to Tracey, but turned quickly back to the bean counter, who gave a forced smile. Protocol demanded it of him or I don’t think he could have managed.

“Yes. I am sure they will. Now. Let me show you what was done and get you to sign for it.” He led us back to one of the cabins. Ok, this burns my biscuit. Being led by a bean-counter around My Own Ship. I clenched my fists when I could and clenched my jaw so as to keep from biting my tongue, literally.

There in the middle of the floor where the carts. Bolted and wielded to the floor. I almost lost it. I was drawing in a breath to let loose with a tirade that would have made mama proud, when Tracey pushed me out of her way and started inspecting the wields and padlocks.

“All seems to be in order here Mr. Steinberg. Are you satisfied with the installation, Sir?” I guess I missed this was directed at me.

“Yes. I double checked it several times during the installation. It will do.” He turned to me while his shadows stood out side the door, blocking it quite a lot. The bean counter presented a clipboard he seemed to have drawn out of thin air and a silver pen. “If all is suitable, Captain, please sign on the dotted line.” I looked at him, the clipboard, then him again. Decided it’d be far more trouble to undo all this than to swallow more pride and sign. Hell, I threw in the towel completely and managed a smile too. I signed and presented the clipboard back to him. He flipped a couple pages and pulled the quadruplicates out of the original and handed them back to me.

“The green copy is for your manifest. The orange is the clients’ copy. The blue is to be returned to me upon return to Earth space for future reference, and the Yellow is for ISP when they demand a copy... which they probably won’t but will have a fit if you don’t have it. So, all seems to be in order here. This door will be locked by my security chief and is not to be opened until you arrive at New Atlanta on Mars. My company’s representative will have the keys and everything needed to remove the cases. You will, of course, not mention that any of this happened to anyone between now, when you leave Mars space, and return This paper to my office. You are bound by contract to exactly that. Any questions?”

Again Tracey got there first. “No, Mr. Steinberg, no questions.” He actually managed almost a real smile. How does she do it? First me, then the Grumman rep, now the bean counter... Never mind, I don’t wanna know.

“Good. My lady, if you would be as so kind as to show me the door?” I’m almost flapping now, unnoticed of course. Tracey smiled. He offered his arm. What in the Heavens is going to happen next? She took his arm and they left the room. After about 3 seconds my feet caught the message my brain had been sending and caught up with them. The two security guys stayed behind for a moment to lock the door. In the lounge the bean counter took her hand in his, bid her a good eve, then left with the 9 goons in close tow.

I looked at the paperwork in hand, and finally bothered to read it... My eyes bugged out. I looked at Tracey, she pointed at the ship and in we went. With the hatch secure again I blurted it out finally.

“Bearer Bonds? Where en infierno did you get a load of bearer bonds to buy spacer currency?” I asked. She looked at me archly and chuckled

“I told you I’d find you something to fill that extra couple of meters in the cargo that you were lacking. Besides, the rest of it, while not horridly expensive, it is still a good load. And this just fills in the crannies...”

“And more than triples my take this run, which you forgot to mention...”

Again she flashed her pearly whites “There is that. On top of the other cargo too.” We exchanged a look. I lost. Ok, maybe lost is too harsh a word. Just with what I have welded to the deck I’d make more in one trip than in the last 4 trips out, easy. Add in the cargo we had yet to maneuver to go get, and an almost complete overhaul of everything that’s been wrong for the last 10 years.

Oh yes. More work than I was told about was done. I was not always out side the door, and I didn’t see what all was going on outside. I was “reading” and watching who all came and went from my ship. Anyway the load waiting on us was worth three times any of my last 4 loads combined. This was gonna be a Good Run.

Chapter 4

Dear Diary, April, 9th, 2104

We maneuvered. I was pilot, as was my custom, and Tracey Nav’d, ran radio, and was a good hand all around. Ol’ pro if I didn’t know better, but she was too crisp, too perfect. Well, no complaints. We got coupled to the train first shot, with the help of remote camera’s in all the right places. Cleared the paperwork with the harbor pilot, let the computer plot the course, we also did it by hand. Computers fail. Paper usually don’t. Not to my surprise Tracey finished before the computer, I came in third.

“Ever pilot a ship out of space dock?” I had to... it was too easy, too perfect to pass up. I’m a history buff, and movies is good history. Especially if they have to do with space.

“No Sir.” She looked at me. Ok, now I know I’m being read like a book. Her eyes went wide again. I waved a hand toward the window.

“Take her out, Mr. Saavik.” Ah, yes... The Christmas Tree Effect. That’s when a persons face lights up so bright you can hear the electric meter spinning from around the corner of the house.

Ok, I’ll spare ya the boring details of the next two hours. We were almost aligned as it was. That’s done on purpose. When you have 48 containers attached to your anso you try to keep maneuvering down to an absolute minimum. Getting them strait again takes far more effect than it’s worth some times. Now, add in the fact that the first and last container in the train is your life’s blood... also explosive if you cogida up completely.

“How many boosts does this make for you?”

“38... simulated.” Was the answer I got.

“How many live boosts have you done?”

“Uh, one... Including this one.” We still had a while before we could burn. Slow boating away from dock on cold gas and only the slightest hit of thrust to get it all going at the required departure rate. That gave me enough time for my tale.

“Ok, Boosting at 5 gee’s is an experience you won’t soon forget, or wish to relive if the Duke/Brannick box ain’t working...” I figured talking would ease her tension. I could see it in the set of her jaw. Locked. “Mainly because by the time the 24 hours have passed, so have you. It’s been calculated that an Olympic athlete might survive, a 48 kilometer marathon runner has a slim chance, and that your average Joe has none. Your heart would either explode or fail after about 6 to 8 hours.”

“After this much time in space I’d have to guess that I’m about average of a Joe. But I can’t afford to run the DB at 5g’s for 24 hours, I don’t have the batteries for that. I can get away with running it at 3g, and living through the other 2g for 24 hours.” Oops...

“You do now.” She smiled briefly. Hey, at least my plan was working

“Yeah, I guess I do. Things always go through my mind during boost, and not just check lists, flight plans, checking scopes and the computer. No. History goes thru my mind. The Gasconader Folie accident for one. You hear of that one?” I looked over and saw a quick shake of her head. “Don’t they teach you kids anything these days?”

“Back in February, 2036, the Gasconader Folie was launched on her maiden voyage. She was loaded with highly over priced tourists. Some time during boost communication was lost. The ship never returned, and all hands on board were declared dead about 2 years later. What you probably won’t hear about is the tidbit on the emergency beacon. Every ship I have ever heard of leaving atmosphere has had a beacon on it that when all else fails it sends a transmission back to Terra letting the folks on the ground know how you bought it. Or at least they used to, anyway. There is also the shear enormity of the insurance scandal that followed too.”

“Seems that the folks that were to ride as passengers didn’t like looking at the door tracks for the air tight seals…” She rolled her eyes. Pounders. I bet you a nickel that was the thought that went through her mind. “So they had them covered with wood. Real Wood. Carved and inlaid with designs like trim around a window or fireplace. The Air tight doors can cut a man, unfortunate enough to be laying across the threshold, in half. But that amount of thick hard wood would just jam it.” I sighed.

“There was a problem. What, no one will ever know until human kind develops FTL, faster the light travel, and catches up with the G’n F to return her to earth. Ok, there would be Billions of peso’s worth of historical salvage there. I could with WAY too much time on my hands I could plot her course and speed, figure out where she’d be If I could ever catch up with her… but that’ll never happen in my life time, or yours.”

“The Emergency beacon reported an explosive decompression, engine status which was still under one gravity burn, course, and flight plan. We know from her track that she never slowed down. Half way to Mars she was supposed to cut power, pull a 180 for the slowdown burn and do a fly by of Mars, then slingshot back to Earth, passing Luna both ways. That’s it. No stops, no freight, no cargo. Just rich passengers on a holiday trip around the solar system.” I could see Tracey was relaxed now, or at least as relaxed as she was gonna get

“A couple years later she was the third man made object to leave the solar system. Yeah, things like that occupy a small piece of my mind while boosting. Now I guess you can see why.” She looked over at me with a smile.

“Let me guess. You got that story on your first boost, right?” I let my grin answer her question

Tracey acquitted herself well during her first live boost. Took the 2g-actual ride in stride, and made a point of sitting up a bit against the force every so often. Ok... I ran it that way because you need to feel the thrust to remind you of what happens if something fails. Also if something does, you’re not hit with 5 gees right in the face. You only gotta deal with 3 more, and that gives you time to do something.

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Dear Diary, April, 15th, 2104

Now I’m not exactly a monk, and having a woman like Tracey on board reminds me of that about every other thought, but I’m not a playboy either. I never took those drugs that make a mano Stud-muffin of the week. I still work, and I take my time. Suits me just fine. I decided I needed to get to know Tracey before I even thought of doing anything to attract attention if you know what I mean. So we talked.

We’d been en-route for at least a week. Exchanged a few mails with Terra. Mostly from Tracey’s little brother Reggie. Reg was his fathers son, I could tell from they way Tracey described him... “Just Like Dad.”

Ok... I’m not supposed to admit this, but I get lonely out here. I ain’t got no family no more. Last of them died off a while ago. Don’t remember when. Don’t really care to either. What little I can actually remember of my family is not really worth remembering. I need some one to talk to once in a while. Don’t tell any one that I said this... but the last couple hookers I was with, we spent more time just talking, and drinking coffee... My treat of course. Covered their time, and afterwards we... well. Business is business, and I’ll leave it at that.

We were sitting up on the bridge drinking coffee and I was poking my nose in to about every part of her life I could get her to talk about. That’s when things started to get odd. I noticed things about her family, things long buried in the back of my mind. Things I thought long forgotten. That’s when I asked… I had to. I needed to know.

“Tracey, what is your mother’s maiden name?” She blinked then looked at me.

“Penny, Penny Wise. Why do you ask?”

I started laughing, and didn’t stop for what seemed like an hour. I was gasping for breath and having to suck on an O2 tap before I could get myself under control enough for further conversation.

“Are you ok?” I waved her back into her seat. And tried to decide if I should tell her...Why the hell not?

“Here’s how it fits together in my head. I had a fling with a girl named Penny Wise 22 years ago, right before she got married it turns out. From what you’ve told me, if she’s the same gal. She got pregnant Very quickly, like on her wedding night. Delivered a couple weeks early, a nice standard baby boy, that’d be you. No chemicals at all till you joined CGC. Her husband, your father, has been on the Mano stud-muffin drugs most of his life. There is a chance, about a 1 percent of 1 percent, that some of his sperm were unaffected... It could happen. I mean you are 21, and when you showed me pictures of your family... and Lemme tell you, you look nothing like your father, even before CareGivers.”

“My mother told me I looked more like my grandmothers side of the family.”

Now I happen to have a photo album floating ‘round the bridge (not literally, that’s bad house keeping and we spacers never let stuff float. Could cause accidents). It’s been all but unused for a while. I keep it because... Well, I’m not sure. Anyway we compared her family pictures with mine. Set a picture of her right before she went in to CGC and a pic of me and my dad when I was 20ish next to each other. That is when I started my laughing fit again.

“Those perras! They knew!” I all but stopped laughing at her words

“What? What did they know?” I noticed a tear running down her cheek.

“They knew we were related... that is why they instructed me not to sleep with you under any circumstances.”

“What!?” a bit angrier than I actually felt

“They wouldn’t give me a reason beyond it was something undesirable in your genetics that wouldn’t be compatible with mine... Those perras!”

Now I am truly in uncharted territory. I’ve never had a female in my employ start crying around me before...

Being halfway to Mars, it’s kind of hard to get into a fight with the people who did what’s right by you and your unknown family in a rather underhanded and sneaky way... but if Tracey could have done it, she would have, balling the entire time I think. Personally I’d a been happy dropping a rock on their anso... well, maybe not on, but close by. Just close enough to be a warning. There are not enough women in the world, no sense in killing any. Ok, maybe just a very strongly worded letter. Yeah. That’d do it.

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If someone ever figures out how we fell asleep, her in my lap and her head on my shoulder while I’m still strapped in to the pilots seat... please, let me know, ok?

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Dear Diary, April, 18th, 2104

Tracey was in the shower, and we were way on the far side of Luna. I opened the Com-log for a return number to Tracey’s folks place. Speed of light delay was growing daily, up to about 2 minutes now. I canned a message to Tracey’s mother, and transmitted it to earth. Basically I was just introducing myself to the mother of my First Officer. I tried not to leave anything overtly implied in the message just in case her husband got a hold of it. Also to not out the fact I knew about Tracey to her mother. Just a short 30 second message. She must have been home, because I got a reply about 5 minutes later.

Madre de Maria del dios! Casey!” Her smile lit up my screen. She was every bit as beautiful as I remembered, and even more so with time. “I have not heard from you in 22 years! You’ve aged. I can see the worry in your face, and the same old smile in your eyes.” She looked over her shoulder, then back at the screen.

“Jonathan is home right now, but in another room.” She took a deep breath “He doesn’t know, but I can tell from your message that you do. Please, let me explain this to you. Jonathan is not to know, if he did... I am not sure what he would do. I hope you understand.” I saw behind her that Reggie was walking in.

Papá wants to know who it is, madre. Is it sis?” he asked as he approached the terminal.

“No, dear. It is the Capitán of your sisters ship. Capitán Casey Maxwell. Do you wish to say hello to the Capitán?” He smiled and stepped a bit closer, gave a rough salute and spoke his greeting.

El Capitán Maxwell, Space Cadet Reggei Chadwick-Robins reporting for Duty, Sir!” he dropped the salute. His mother smiled and gave him a hug, then ran him out of the room.

She sighed. “Well, I had better send this before it gets too long to transmit.” The screen blanked and the words End Transmission appeared. I took a minute to compose myself. Looked back over my shoulder across the galley toward Tracey’s stateroom, the door was still closed. I looked back at the terminal, and tried to word my message.

“Greetings from the Backasswards, Mrs. Chadwick-Robins. You have a fine son there, and a very fine daughter here. She’s better at these systems than even I am, and I’ve had this ship 10 years. She’ll make you proud M’am. I’ll pass her your message, and look forward to the day when your son is ready to follow her into space. I’ll try to keep a berth open for him.” I smiled and cut the recording for transmission. I heard a door open and bare feet coming closer.

“I thought I heard you talking, getting mail traffic?” I looked back over my shoulder. Tracey was drying her hair with a towel, and had another towel wrapped around her. I tried not to notice too much and turned back to the terminal.

“I sent your mother a short greeting from the Captain. She replied. She remembers me... That’s almost a surprise. She said your Dad doesn’t know, and she don’t want him to know. Also Reggie came in and said hi. Cute kid.” I grabbed up my coffee cup and took a sip. Dam coffee tastes good when the thing is actually clean. “You can play back the message log if you like.” I got up, turned my back on her to leave the room.

“Did you take your vitamins this morning?” she asked before I got to the door. I looked back across the curved floor of the galley to Tracey still rubbing the water out of her hair.

“Never took the things before, never needed them... but yes, I took them.” She smiled and turned her back to get herself a cup of coffee. I turned again for the door. I stopped when the question started to nag at me. Eh, prolly not important right now.

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Dear Diary, May, 4th, 2104

I’ve been spending a lot of time talking with Tracey. You’d think that as an ol’ space hermit I’d get tired of talking after a few days, maybe even a few weeks. Well, it ain’t working out that way. Seems like not a day goes by that we don’t find something new to talk about. I find her insights to just about everything in the news to be, well, insightful. We’ve talked about her childhood extencively. I know just about everything there is to know about her life.

Her grades in school. Which girls she liked when she was still male, which was way before she joined the Care Givers Company and took the DeCorvin Process which genetically altered her to female.

“Have you ever noticed that your musical tastes are as diverse as my own?” I asked one day. She nodded, wither with the music or to my question I’m not sure. “But we did hardly ever agree on what kind of music to listen to at any given moment.”

“That is because musical preferance is mainly subjective to ones emotional state.” She stated. “As philosophers have been pointing out for hundereds of years, males and females live on different emotional planes. Ones’ moods are hardely if ever in sync with the others.”

“Which just goes to prove that I spend more time with headphones on than you do.” She smiled.

“It is called Courtesy. You might want to look it up one day to figure out exactly what it means.” She smiled and hummed a catchy tune.

“I mean, I’d be in a merry metal mood, and you’d be playing the entire collection of Mozart, cranked up loud. The next day I’d be all for Blues, and you’d have the Techno thunder-beat going. Yet the other day I had 2080’s pop going, and you wouldn’t let me change the channel when they started playing all those sucky love songs.”

“They are not sucky. They are sentimental, there is a differnce.” I frowned

“About the only time I don’t have to use my head phones is when I’m on watch and you’re sleeping.” She smiled again, and said nothing. Go Figure.

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Dear Diary, June, 2nd, 2104

At the midway point we disconnected from the head of the train, turned around, flew to the end of the train, and reattached. This way we’d be in the right place for the slow down burn for Mars orbital insertion. I let Tracey pilot this time. She did it by the book, and perfect. We also recalculated the flight plan by hand and on the computer... just to double check. Not only did I not make my usual mistakes and have to correct, but I finished before the computer did, something I’ve not done in at least the last four years.

Ok, quick recap. Ever since I started taking those vitamins I’ve been feeling better. Tracey insisted I work out a bit more, and run. I’m in better shape now than I have been since I was in my 20’s. I read faster, and I had to stop using my reading glasses.

Honestly I hadn’t thought about it. The coffee got better every day, or so it seemed. So did the food. The air smelled sweeter then it did right after the flush and fill. I actually slept soundly most nights and my back stopped hurting too.

I got up one morning and was about to pop my vitamins in my mouth when I happened to notice one had a label.... So I looked. “Fountain” it said. I clenched my fist around it and went up to the bridge where Tracey was on watch.

“How long have you been feeding me these things?” she turned and looked at me standing in the hatchway.

“Since we boosted, why?”

I tossed her the Fountain pill “And this?” I said with all the accusation I could put in my voice. It floated over to her in zero-gee, she caught it and looked at it seeing the label.

“The whole time. Why is it a problem?” she looked right back at me, right in my eyes and didn’t even try to hide it. No shame there at all.

“Couldn’t you have told me that’s what I was taking?” I grabbed one of the rungs to keep from floating away. She tossed it back and I caught it.

“It is part of your contract, had you bothered to read it. You have to be in perfect health, and you needed Fountain to get there.”

My mind went blank. I’d worked up quite a yelling match in my head, and now it was out the airlock. She did have a point. All that hard work, the vitamins, and the running... it’d not have had that much effect as I’d seen in these last few months.

Again with the ear thing... I looked down at the pills in my hand.

“Tell me before you do something like this next time. I’m not a kid anymore, I can handle the truth” And floated back down the hatch. I thought I caught a grin on her face as she turned around to watch the monitors.

Ok, I took it along with the rest of them once I got back to my coffee. I’d already been on them awhile, and it’d not hurt to keep on them. I made it a point not to talk to her for a couple hours however... Pride is a horrid animal, and mine had been hurt.

In case you’ve been living in a cave for the last 83 years, I’ll explain what the heck Fountain is. Fountain is an anti-geriatric. The chemical works by repairing the frayed ends of DNA strains, giving the DNA a longer replicating cycle. A one-month tour of Fountain is calculated at doubling the life expectancy of the average human. Or so the brocures say. I had to look them up on the net to get that info.

I’m no genetics guru. All I know is The Fred, Fred Hastings of Apollo Frieght, has been on the stuff since shortly after it went public. That was back in 2022. He was born in 1984. It’s 2104 now.

You do the math.

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Dear Diary, June, 20th, 2104

Have you ever had a knock-down, drag-out argument? The kind where both people involved were screaming and yelling at the top of their lungs and throwing things, hurling insults back and forth like a Frisbee or Racquetball? Not actually hitting each other, but trying to hurt the other as much as possible with words? Throwing things against the wall and slamming things like chairs out of the way?

Yeah, it was one of those kind of days. Truth is I can’t for the life of me remember how it all got started. I’d been a bit testy since I learned about the Fountain pills she’d been feeding me since we boosted, and the underhanded way she steered me around by my ears all the time. It just kinda built up to it. Then it kind of got away from us.

We’re Latin, and passion runs strong through us. It finally got to the point I couldn’t think of anything else to hurl at her so I yelled at the top of my lungs pointing out of the galley.

"You Go To Your Room!" she stopped, stunned by what I had just said. Her eyes went wide, then began to water. I took a couple of deep breaths and lost most of my fire. She covered her mouth with her hand and I could see her shoulders beginning to shake. I really stared to feel bad about that when she burst out laughing. That took a minute to sink in just how absurd it was before I joined her.

After a moment we both collapsed in chairs unable to stop laughing. Then we hugged.

"Stop treating me like a little girl." She giggled.

"Spoiled brat."

"Crotchity old fart." She retorted. I looked her in the eyes still smiling.

"What am I ever going to do with you?"

"Well, if you ever try to spank me your going to get the same treatment that the louse in the bar got." We hugged again.

"I think I’ll pass on that."

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Dear Diary, August, 10th, 2104

You have no idea what it’s like to hear such a lovely voice growling and almost yelling while singing. Tracey had her guitar out at least once a week or more and spent a few hours belting out tunes that must have had Ted Nugent dancing in his grave. Mainly cause they were mostly his tunes.

It’s not like she was playing solo, nah, she had built in back up in that synth-amp built into her guitar.

We’d pass a ship heading the other way and she’d fire up the guitar to inspire and motivate the gents on the other boat. She was always a hit. She’d had to tone back a bit so it wasn’t over distorted on the comm-set, but she played regularly for a couple days, took requests, ran her impormptu